Comments are welcome. This is story of emotions caused by confusion. It is fictional and involves inappropriate relations between a father and naive daughter. If that's not your thing, this is not the story for you.
When I woke up the following morning, Dad was already up, and we were driving. The curtain was closed, which I found odd. Then I looked down and saw that I was still nude from the waist down. It made sense why Dad kept the curtain closed. I asked my father, "Are we getting an early jump on the road?" I grabbed my shorts and pulled them up as I went to the front of the truck to talk to my father.
As I sat down, my dad told me, "No, we are actually further behind schedule than we should be. You just slept late."
"Gee...I wonder why I slept late, Dad. What's your take on that?" I attempted to open a dialogue with my father about what we had done the night before.
I could tell my father was uncomfortable. He finally spoke, "Yeah...um...I hope you are not mad at me. We got carried away, and I feel horrible about what I did. I'm glad it didn't progress to something worse."
I could tell what we did last night ate at him. Like him, I had regrets. But how he made me feel last night was an earth-shattering experience. It made me realize how little I knew about my own body. I'll be honest: I was glad he didn't attempt to have sex with me; I agree, that would definitely have been too much. But I'd be lying if I said I didn't want him to repeat last night's events. "Dad, what happened, happened. There's nothing we can do to change it. I guess we have to move on from it. I can move on from it if you can."
Dad glanced at me before responding. "I don't know if it's that easy. Did you enjoy what we did?"
I decided to be honest, no matter how uncomfortable it was. "Dad, I woke up the night before, and your hand was in my sweatpants. At first, I was shocked, then you woke up, saw what you were doing, and stopped. So, I knew what could have happened last night and did it anyway. What I didn't expect was you doing what you did. And...to be honest...I have never felt that good. It was amazing. I agree; we are lucky nothing else happened. But...I will always remember how you made me feel. It was amazing." I could feel my humiliation heating my body. My face felt like it was burning.
"I'm grateful we stopped there. I would have felt horrible if things went further. I am glad you aren't mad at me for taking advantage of you." I could tell that what happened disturbed him, but he wanted more information. "So, you liked it that much?"
Dad's question shook me. I thought I had already answered his question; why did he need me to repeat it? "Dad, I never knew I could feel like that. It felt like my body was on fire, and when...you know...I had my, umm...well, you know, it sent me over the edge of the cliff." I was glad that he was driving while I made my attempts to speak. There is no way I would be able to say what I was saying if he was looking at me. I wanted to know if what we did was a one-off or if he expected us to do it again. It is a difficult question to ask when it is your father. "So, what happens now?" I asked.
Again, he turned the conversation back to me. "It is up to you, Lisa. I felt like you were trying to tease me, and when I realized you didn't have panties on, my penis started thinking for me. Like I said, you are lucky it didn't progress to something more."
This was the first time he said I was lucky it didn't go further. Previously, he said we were lucky. Was that a misstep in his words, or did he change that to warn me? I started to get confused. I wanted to break the tension, so I tried making a joke. "I'm lucky? Seems to me you were the lucky one." I said as I laughed at my attempt at humor. My immediate thoughts were, why would my father accuse me of teasing him because I didn't wear panties. How would he know if I had panties on or not? "By the way, Dad, are you saying I wanted it because I didn't wear panties?"
Dad snickered at my comments. "Lisa, you should be more careful. Don't bite off more than you can chew." I could tell he was choosing his following words carefully. "What I'm saying is, you need to be more careful. Sometimes, women send mixed messages. I thought that's what you were doing. You were scantily clothed, knowing I was lonely."
"Dad, I don't need to be careful. And you don't need to be scared. I won't bite it." I started laughing hysterically while thinking, what the fuck did I just say? I couldn't believe I made a joke about biting my Dad's junk. I continued with my antagonizing. "So, if I wear cute, comfy clothes, I'm sending a message that you should take them off?"
My father had a quick comeback that I wasn't expecting. "Good to know you will return the favor next time." I couldn't believe he just made a joke about me giving him a blow job. Then he continued. "What I'm saying is men let the physical emotions take over. It would help if you were more careful. That's all."
I couldn't believe my father was furthering this conversation. His innuendo shocked me. This was a version of my father I did not know. He was quickly winning the war of words with me. I'd be lying if I said my mind wasn't going wild on what could happen. For the first time, I had thoughts of him seducing me into doing more with him. I quickly changed my thinking. There was no way I would agree to have sex with him. Nor would I give him or anyone else a blowjob. I needed to end this whole conversation. "Ok, Dad. I will be more careful. And I won't be returning the favor. I don't do that. Never have, never will. It's gross."
My father seemed ready to move on as well. "Are you hungry?" was all he asked.
For the rest of the day, we returned to being who we were before last night. We joked, and we ate, with no further inappropriate talk of sexual wants or needs. We did, however, discuss whether we would sleep in the truck or get a hotel room. My father told me that the company he was making a delivery for had a facility we could use to shower, and that was on our way. He also told me they were real bathrooms, with cleaner bathrooms than most hotels, with no time restrictions. Or we could rent a hotel room tonight. If we had access to clean bathrooms, why would we waste a hotel tonight? It made more sense to get a hotel tomorrow night. So, we agreed to stay in the truck for tonight.
I had awoken from a deep sleep as my father pulled into the company's parking lot. I looked at my clock and couldn't believe it was midnight. My father gave me a code for the bathroom while informing me we would be parked there for the night. One of the good things about these kinds of stops is we could use multiple bathrooms. We both ran through the lot to keep from freezing. The cold woke me up, and all I could think was that I wouldn't get any sleep tonight. My father was right; these bathrooms were clean and felt safe. It was so clean; I was glad I had brought my razor.
Once I was done, I exited the bathroom and could see my father had already returned to the truck. As I ran through the freezing lot, I noticed no other trucks parked there. As I jumped into the truck, I heard my father laughing. "It never gets old watching you run through the parking lot, freezing your ass off."
Rubbing my hands together to warm them up, I responded, "Shut up, Dad. It's not funny. I'm freezing."
Dad handed me his bottle of whiskey. "Here, drink up. It'll help you."
I was getting used to drinking whiskey every night after my shower. "Don't mind if I do," I said. I decided to sit up with Dad tonight and drink more than usual. I hoped it would help me sleep, like it did for my father.