"You are late again, where have you been all night?" Ames's voice was slurred and hoarse.
Lena knew he was drunk since he was acknowledging her presence. A bit tipsy and stoned herself, she certainly was not ready to hear his nightly TedTalk. After locking the front door, her blond dyed curls pressed against the door frame and she sighed in frustration.
"I gave you a curfew for a reason, I don't understand what I did wrong. Maybe I gave you too much growing up." She could hear his sign of defeat and mumbling curses.
"Lena!"
"Yeah, I'm listening," Lena rolled her eyes at his loud voice waiting for his rant to die down, so she could explain herself.
"I know you think you're grown and don't need discipline, your curfew is for your safety, not mine. And if you're going to live back in this house. You're going to start following rules, rules I should have had a long time ago."
"I was at a friend's house. By the time I looked at my phone, it was already 10 o clock then I asked Kelly to drive me home." Lena called out from the small foyer.
She sat her bag down, took her shoes off, and seized another deep breath before joining Ames in the living room.
"It's not even eleven," she muttered, entering the room.
He was reclined back with a glass in his hand, his long arms hung off the arms of the massive leather chair. Looking over at his small oldest child, he gave her a grimace and shook his head for the articulation of his letdown.
"Hmph, the way you dressed, seems like you wanted to stay out all night," he noted.
Lena looked down dumbfounded at her outfit. It was far too relaxed, to be 'clubbing' if that's what he thought. Her jean shorts were a bit too tight but the large t-shirt hid all of her upper body.
"I thought I had time but... If I would have driven the car this would never have happened, Kelly had to drive 20 minutes here."
There was something about explaining herself at age 19, that made her more irate at being questioned. It was also blowing her high. It was only 10:40 and she was too old to not be out after 10 pm.
"Well, you can't drive my car without a license, you could have taken the bus," he reminded her.
"A bus? Seriously, I wouldn't be home right now, the bus takes longer."
"Where's this attitude coming from Lena? Man, I don't know what's going on with you. You used to be calm and cool as hell, I can't even..." Ames trailed off and went back to ignoring the fact she was back home.
She walked toward her bedroom door, passing Ames and his sacred recliner on the way, she stroked his shoulder.
"I'm sorry, Ames," she looked at him. They were eye to eye as he sat in his big chair. She didn't wince but her expression fell when he removed her hand from his shoulder.
"You need to get it together and fast," he ruled. "I ordered pizza. Me and your brother already ate."
"Cheese?"
Ames scrunched up his nose, "You can pick the meat off. A little protein won't hurt you."
Lena had once been her stepdad's favorite. He loved them both but he always preferred her and her interest in sports over his real son and his fondness of the Arts. Now, after getting kicked out of college for selling a bit of weed, it was different. She was back under his roof and living by his strict rules, which seemed to only apply to her.
James or Ames, as his friends and her mother used to call him, was never a violent drunk. Instead, he loved to talk when he was intoxicated. He had never hit his children when they misbehaved. But he would scold and voice his criticism, especially when he felt they needed a lesson.
Only thing was, she didn't need a lesson, her punishment was the fact she had gone from sugar to shit in 6 months. She didn't need a memento of how she had fucked her life up before it even started. Yet he had reminded her the past seven days of how much she ruined her life.
"You need to get it together, fix your mess before it's too late," he told her.
"I will, I promise," she assured, touching his broad shoulder yet again. He moved his shoulder away, "Go on, eat your food, you haven't eaten hardly anything this whole week."
Lena was more disturbed at how he was behaving toward her, she had never seen him furious at her before. When he was sober, he refused to talk to her, giving her the coldest shoulder. "I'll go to community college next semester and I will find a job before then," she explained yet again.
She smiled at him and he returned with a serious expression, rolling his eyes. He was drunk and talking which was better than him sober and ignoring her. No matter what he did, she could never change what happened.
"I'm really sorry, Daddy."
Lena usually called him Ames and so did his son but when she was this deep in trouble, she felt the title would soften the verbal blows. She was wrong.
"You got that right, sorry as hell messed your whole life up over a little money. Goddamnit, if you needed money you know good and well you could have called me. I would have flown up there before I let you do some stupid shit like that!" He shouted.
"I know, it was stupid."
Lena dropped her head and kept her stride toward her room door as he loudly kept on voicing his opinions.
"I busted my ass 18 years for what? Nothing, because you're right back here where you started," he went on, clenching his drink.
Lena held her door knob as she listened, more entertained by the wood marks on the door than his boisterous scolding voice.
The door behind her opened and her brother, Jr glanced her way and then back toward his dad on the chair.
"Just go in, let him talk to himself," he advised. His deep rich voice made her turn around.
"I fucked up," she admitted to him.
He gave her a weak smile and nodded his head in agreement. He was sure his dad would be on her ass for a while.
Lena wasn't as rebellious as her brother; he could tune out the man's dissatisfaction. Lena had never raised her voice or even caught an attitude with Ames before this. Jr had always been criticized, Lena had once been his favorite girl.
After her mother's death, instead of shipping her off to her deadbeat father's family, Ames stepped up and was a real father to her and his son. He worked hard each day and some nights to provide for both of them. Ames had told his children of his girlfriends and they had met a few. However, he had never remarried or brought a woman home to replace their mother. He focused his time on rearing his two children, he enjoyed being a father and he was scorned that he had failed.