I was in the final one hundred miles of my 1250 mile trip to my former hometown that I left many years ago. I had not returned to my hometown in all of those years. I arrived there in the mid afternoon and I could barely recognize the little mid western town I had grown up in and had gone to elementary and high school in. I found that this little town had changed dramatically. It was kind of like I had stopped in the wrong town. In the many years since I had been gone It certainly had changed so dramatically it was really difficult for me to recognize it as being my hometown.
I was born and raised in this little town and left just after I had turned 18 and had just graduated from high school. I am the older of two children and my little sister is six years younger than I am. So when I left my hometown my sister, Brianna, was still in elementary school at the age of 12. My mother was 34 at the time I was born and my father was nearly 20 years older than my mother. I think that my father being so much older than I was probably was the reason that he had very little love if any for me at all. He may have thought that I was responsible for my mother's death and could never get over it. Someone once told me that maybe it was a manifestation of what I later learned to be misplaced anger. How the hell, did in know, I wasn't a head shrink.
My mother, Silvia, was a very loving and gentle lady and I really had a great love for my mother. From what I could remember of the pictures I had seen of her long before I left home she was a very beautiful young woman. However, just after my sister was born my whole world came crashing down and buried me in the falling debris. My beautiful loving mother died from complications that stemmed from her giving birth to my sister, Brianna. My sister and I were raised by my father and my aunt, my father's older sister who died when I was 14 just after I had started in high school.
My father, Frank, never seemed to have much use for me as I could never do any good in my father's eyes while my sister could never do any wrong. It was never revealed to me what the source of his animosity towards me was. However, after such a long time of enduring his animosity it became unbearable. I never held my sister responsible for the attitude my father had shown me and I got along well with her as best as I could, given our age difference.
Brianna and I loved and looked out for one another. She loved to do many things with me and tagged around with me when she could. I really didn't mind her being with me because she was really cute and inquisitive and was the only family member that treated me well. Also, she had no other close family member to be close to. Many nights she would quietly come into my bedroom and crawl into bed with me, kiss me and ask me to sleep in my bed with me. I would put my arms around her and hold her until we both went to sleep. Brianna always loved me holding her in my arms before we both drifted off to sleep that way. I often wondered if our mother had still been alive if Brianna would have crawled n bed with her instead of me. Sher probably would have but I guess that no one will ever know.
During my senior year in high school I'd had enough of the really poor treatment I regularly received from my father. I decided that since I would be turning 18 just before graduation that with my good grades and my good physical fitness I was going to join the military. One day about a month before graduation I went downtown to see the Military recruiter and entered an agreement that I would join the US Military after my high school graduation. The week after graduation I was to report for induction into the Military.
I told Brianna the night before I was to leave for induction into the Military but, I swore her to secrecy as the tears began for form in her sad little eyes. I told her that she couldn't tell anyone at all before I left especially the old man. It nearly broke my heart to see her crying when I told her that I was going to be leaving. However, I didn't say one damn word to the old man. I kissed Brianna and told her that I loved her and that I was leaving. I held her tightly telling her again that I loved her and she was the sweetest most loving little sister a brother could ever have. The next day I left for boot camp in Texas and never said a word to the old man or to anyone else besides Brianna. I'm sure that when they asked her she told them what she knew but the old man never tried to contact me at all after I had left.
Then that next day I just picked up and "Got the hell out of Dodge" as the saying goes. I didn't know and didn't give a tinker's damn if the old man cared about me leaving or not. And I still don't give a damn either for that matter after all of these years. There wasn't a damn thing that he could do about it anyway. The only one I really cared about was Brianna. After I reported for induction I was sent to boot camp and then later deployed with my unit to an overseas location. I had more deployments to several overseas locations and volunteered for others.
I never came home on leave and ultimately lost contact with any relatives including Brianna which I really regretted and wished that there was some way I could have done better than that for her. I guess that is the one thing I would really love to do over again. I chose not to come home on leave thinking that I would not be welcome by the old man anyway. I thought that he would be pissed off at me and maybe even take it out on Brianna for not telling him beforehand.
After my overseas deployments I had been stationed at several overseas bases during my four hitches. I re-upped after my first hitch for a second hitch and when I returned to the states I had several assignments at various bases around the country. At the end of my second hitch I re-upped for a third and then a forth hitch and then I went through several more overseas assignments and state side assignments. I was stationed at several different bases around the country stateside. At the end of my forth hitch I decided not to re-up for another hitch and was mustered out of the Military in Texas. It kind of felt like I was at home in Texas and I thought that I would ultimately stay in Texas.
Before I mustered out I had applied to several universities and was accepted to a university in the Lubbock, TX area and enrolled there in computer science. With all of the overseas pay that I had saved I had a good sum of money put away from my four hitches in the Military. With my savings and the help of the veteran's college program I was able to make it through the university working part time as well. I received my degree at the end of the four years and decided to take some time before I began to look for a job and go see if I could trace down my sister and father from whom I had not had any contact since I originally joined the Military and since my graduation from high school.
Upon my arrival in my hometown I had real difficulty in recognizing the streets and buildings that I knew when I was a teenager since things had changed so much. Slowly I did begin to recognize some of the businesses, buildings and houses that I knew when I was in high school. I was even able to find my old high school which I was told later was not a high school any more. Once I found my old high school I was able to make my way to the street that my boyhood home was located on and I then found my old boyhood home. After all this time everything seemed to be so strange even for me having grown up there.
I pulled up into the driveway of my former boyhood home and walked up the steps and knocked on the door. A young woman with a baby in her arms and a toddler clinging to her skirt answered the door. I greeted her and told her, "Good morning, Ma'am. My name is Larry Buchanan and I was born and raised in this house and lived here until I graduated from high school over 20 years ago. I'm trying to trace down my family, my father, Frank, and my sister, Brianna. I have not heard from them in the many years since I have been gone and have served in the US Military. Do you have any information on either of them that you can give me, please?"
She told me her name and said, "My family and I have lived here for several years and I'm sorry but, I don't know your family or have any information on them, sir. My husband and I bought the home through a realtor but the name of the previous owner of the house was not Buchanan."
"Can you give me the name of the realtor, please, Ma'am?" and she gave me the name of the realtor. Can you tell me where their offices are located, please?" She gave me that information. I thanked her politely and left to go find the realtor. As I left I could see that the house had been kept up pretty well and appeared to have been painted again not too long ago. However, I think that it was a different color from what it was when I lived there. Things slowly began to come back to me despite all of the changes.
I drove downtown and found the realtor's office, introduced myself and told the receptionist the reason for my visit. She asked me to have a seat and wait while she consulted with her boss. Several minutes later a very neatly dressed older lady came out of her office and asked how she could help me. I repeated my story to her and asked her if she could help me with any information on my family. She told me, "Sir, we had sold that home but we have not handled that home previously and we have no further records on it."