The tears welling in my eyes blurred my vision, and I suddenly realized I didn't know how long I'd been beating the lemon curd. Where was our marriage going? Was it over between me and Mark? I'd do anything, if only...
Over the grinding roar of the antiquated mixer, I heard the front door slam.
"Lisa?" I hollered, expecting to hear her typical, Philly-bred, 'Hi-ya, Peg'.
There was no response. A frisson tingled at my nape. I turned off the mixer and pulled my terry robe tight around me. It was the only thing I'd thrown on after my shower. The family mountain cabin had no neighbors for a half mile, and nobody else was supposed to arrive for Thanksgiving dinner for another few hours yet.
"Lisa?" I said again, weakly. "Who - who's there?"
The intruder's heavy footsteps echoed from the living room. I fingered the handle of a carving knife.
All of my tension melted at the sight of my father-in-law's grin turning the corner. I exhaled thankfully, allowing myself to breathe again.
"Good morning, Bill," I said, hugging his neck.
His manly arms wrapped me in a bear hug, and I squealed as he lifted me off the floor, as he often did. He kissed my cheek. "I'm guessin' pretty Peg got turkey duty this year."
I nodded. "Yeah, it was about time. I went eight years without drawing the long straw." Tradition among his four sons' wives was long straw does the turkey, short does the cleanup.
He put a lingering kiss on my forehead. "I'm so glad it's you this year. I've been waitin' a long time for this." Then he gave me a concerned look. "Are you okay, Peg?" he asked, his thumb wiping a tear from my cheek.
"Yeah, Bill," I replied, wiping my face with the terry sleeve. "I - I guess I'm just a little overwhelmed at the moment. Lisa suggested I should come up last night so I could get started early this morning. She told me she would be here to help, but then she called and said she was running late. That's who I thought you were."
"I'm afraid not. She's a helluva' lot prettier than me," he chuckled. Raising a brow, he asked, "My youngest son isn't here, is he?"
"No," I sighed. "Mark had some proposal he had to get done for one of his customers. He said he'd be here this afternoon."
"That boy works too damn much," Bill grumbled under his breath. Was that a flicker of a grin?
"Yeah," I replied wistfully. After eight years, Mark and I had been struggling desperately with our marriage. With no children to hold us together - my husband's sperm count was extraordinarily low - we seemed to be drifting apart. Mark's job was consuming more and more of his time. I even had suspicions there might be someone else. I wasn't about to discuss any of that with his family, though. "Why are you here so early?" I asked Bill, putting on a more sociable face. "Did you hear Mr. Jameson calling you?" I quipped.
Bill smiled broadly. Irish whiskey on Thanksgiving was only one of their many family traditions. "''Tis ne'er too airly in th' mairnin' fer a bit o'that, lassie," he quipped. "Ye'll join me, won'cha'? Eh, Peg?"
I was more of a wine-drinker, but it would have been impolite, and a few sips wouldn't hurt.
"Sure'n begorrah. Make it lassie-sized." I replied.
Bill shook with a hearty laugh. "There's the spirit, Peg!"
He poured each of us a shot and raised a toast to dear, old Tom Turkey. We tossed back the entire shot together, and he poured himself another one. The burn was short-lived, and the smoky, mellow flavor seemed to soften the edges of my anxiety almost immediately. I held up my glass for another, and Bill gave me an odd smile as he filled it, not quite as much as before. He told me I was cut off - he didn't want anything sauced in the kitchen but the cranberries.
"I usually come up the night before, too," he told me. He took another long sip, but all the while he was looking at me intently. Then he went on casually, "An old friend surprised me late yesterday when he blew into town. After we emptied half a bottle catching up on old times, I was in no condition to drive. I really wanted to be here to spend some quality time with my youngest daughter-in-law." I smiled and he gave me a flirty wink. That was just Bill. I winked back. "Also, I wanted I better check the heater. Yeah, the blower was whining when I came up in October. That old motor may be on its last leg. Hell, it's been here since before..." Abruptly, his face fell.
I understood. It was Thanksgiving day twenty years ago that Maggie had died, leaving Bill to raise their four sons alone. This holiday had been special for their family ever since.
After a few moments of respectful silence, I cheerfully changed the subject. "Thought I'd whip up a lemon pie for dessert."
"Yum," he said, licking his lips.
His surreptitious glance at the generous view of pale cleavage offered by my loose robe made me wonder if he was talking about the lemon pie. Bill's misbehavior didn't bother me, however. He was a really sweet man, though a little old-fashioned, and I didn't mind giving my father-in-law a cheap thrill now and then. The other wives said that he had dated a few times, but he had never found anyone he was serious about. I'd often wondered why. He was a fine catch for some lucky woman: a rugged, manly man, but thoughtful and tender. I could only hope that Mark would look so good when he got that age - assuming we stayed together.
Dipping my finger in the thick lemon sauce, I offered him a dollop. "You want a taste?"
He startled me by grasping my wrist firmly and taking my whole finger into his mouth. He held it between his lips long after the curd was gone, nursing gently at my finger, his tongue lapping at the soft pads, his face a mask of pure satisfaction.
It had been so long since I'd felt something quite so sensual. I still wonder how things might have been different if I had not chosen that moment to close my eyes and utter a small whimper.
I caught myself immediately and opened my eyes wide, shocked at my own lasciviousness. Staring up at Bill, I found him gazing down into my eyes intensely. I was stunned. He slowly withdrew my finger through his wet, clinging lips. Then, without losing eye contact, and still firmly holding my wrist, he gathered some of the tart, yellow batter on his finger and held it to my lips.
My mouth opened of its own volition, and he laid his thick finger on my tongue. Still staring helplessly into his hypnotic blue eyes, I closed my lips around him, tasting both the sour concoction and the saltiness of his skin. A disconcerting realization swept over me that the gooey texture and odd combination of flavors were vaguely reminiscent of semen. Without thinking, I sucked at his finger, stroking the underside with my tongue, decadently fellating it. Bill pushed and pulled, twisting it slowly and seductively, as though fucking my mouth. I was disturbed to feel my nipples grow erect and sensitive, rubbing against the rough terry fabric, yet I felt unable - or unwilling - to stop the increasingly salacious flirting with my father-in-law. A tingle of moisture trickled between my legs.
He withdrew his finger, then reached behind my head and pulled the ribbon from my small ponytail. My hair fell loose around my shoulders.
"What are you doing, Bill?" I asked, suddenly aware of how close to the edge we were playing.
"You're a fine woman, Peggy," he said, pushing a stray lock out of my eyes. "Mark was lucky to find someone as special as you."
A look of lustful intent was on his face. I felt his other hand at my belly, working at the knot of my sash.
"Bill," I whispered, pleading, "We can't..."
The knot gave way and my robe fell open, exposing my nakedness.
"Bill..."
My father-in-law placed a finger against my lips to shush me. "You want this, Peggy," he whispered, clenching my nipple gently between his thumb and forefinger, caressing it.
I sucked in my breath and rubbed my legs together, vainly attempting to quell the insistent itch that kept growing stronger. This couldn't be happening.
He said, "You need this. Both of you do."
He knew?