If you have not read Chapter 1, I do suggest you go back and do so for the sake of the narrative.
*****
Jack laid on his aunt's chest for several minutes saying nothing. The tears kept coming and coming. Yes, he was embarrassed by the size of his cock and felt like a bumbling idiot, but that wasn't the source of his shame.
It was becoming increasingly clear to Jack, as the pain in the pit of his stomach grew, that this experienced had opened up into a dark place. He tried hard to push away the feelings and the images flashing through is mind, but he couldn't. Jack sobbed into Alicia's neck.
"Jack" Alicia whispered. "What's wrong baby?" She was starting to realize that perhaps there was more to this than Jack's fear of rejection.
He pulled his head from her warm face and looked at the pillow as he wiped his eyes dry. "Alicia," he said clearing his throat. "Maybe I should go." he said in his deepest voice, trying desperately to save face. He began gathering his clothes and feeling so vulnerable that all he wanted to do was run. Alicia handed him his boxer briefs and took his hand. She saw through the bravado.
"Jack, I really wish you'd stay and talk to me. You just gave me one of the most incredible orgasms I've ever experienced," she said with sincerity.
Jack stopped looking for his clothes and looked into Alicia's deep brown eyes. He somehow knew her words were genuine. A sensation of warmth came over his body. He simultaneously wanted to cry and make love to Alicia. He slowly lowered himself to the bed and laid next to her. Alicia moved ever so slightly closer to Jack, careful to respect his vulnerable state. She suspected she knew what this was all about.
"Jack, can I touch your stomach?" Jack nodded and stared into space. Alicia placed her hand flat on his rippling stomach. Her clit twitched with the memory of him inside her, but her brain attempted to override that urge.
During their many drunken chats, Jack had confided in her that he was a virgin. According to him, he had never even kissed a girl, but she began to wonder if there was more to his story.
"Jack, can I ask you a question," she said slowly.
"Okay," he said.
"Jack, you don't have to answer me if you don't want to, but have you ever been with anyone before?" Jack's face began to burn up and his thoughts raced. How should he answer that question? It seemed so complicated. Tears came to his eyes. He was experience so many different sensations that he just couldn't sort out. He wanted to just tell Alicia everything, to put it all on her, but he also yearned to be inside her again. Jack didn't understand these seemingly contradictory feelings.
Almost involuntarily, Jack started talking. "I'm confused and my mind is spinning. I don't understand what's happening with my body right now. There's so much, so much that has happened, so much. I'm sad, I'm angry, I'm I don't know what." Alicia knew what he was going to say.
"Jack, did something happen?"
"I, I, I've never told anyone. I can't..." he sputtered. But he wanted badly to tell her.
"Jack, you can tell me whatever you need to tell me, whenever you need to say it. I'm here listening if and when you're ready." Her words enveloped him and provided the warmth he so badly needed.
"It was a couple of years ago when it happened," he began. Alicia knew what was coming, but her stomach dropped anyway listening to his words. "It happened when we were alone together." He spoke slowly. She listened, looked in his eyes, and didn't say a word. Her hand began to wrap itself around his waist. She instinctively pulled him closer. The words just came spilling out.
"I shouldn't have done it. I shouldn't have let him." Alicia held Jack tight. He started talking faster. His voice shook. "One time, the night of my 18th birthday party, he came into my bedroom. He sat next to me on my bed and put my hand on his dick. He already had a boner." The anxiety was palpable. Jack spoke faster and faster.
"He made me touch it over his shorts. Rubbed my hand on it. All over it." Alicia squeezed him.
"Jack," she whispered. "It's okay. Relax your body, baby." He felt a small amount of tension fall out of his muscular shoulders.
"Then my mom knocked on my door and he quickly shoved me away. He put a pillow over his dick. She told Max his dad needed him at the farm. A calf was being born."
Max. The name shot through Alicia's body like a bolt of lightning.
Jack kept going, "He grabbed me by the throat and told me that he'd kill me if I ever told anyone."
"Did it ever happen again?" She asked neutrally. Jack's face turned red, he looked down, ashamed.
"Yes," he said hesitantly. "Maybe once a week. He used to come over and hang out while my parents went to the bar on Friday nights. One night as soon as my parents left he put a porn into the DVD player. We watched it on the couch. I had never seen something like that before and I got a boner. So did he. He grabbed my hand and made me rub him again. He took off his shorts and told me to jerk him off. I was afraid he'd hurt me, so I did it. I remember seeing his cum go all over his shorts. I'd think about those nights when I jerked off in the shower. I knew I shouldn't have, that it was wrong. I hated myself for it, but I couldn't help it. I felt so ashamed because I knew it was my fault."
Alicia couldn't say quiet anymore. "Jack, it wasn't your fault. It couldn't not have been. It wasn't consensual. You were afraid of him. It wasn't your fault."
Jack jumped on here last word "But, I'd get a boner every time it happened. I think I liked it...well, I sort of did, but didn't, you know? I told him I did because I sort of did..." Jack trailed off.
Out of the corner of her eye, Alicia saw the sheet above his cock start to rise. She knew this was becoming complicated.
He was horrified. "It's you Alicia, it's you I'm thinking about right now. Not him, not him," Jack asserted. The truth of the matter was that Jack believed it was in fact Alicia that turned him on in that moment. He wanted badly to be inside her, but recalling his time with Max always made him hard.
"I know Jack," she said. "I believe you." She actually did. She had to because it was starting to get really messy for her.
They laid together for an hour. Jack finally said, "Alicia, I've never done what we did today. It was only that stuff with him. I've never even watched porn except that one time." Alicia knew he was inexperienced but had no idea how naive he was.
She pushed Max hard from memory and she began recalling how Jack had felt inside her. Alicia leaned over and touched his lips with her own. She held his body tight and began to kiss him deeply. She grabbed the back of his head and pushed his head into hers. She sent a shiver down Jack's spine that went straight to his cock.
They were soon in a tight embrace, bodies entwined, Jack's dick growing between them and Alicia's cunt beginning to drip. She was still in control, as she had been before. Alicia wondered if she should hand herself over to him. Jack's vulnerability was pulsing, it was clear. Jack needed this, so she slowly turned on her back and let him take the lead.
With some difficulty, he slipped his strong bicep under hear head and sent his right hand quickly down her body, skipping right over her hardening nipples. He felt her wet thighs under his fingers, and fumbled up to her clit. He touched it and pulled his hand away. Alicia guided him slowly back to the opening of her pussy. She helped him slide two fingers inside her.
As he pushed his way in, she dug her nails into his back. She held his hand still for a moment and then let it go. He began moving his fingers in and out with little grace. Jack wished he had a free hand, because his dick was growing. It throbbed. He wanted desperately to fuck Alicia and almost involuntarily began faintly thrusting himself onto her leg. She whispered in his ear "Jack, do whatever you want to me."
In that moment, she realized her mistake. He quickly pulled his hand out, but became anxious with the liberty she had just given him. He could do anything, he thought? It wasn't that she was afraid of what he was going to do, but she understood that she may have tapped into a combination of his tremendous anxiety and naivetΓ©.