Hello! Thank you all so much for your letters of appreciation and your kind thoughts. I know that many of you have been waiting for the next installment of my story. While the following does not actually culminate in me fucking my son James, it adds background information on how all this started, and leads up to that night. I am working on the next bit, and will post it as soon as it’s ready.
Thank you!
J
Chapter Three
By that Wednesday Julia was convinced that, to remain sane, she was going to have to actually fuck her son. Role-playing with her client Billy was fun, and she was looking forward to more. She was also looking forward to toying with and humiliating Billy’s mother Sondra by getting into her head and playing with what she found there.
Yes, all that would be fun. But her sessions with Billy were teaching her that there was something deeper that she needed to attend to. Fucking beautiful James.
Of course, Julia knew that this was wrong. But her situation with her son had always been unusual, to say the least. A few years back, she had struck up an anonymous Internet relationship with a man she knew only as Mr. M. In a series of letters to him, Julia had confessed things about her relationship with her son that she had never told anyone. The letters she had written to Mr. M were still on her computer. Wednesday night, she opened them to recall her state of mind back when James was just a boy.
“Mr M
The thing that’s important here is that I love to masturbate, always have, always will. Not a day goes by that I do not touch myself. So much so that I have gone into the ladies room while shopping to make myself feel good, I've done it on airplanes, stopped at a rest stop on the interstate.
I had felt both great shame and guilt from a very young age - from the time that I found that masturbation could give me so much pleasure. I used to think something was wrong with me. As an adult, my husband would make mad passionate love to me for hours on end and after he dozed off to sleep, I would find myself in the bathroom masturbating. I truly thought I was some kind of nymphomaniac and seriously considered seeking help. If the embarrassment had not been so overpowering, I might have done so but just couldn't bring myself to open up to another person about something so intimate. Not only that, deep down I knew that I would not stop doing what I was doing.
My husband has always travelled a great deal which left James and I alone - a lot. At a very young age he would climb into my bed during the night sometimes without my knowledge. I'd wake up and he would be beside me all snuggled in. He never did this when his father was home, only when he was gone.
Anyway, James as I mentioned likes to snuggle - spooning would be more appropriate. He would climb into my bed and snuggle against my back. There were times when I would be in the middle of some serious "me" time when he did that. As soon as his breathing indicated he was sleeping I could finish what I was doing. Fortunately at the time, most of my administrations were the use of my fingers. This went on for many years.”
Even as she re-read these old letters, Julia found her fingers tracing the edge of her pussy lips. Oh! She was already getting wet. She closed that letter and opened the next one.