It scares me at times when I catch Logan looking at me. What if my hubby Riley or my family notices the attraction? I'm 37, chubby, married for 7 years and a mother of a four-year-old.
I noticed Logan's interest in me when I started my journey on following a healthier lifestyle. We started doing activities together like running 10Ks on Saturday mornings. Logan is Riley's younger single brother. He's an extrovert and always has company hanging on his every word. He would silence conversations. Every inch of my body starts tingling the moment Logan enters a room.
Family gatherings have become a torture and pleasure at the same time. Our circle of friends has merged with my inlaws one loud bunch. One night in particular, I felt Logan's eyes watching me with a huge smirk numerous times during our barbie. When all the plates have been cleared the guys set up a game of cards and soon they were accusing each other of cheating as they do every barbie. I busy myself clearing the dishes from the sink and suddenly I'm engulfed by a pair of arms. My body sensors go haywire; I'm so startled. He nestles his face against my neck.
"Logan come on you're taking too long," they call out.
I join the family minutes later after I've managed to calm down. What the hell is he thinking?
"You and Logan have a special bond," Luann felt the need to share when we met up for coffee a few weeks ago. Luann married Jacob her high school sweetheart they've recently celebrated their 10th year wedding anniversary.
I've never really thought about our relationship, to me we always had a courteous bond. Logan awakens a different side of me at this point, what it means? Crazy. I set up chips and dip snacks.
"The neighbor's daughter asked about him, that girl seriously likes him," my mother-in-law smirks. I look at my mother-in-law and she has the look of a naughty child.
"Mom please I'm not interested," he shakes his head at his mom.
The crowd left hours later.
The next morning, I hear Logan's voice as his footsteps came close to my room, "Hello, are you decent?"
"Yeah come on in," I say.
"I hope you don't mind I used the emergency key," he said. "I knocked a few times but I had to see you."
Setting my inner diva heart rate going a mile a minute. I shook my head in response. As soon as he sits down on the edge of the bed, I realize inviting him into my room might have been a mistake.
"I'm heading downstairs can I fix you breakfast?" he says as he looks at me with fire in his eyes.
I move towards the door. I feel his fingers on my shoulder. My inner lady gives a groan and I feel my face turn a deep shade of red.
"Jody, please look at me."
"I can't, let go of me please," I pleaded.
I go downstairs and busy myself in the kitchen. Breakfast was eaten in total silence. "Blurred Lines" by Robin Thicke blaring from the radio. Argh, now my inner goddess is begging to be let out.
"Jody, Jody," Logan's voice brings me out of the haze that I'm feeling.
"Jody, I like you a whole lot; you're all I think about. Heck, you're always invading my dreams. Do you know how much restraint I'm exerting not kissing you, stripping you down and making love to you?"
"Logan, I think it's best that you leave."
He gathers his jacket and heads to the door. When I hear the sound of his engine, I could breathe again.
"Hey sleepy head," the sound of Riley's voice waking me from my slumber. He leans across the bed kisses me and lays down next to me.
"Logan has decided to take Noah up on his offer and he left this afternoon."
All the blood rushes to my face.
"When did this happen?"
"He stopped by earlier. Strange, he didn't mention it."
After I drop the baby off at school the next morning, I scrub down the entire house. He's leaving, he's actually leaving. I love Riley, yet how can I share my heart with Logan as well? "What the hell is wrong with you Jody?" I chastised, for the umpteenth time for the last few days.
"Ding dong." I wash my hands before I head to the door. When I open the door, I look straight into Logan's blue eyes. I didn't even realize that I was crying until I feel him wiping my tears away. He cups my chin between his hands.
"Sssshhh baby."
I lift my head from his shoulder, "You're leaving."
"Jody, I have to, you're my brother's wife you belong to him." His voice filled with so much emotion. "It's best that I leave."
The click of the door fills the silence.
"Goodbye Logan," I whisper to myself.
I slump down on the sofa and tell myself I will survive. Minutes later, the front door swings open.
"Fuck this.''
He bends down cupping my face. My inner goddess did triple jumps wriggling I'm alive. He takes my hand. I've been waiting for this for too long. He strips me down kissing my body as he removes my clothes. The moment our lips meet the intensity grows quickly and the hunger that we feel becomes apparent.
All that is heard is sounds of moaning and hard breathing.
He pinned me down and says, "Don't move." He gets up grabs some ties from the drawer.
I raised my eyebrows, "Really now." As he bounds my hands I realise that I'm offering myself to his mercy and pleasure
His hands skim my stomach as he slightly runs his fingers passed my vagina. He teases my clitoris running his skilled fingers. His tongue skillfully kisses my vagina. Moans escaped my lips. I'm soaring.
