Special thanks to IJS0904 for editing this story and serving as a sounding board for all my crazy ideas.
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They say we dig our own graves. After my encounter with Brooke, I felt like mine was most of the way to China.
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The weekend after Jesse's reunion, I was working on the Fairlane. A thought had been passing through my mind all week, and I had avoided dealing with it. I couldn't avoid it anymore.
I stopped what I was doing, went to a storage area upstairs, and pulled out a box of things I had kept from my time with Alicia. At the bottom was a picture of us, her parents, Brooke, and Jimmy, her fiancΓ©, at a Christmas party for their father's company.
My eyes went straight to Brooke. She was slightly below average in height (maybe 5'5") and a little above average in weight (maybe 150 pounds). She had wavy brown hair down to the middle of her back, glasses, and very little make-up, despite the fact that it was a formal event. She wore a baggy dress to try to hide her figure. She wasn't pretty, but she was VERY cute.
I then took out my phone and pulled up Jesse's Facebook page. She had posted a picture of the four friends at the reunion. I pulled up that picture full-screen and put the two side-by-side.
Jesse's friend was the same height as Alicia's sister. While Alicia's Brooke was borderline pudgy and modest, Jesse's had a very toned figure (easily 30 pounds lighter) and wore clothes to show herself off, especially her pronounced chest. Jesse's Brooke had straight blonde hair that was cut just below her jawline. Alicia's Brooke wore glasses; Jesse's did not. Jesse's Brooke wore enough make-up for the whole group.
The expressions on their faces were completely different as well. Alicia's sister looked like she hated being in front of the camera. Jesse's friend had an expression that screamed, "Come and get me!"
But if you looked carefully, the gray eyes were the same. The jawlines were the same. The smile, though strained for different reasons in each picture, was the same.
They were the same.
I stared at the pictures for an eternity, hoping I was wrong.
Jesse's Brooke hardly said a word to me at the reunion. Other than our introduction and the glance she gave us as she was walking away, I barely remember her even acknowledging my existence. Maybe I was wrong.
"Don't kid yourself. It's her."
The right thing to do would have been to go to Jesse and say something right away. We could have dealt with it and moved on. Or not. Either way, it would have been out in the open.
The wrong thing to do would be to act like the two Brookes weren't the same person and/or hope she didn't recognize me.
I had a nasty habit of doing the wrong thing.
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The night after I ran into Brooke, I paid Mark a visit.
Lindsay answered the door.
"I'll go get Mark for you."
"Lindsay, are the boys home?"
"Number one, they're at a friend's house for a few hours. Number two, you never address me by my name, so something's wrong."
"I didn't just come here to see Mark. I want you in on the conversation."
"And number three, you never talk to me, so something's REALLY wrong."
"I'll wait in the living room."
I sat down on the sofa and stared at the floor.
Mark walked in with Lindsay right behind him. They sat in chairs across a coffee table from me.
"What's up? Lindsay seems to think someone died."
"I wish it was that simple."
I put the picture in front of Mark and my phone in front of Lindsay.
"I remember this. This is the bitch and her family at a Christmas party, right?"
"Yes sir."
Lindsay was confused.
"I take it this is from Jesse's reunion?"
"Yes ma'am."
"What am I missing?"
"Put the pictures next to each other."
They both kept going back and forth between the two pictures.
"I'll make it easy on you. Look closely at the blonde on the phone."
Lindsay was the first to speak.
"No! That's not..."
"Jesse introduced her to me as her friend, Brooke. It didn't hit me for a few days who she was."
Mark was shaking his head.
"This blonde is Brooke Ross? The same Brooke Ross you played Twister with at a fancy hotel a few days after her sister dumped you?"
"One and the same. She lost a bunch of weight, completely changed her hair, and paid a lot of money to feel better about her endowment, but it's the same person."
Mark groaned. "I know which version you wish you had plowed like a cornfield."
"Mark!!!!!" Lindsay punched him in the shoulder.
"So do I. Neither."
"You are 100% sure it's the same woman?" Lindsay didn't sound convinced.
I told them about the encounter at the grocery store.
"The second I turned around and saw her, I knew."
Lindsay's accusatory tone came back. "But you decided being rude to her was a good idea?"
"I couldn't help it. If you had heard the tone in her voice, you would have done the same."
"Dude, now I need a beer. You want one?"
"Three."
Mark went into the kitchen.
Lindsay was staring at me.
"I'm going to assume Jesse doesn't know or you wouldn't be here."
"You would assume correctly."
Mark walked back in with alcohol for everyone. They spoke at the same time.
"Cole Watson..."
"I'm an idiot."
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A few days later, I had to make a parts run into the city for some of our equipment that was down for maintenance. I tried to make a lunch date with Jesse, but she had a meeting with an important client and couldn't break away.
Before I left town, I stopped at an electronics store to get a new set of security cameras for my parents' home. As I walked out the door, I noticed someone leaning on a column outside the 24-hour gym next door.
Brooke was wearing a skin-tight set of workout clothes and had her hair pulled back in a ponytail.
She had her phone up to her ear, but given the way she was looking at me, I seriously doubted there was someone on the other end.
She gave me a finger wave, moved her hand to just below her breasts, lightly licked her lips, and seductively ran her hand down her body.
I shook my head and walked to my car as quickly as I could. I hauled ass away from her even faster, hoping she didn't bother to attempt to follow me.
When I thought I was far enough away, I pulled into a vacant parking lot, jumped out of the car, and started yelling and pounding the roof with my fist.
"How the fuck did she..."
(Lightbulb.)
"Shit. Jesse told her."
I buried my head in my hands.
She wasn't lying, was she?
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I needed to talk to Jesse, and I needed it to be face-to-face.
Our schedules didn't line up, so I hadn't seen her in three weeks. It was a Friday, the kids were with Robbie, and we both had to work over the weekend, so I wouldn't be able to stay overnight, but I needed to see her anyway. I left work early and headed to her house.
I parked a few houses down from where she lived and made myself invisible. When she pulled in the driveway, I started walking toward her house. I was able to hide but was close enough that she was barely inside when I knocked.
Jesse opened the door, squealed, and jumped into my arms.
I stood there holding her until my arms got tired, not wanting to let her go.
When I eased her down, she tried to pull my face to hers. I put my hands on her cheeks and gave her a prolonged kiss on the forehead.
"Is something wrong?"
"You could say that."
"Cole, what's going on?"
We sat down at the dining room table directly across from each other. I set the shoulder bag I was carrying down in front of me.
"Remember Lindsay's pet name for me?"
"Yeah. She calls you an idiot."
"She's right. When I told you about what happened with Alicia, I left off part of the ending. I shouldn't have but I did."
Jesse leaned back in her chair, crossed her arms and legs, and locked eyes with me.
"I'm listening."
"I made plans for Alicia and me to spend the weekend after I proposed at a hotel in the city. The room was paid for, so I decided to use it. I didn't want to be anywhere near the apartment.
"Alicia's sister had tried calling me several times over the course of the week, but I ignored her. She had always seemed sweet enough, but I just couldn't deal with her.
"Her father is a good man and was concerned about me, so he told her about the hotel. She found me in the hotel bar that Friday. I had already been drinking for a while. We talked for a long time before I decided to call it a night.
"When we walked out of the bar, we hugged each other. She took her time letting go, and when she finally did, she pecked me on the lips. It wasn't long before we were in my room.
"We spent the weekend together, rarely getting out of bed.
"That Sunday, we got in a huge fight. She left screaming at me. That was the last contact we had for a long time."
Jesse's response was terse, but I could tell she knew something else was coming.
"So, you had rebound sex. You weren't the first person and you won't be the last. The fact that it was with Alicia's sister makes it worse, a LOT worse, but I don't see how that's a major problem now. That was almost ten years ago."
We stared at each other for a few moments before she spoke again.
"I'm curious. Is there a reason you won't tell me her name?"
"Yes."
I pulled out the Christmas picture and set it in front of her.
Jesse picked up the picture. Her eyes were darting from one face to another.
It was just a matter of seconds before it registered with her.
She covered her hand with her mouth, gasped, and tears started rolling down her cheeks. She looked at me briefly, back at the picture, then back at me again.
Jesse was trying to compose herself. "You didn't think I needed to know this?!?"
"At the reunion, it never occurred to me that they were the same person. It wasn't until later that week that it dawned on me, and that picture confirmed it. At first, I didn't think it would matter. Now it does.
"I'm not asking for you to forgive me right now. I don't deserve it. But you do need to know what happened. You've needed to know for a long time, and I should have told you."
"Why now?" She was still crying. She just stared at the picture.
I told her about my two encounters with Brooke.