Jason & Amanda -- Crimes of Passion Ch. 1
I had finished my schoolwork and needed a break before my mother got home from her latest date.
My Mother was in her early 30s, which means she had to spend most of her youth raising me. I was 18 now and going to college, so hopefully I would be able to carry my weight and take care of her for a change.
College classes were exciting and challenging -- especially criminology and law. I didn't know where my interests lay when I started taking classes last year. But I see myself as an investigator or detective someday. It just seemed to fit with my personality.
My mom, Amanda, was a lovely and caring woman. She consistently met all of my needs in maintaining our home and providing ample affection.
I didn't have to do much while she was around, and I saw it as her way of showing her love.
When someone shows you they love you to the degree my mom does, it is not hard to love them back...and I really love my mom.
Her only failing, if there was one, was that she was barely able to keep food on the table. As a fitness instructor at a local gym, she didn't make a great deal of money.
Aside from her great nurturing ability, I should also mention -- and many could attest -- that her greatest asset was her physical appearance.
This is not something I like to focus on since I think that constantly being objectified by men her whole life has taken its toll.
She is strikingly beautiful with an amazing body that is hard to ignore.
Her beautiful dark hair, toned legs, well-proportioned butt, and large natural boobs turned heads wherever she went.
Instead of her looks working to her advantage, somehow, she attracted terrible men who just wanted to use her.
It had been like this since my parents divorced many years ago. They were never close, that I can remember. They slept in different bedrooms for most of my childhood.
I suppose this left my mother starved for affection, and after the divorce, she made up for lost time.
It was hard to watch as she went from a bad relationship to worse.
On occasion, she met someone who lasted longer than a one-night stand. Even so, the men didn't last long.
For her, it was almost like being beautiful was a curse, attracting men who always wanted sex but not the long-term relationship she was hoping for.
I tried to ignore the many signs of her exploits, such as an occasional used condom in the bathroom trash can or the nights I had to put my headphones in to stop listening to the sounds coming from her room.
It was Friday night, and my mom should have been coming back from her date. I had been through this enough to know the drill.
I eased back on the couch to watch a movie, knowing I'd skedaddle back to my room if she returned with a man in tow.
However, this night was to be a departure from the date nights that came before.
It would stand out as one of those key moments where small choices can change your life in big ways.
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I was not far into my movie when I heard my mom turn the lock and stumble into the house.
This wasn't the first time she was drunk, but she seemed more inebriated than usual.
She sat down on the couch next to me, still wearing her short skirt and tight top that exposed her midriff.
Clearly, she was dressed to impress whoever she met up with that night, though there was nobody with her.
"Hi, baby. Why are all guys such jerks?"
"That bad, huh?"
"Yeah, I'm pretty sure this guy spiked my drink -- I called for a ride and got out of there once I started feeling strange."
My mom could drink, so I dismissed her assertion as possibly just being paranoid.
Either way, she met a guy she didn't like and bailed. It happened all the time.
She popped onto the couch next to me. "What are we watching?"
"Nothing much, just some sci-fi. You'd probably like it."
She smiled and leaned against me. She was very comfortable with physical contact, so this was normal for us to snuggle up.
It was not lost on me that my mom was most people's idea of a dream woman, but you should know that I did not regard her that way.
Yes, I had seen her in bathing suits and sometimes dressed in bedroom apparel that left little to the imagination, but I refused to allow myself to look at her that way.
She was a touchy-feely person, but even when she hugged me or planted kisses on me, I made sure not to go there out of respect.
I knew my friends masturbated thinking about her, and they often joked about it.
I would tell them to 'cut it out,' and I meant it.
I loved her truly, and the constant objectification pissed me off, as did the undeserving men who should never have been allowed to touch her.
My mom interrupted the movie. "Why can't I find a nice, attractive guy that's willing to commit to me? I'm not getting any younger...."
Wanting to cheer her up, I said, "You will, Mom. There's got to be a guy out there that sees you for who you truly are. These guys are just looking at your exterior. I don't think they can see how kind, caring, and lovely you really are. You're a rare find, and anyone would be lucky to be with you."
I meant every word I said.
Her pretty brown eyes softened as she looked at me with love. "Jason, you are so sweet."
She looked thoughtful for a moment. "It takes one to know one, my handsome, strong, and kind man." She squeezed me, her warm body comforting.
As we watched the movie, Mom moved in closer, her head resting on my shoulder. She whispered, "I feel so...strange."
"Huh?"
Out of the corner of my eye, I saw her turn her head towards me, no longer watching the movie.
She whispered in my ear, "I love you...Jason."
I felt her breath on my face and smelled the fresh scent of her hair as she gently nuzzled my neck.
She moved slowly and subtly as she maneuvered her face, brushing her lips against my neck and cheek. She inhaled as though she were taking in my scent.
With her so close, her smell was overpowering -- a mix of her body and perfume. She smelled heavenly. Like, if I were to pick out the perfect scent of the perfect woman, that would be it.
It was not often that I was this close to her for so long.
I froze, motionless, as I felt my mom's lips caressing my cheek.
She gently kissed my ear lobe. The sensuality of her tender motherly nibbles was delightful.
I felt slack-jawed as my mouth hung open, and I closed my eyes, falling deep into the sensations she brought on.
I knew I shouldn't, but...it was like I was hypnotized.
The gentle kisses continued down my neck and onto my jaw. Then up my cheek and back up to my ear, where she nibbled on my lobe.
Her breathing was overpowering in my ear as she whispered, "I think about you..." before continuing her sensuous kissing on my ear.
My eyes rolled back into my head as I felt her tongue lick and caress my ear and neck.
My brain must have been delayed by a good amount because the implications of what she said, plus what she was doing, didn't register fully.
What did she mean...when she said, 'I think about you?'
Did that mean what I think it meant?