What follows is an unlikely adventure of a mother and her adult son. You have to work a bit to get there. I hope the journey is worthy of the destination.
Here's how it happened.
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"Oh she was a rare thing, fine as a bee's wing. So fine a breath of wind might blow her away."
- Richard Thompson.
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Holidays were crazy busy, but my Mom loves them nonetheless. Adores them. Brenda (her name, and what I sometimes call my Mom) glides along on the ever-changing currents of the year, and you can feel her change and move with the seasons. It's not something she puts too much energy into - we don't have a spirit circle carved into our living room floor or anything - but it was more just part of who she was. Natural. Connected to seasons, affected by the weather, in touch with nature, and her natural side.
But today, she was flying around the house, and I was doing everything I could to stay out of the way. I could tell she was very excited - her high-beams were on full display. No big deal. Not that unusual when your Mom had the kind of equipment she did. And with only a t-shirt and skirt on (all she ever really wore around the house) the nipples were leading the way of her hard-charging day. A Not-Yet-New-Year's-Eve party was tonight and there was still lots to get ready.
My Mom didn't come across as a Granola Momma (though she did love her some granola in the morning!) but was just naturally an easy, soft and comfortable woman. People told me that all the time. She liked and was liked by most everyone. Rarely was her browed furrowed, and often her laugh and smile drenched with light whatever room she was in. She was fundamentally beautiful, fresh-faced even at 40, a full embodiment of vigor and vitality. She was whole-person-attractive, and not just beautiful.
That's what the world saw. That's also what I saw. I love Mom and all she's done for us. She had an interesting job working at a nursery as the plant specialist. She was great at her job, so they were always great with her. While her means have been modest, they have been mostly stable, positive, and stress free.
I also love that everyone loves Mom. It turns out I get to be a bit of a minor celebrity in town just because I'm was her only son - only family really. So we're what Mom sometimes refers to as big fish in a very small pond, all because of her.
Mom's easy charm transfers well to me, I think. I'm not as attractive in every possible way that Mom is. I'm 21, big-and-strong by tough dude standards (which I am not, but several of my friends are), possess a great smile I inherited from Mom, and I love to laugh. I do it a lot. And even more fun, I can make other people laugh. Especially Mom. I can get her laughing until she pees. Kind of a regular goal of mine. In this regard, I usually get what I want.
So yeah, I know all the charms and wonder that everyone saw in my Mom. But I also saw what other saw as well - her beauty. And what they all saw casually masked, I saw up close.
I saw what I call tits, but what Mom calls her boobs. She was pretty casual - not flaunting or anything - but she moved through the house on occasion with limited support and gaps in her coverage, so to speak. So from an early age, I've seen what I have come to believe to be the most perfect breasts in the world. Neither flabby nor pert, these large breasts defined perfection. I actually knew exactly how large they were from a couple of years ago. "Damn, now I'm a D-cup - will these things never stop growing?" she once asked no one in quiet exasperation. "Why would you ever want them to stop growing?" I asked with the naΓ―ve appreciation of a boy of 16. She just smiled and walked away.
Pendulous. That was the word I've settled on. But it's harder to find the right word for the nipples. For that, I've settled on my favorite non-word: ginormous. These were more than the typical pencil eraser or gum drop nipples. These were a fucking mouthful for any man, let alone child. I've always been fascinated by them. I don't remember sucking them, but I know I once did, and in fact, know that I did later than most, stopping only when I got to pre-school (not my best day, in the scheme of things). But I never stopped being amazed at her nipples that were more like very large truffles than gum drops.
I've seen those nipples show their attention on many occasion. To be clear, nipples that strong need more than simple Playtex had to offer. And Brenda rarely worried about that. If she wore a bra at all, she'd wear comfortable bras that focused on support rather than stealth.
My mind started to wander to the other breasts I enjoy - the friends I share sexual intimacy and enjoyment. I don't have a girlfriend, nothing steady. I do have several very good friends who love to fuck. All do have large tits, I pondered. I guess that's my . . .
"Quit staring at my boobs and help me out!" she laughed loudly as I gazed at her chest and remembered other great pairs.
"Oh, sorry. Sure, what do you need?" I asked. She smiled and shook her head and looked down at her list.
"Well, there are a ton of things, so getting started on any of these would be great."
"Mom, we have about an hour's worth of setup to do, and it's all day until the party."
"I know. I'm just excited. Should be fun group tonight - if they all make it. Damn snow . . ."
Mom had been fussing for the last several days with a forecast of big snow dumping down. And it had - nearly 22 inches in the last three days, and more on its way. Fortunately this was a snow town, and folks were used to it. But more was coming, and it was certain to depress attendance.
I knew enough to get out of the maelstrom, so I finished my cereal and made for the door. "Well, let me take a shot at shoveling the walkways to start. I expect I'll need to do this again later, but I need to get a start at it now." I jumped up, quickly put my dishes in the dishwasher, and headed out the door. I actually liked shoveling snow, hated snow-blowers, and took on the challenge with a spring in my step.
Two hours later, I stumbled back inside, shedding ice-dripping garments in search of the living room fire. My hands were no longer capable of holding the shovel. As I stood before the fire, I finally thawed out enough to notice Mom staring at the TV watching the meteorologist bombast about Storm Surge 2017 (Nice tits on the weather lady, I thought. On a scale of 1-Mom, these were about an eight.)
When I finally really looked at Mom, I realized that something was up. She was looking at the screen with an empty face, as the TV talent said, "As untimely as it is, this storm is going to shut down the city tonight. High, gusty winds. Temperatures to drop below zero. And even with such low temps, we expect at least a foot in the next several hours, with three inches falling in the last hour alone."
"Folks - Stay home! This is not the day to be out at all."
I looked at Mom's face and saw what she saw: her party essentially had just been cancelled by this women with tits not nearly as nice as hers.
"But good news! This should clear in the next couple of days, just in time for New Year's Eve!"
"Good news," Mom said quietly. She looked up at me and smiled.
"How are the walks?"
"Well, they were clear an hour ago. I need to go shovel them in a couple of hours, I suspect."
"Naw. Just you and me for the party tonight. Let's get snowed in." There was a moment of deep sadness in her eyes - this was her favorite event of the year, and it just at that moment was taken from her.
And then she smiled. Every part of her changed in that moment. And the world was good again. It was a perfect example of the essential beauty mom brought to difficult moments.
With that, the entire tone in our house changed. She felt a very brief, deep moment of loss for a party she waited all year to enjoy, a party she worked intensely to make great (and it was a great party) but that could never be rescheduled or remade. Not during these precious holidays. It had taken 20 years for her to establish this party on the calendar of her friends-and-family circle. No changes were possible. Tomorrow was the Kerrigan's party, and New Year's was ALWAYS at the Juanita's. But for tonight's party, mom had to just let it slip away.
"Before we do get snowed in, let's figure out a way to cancel the party with class. Any ideas?"
In 10 minutes, we'd figured out our idea. I went outside and got the snow machine cleaned up and ready to go. Mom ran upstairs and got dressed in her Old Woman Time outfit (over her down parka) and we readied our parade. Mom had taken an old sheet and beautifully written "Party Cancelled - Happy New Year!" I tied an old toboggan to the back of the snow machine. Mom placed a box on the sled and tied a rope to the front to hold for leverage. By early afternoon, we were driving through our neighborhood and across town, Mom calling friends on her cell phone as we drove our colorful one-float parade past their house announcing the cancellation. Mom waived and talked to all of her friends as we meandered through the quiet beauty of the heavy snowfall. The wind and cold were brutal, but mom demanded we cover the entire course, our part of town filled with friends and now discarded guests.