Getting caught by your daughter while masturbating is embarrassing.
Find out you have been having cybersex with your daughter...well, I cannot describe the embarrassment the both of us felt. It was deep.
After an awkward day of silence between us, where we could barely even look at each other, she "temporarily" moved in with her dad. Yeah, I cried hard those first two nights alone.
She didn't take much of her belongings, mainly some clothes, makeup, her phone, and laptop.
The house was so empty without her.
But...well, I guess I also needed not to see her for a little bit. I don't think I could have looked her in the eyes.
I didn't play 3D X for a while after that. But, after about a month, I needed that human connection and logged back on.
After a couple of days, Violet signed on.
She asked me how it went. She had not talked with Maddi since then, either.
I told her the straight-up truth.
Seeing and talking with Violet was akin to talking to a psychiatrist for me. It helped me get a lot off my shoulders.
"I cannot imagine what it would be to run into something like that," she told me at one point. "If it were my daughter, I'm not sure what I would do."
"I think asking what she was doing in a sex game at that age would be a good start," I said.
We both laughed over that one.
I sometimes swear she was a psychiatrist sometimes. She made me feel a lot better about myself. We even discussed some of the stuff face-to-face on Discord, which also made me feel a lot better. Of course, it did not hurt that she was a hottie and sometimes helped me feel better by getting naked.
This went on for about a month when Violet told me one evening that Maddi had finally signed on again and messaged her, asking her if they could talk. But Violet wanted to know if that was all right with me.
I said it was.
So, for another two or so weeks, Violet bounced between me and Maddi, playing psychiatrist with both of us. I said before that I swear she was a professional.
"How mad was she?" I asked at one point.
Violet cleared her throat. "She...funny thing is, she isn't mad. I don't think she was, either, that night. Just...surprised? Confused? Taken aback?"
I asked Violet if she could tell Maddi I was sorry, which she did. She returned with an apology from Maddi, then dropped the bomb that Maddi wanted to move back in again.
That was heavy. I had to think about it for a few hours, but in the end, I missed having my baby girl in my home with me. Sure, something forbidden had happened between us, but it was an accident. And that home was growing increasingly lonely every day. I agreed.
I did not expect it to happen so quickly, but Maddi was back at home after a day.
That night, after eating dinner in silence, we both sat at the table, empty plates before us, in an awkward silence for a while.
"I wanted to let you know that I never started playing the game until after I turned 18," she said, breaking the silence.
I nodded. "Same," I choked out. That was the only thing I could think of to say.
She giggled.
Maddi bit her lower lip nervously. "Mom, can I ask a serious question?"
"Of course," I said, hoping the nervousness didn't show.
"Are you mad because I am a lesbian?"
"Honey! No! No! No, I am not mad. Not at all. That is who you are; that is what you are. I could never hate you because of something like that."
She gave me a tiny smile. "Good," she said quietly. "Does it upset you that I like older women like Violet?"
I laughed. "If Violet is what you call old, then of course not."
"Well, what if I liked women older than her?"
I shook my head. "You may love whom you want."
She smiled again. We were both silent for a moment. "Thank you, Mom," she said quietly and removed herself from the table.
It took a while for the carefree, carefree, impish, contagiously funny Maddi to return, but she did. Our dinner conversations were once again filled with laughter, discussion, and good-natured banter.
She even broke the ice and started talking freely about 3dx, which helped me talk about it freely, too.
"Do you only chase after younger girls?" she asked me one evening.
I smiled. "No, I have been with a couple of women older than me, too." I shrugged. "I guess I just like women. Period."
She chewed her bite thoughtfully. "Do you think you are a full-blown lesbian now?"
I shook my head. I'm not sure what I am. However, I enjoy the company of women a lot more than that of men.
"When was the last time you were with a man?"
"Your father, when we were married."
"No, I mean on there."
"Oh. A little bit after I started, I guess. What was it about two years ago?" She nodded. I sighed. "I did try about a year ago, but I ended up ghosting the poor guy. He was OK, I guess, but he was a typical man. It just didn't do anything for me."
She nodded. "I've never been with a man on there ever," she told me as a matter-of-factly. I let it go at that.
More weeks passed, and our comfort and closeness grew more potent than before.
While her father and I were married, I kept a liberal household. When it was just Maddi and me at home, we would parade around the house in whatever we felt comfortable, and I would encourage Maddi to dress comfortably. Many times, she wore a T-shirt and panties.
When her father and I split, I made sure to keep those loose household rules intact. I wanted Maddi to be comfortable with herself and with me. While a T-shirt and panties remained her dress of choice, sometimes she preferred absolutely nothing. To encourage that, I did the same. Honestly, it felt good; it felt free to walk around the house naked without fear of getting caught.