Preface
This is a rewrite of my book originally published in 2014. It has been a good number of years since I wrote Indecent Connections. While I love this book, I believe I have grown as a writer since its original release. I want this rewrite to have the old story plot that so many have enjoyed, and add in some new content to improve on what the story had been lacking. Some of the old content needs an good edit, and there are parts of the story that I just think need to be improved. This rewrite is going to be a combination of edited old story and new, fresh story. Enjoy everyone!
Life surprises us all. Choices we make bring us down our different paths. Life will also confuse you. When you look back at your life you wonder if you've made the right choices. At the same time, you don't want to change a thing. I lived in this dichotomy.
Everyone dreams of the perfect partner. Another person that completes you. Everyone's vision of that person is different. The variations in desires is as unique to each person found on this planet. Finding that perfect partners is a struggle, there is no contention about that.
When I was younger, I thought I wanted an equal relationship. A woman that would go through life beside me in all things. I was fresh out of college, working tirelessly to pay the bills that I had accumulated for himself. I was so busy settling myself that I wasn't even looking for that perfect match at the time.
I suppose that is when life places the most unexpecting things in front of you. That was when I found my perfect match. I chose the path that kept her beside me. This choice brought me insurmountable joy; and equal amounts of self-hatred.
I keep my relationship a secret from everyone. The world wouldn't understand us, so we chose to make our own world. I will love this woman for the rest of my life, regardless of the fact that I will never marry her, or have a family.
This woman was always in my life. I watched her grow and blossom through the years. My woman, is my sister. I understand the enormities of what we chose. We are consenting adults, and we felt what the world didn't know wouldn't hurt us. My sister is my match. I provide for her emotionally and physically, and she does the same for me as well.
Our love is not the only oddity in our relationship. My sister is my submissive. She has given up her freedom to me whole heartedly to provide for my desires beyond those sexual. I learned with her that an equal relationship is not what I was looking for. I loved control, I loved to control my sister. We have molded her just to my liking, and created the perfect slut just for me.
I'm sure many of you are wondering how did this start. As any good story teller will say, it is best to start at the beginning.
It was common for me to spend my days off hanging with my best friend, my sister and her best friend. The four of us formed a strong friendship group. Today we had gone to a new indoor arcade to play some miniature golf. Our two other friends had already left for home, which left my sister and I at my home. We decided that it was too late for me to bring her home. It was nearly midnight and we didn't want to wake our parents.
Neither of us were tired so we decided to watch some television together. We finished one movie and I went to change the channel. I accidentally opened up my subscription porn channel. I was a bachelor living alone it wasn't that stranger. The TV showed a clip of a woman tied up taking it hard from behind. I rushed to change the channel utterly embarrassed at being caught with such raunchy content. In my embarrassment I started to blabber.
"Jeez, dudes roughing up their girlfriend just to get their jollies off; gross, huh?" I made this comment expecting her to agree with me and we could move on. My sister had a different take on the screen's depiction. It was one that I was surprised by.
"You shouldn't judge people like that Aiden. It may be that the woman liked it just as much as her partner. It's only a little bit of rough sex."
I didn't try to hide my shocked expression from her. I could not understand why she had such a strong reaction to my commentary. Typically, my sister was nonconfrontational. I decided to tease her a little bit just to move through this awkwardness.
"How would you know about that; Ms. I've never been with a man."
"Shows what you know, I have been with a man jackass." I was taken aback by this news. She now showed embarrassment and turned back to the TV. Her cheeks turned bright red and she refused to look at me.
"In college? It's perfectly normal to date around Ava. Sorry, I shouldn't have made an assumption like that." I accidentally must have struck a nerve because she snapped at me again.
"You don't know anything about me if you think I would just 'sleep around.' Who I have a relationship is none of your business!"
"Oh, come on now Ava, I am your big brother. Of course I want to know who you are dating."
"Dated, past tense."
"What happened? He realized that you are spoiled princess?" It was meant to be a teasing joke that I had clearly hurt her with. She looked down at her hands with sadness shown in her body language. I knew I had made a mistake so I tried to rectify it.
"I'm sorry, what did happen?"
"He moved for a job, OK? When he first got the offer he asked me to go with me. But, I couldn't. My life is here, not in England. I still wasn't ready for Mom and Dad to know about him either."
"Why don't you want them to know you are dating?"
"It's not the dating. Jacob, he had... well, a different way of doing things." My thoughts flashed to what had just been on the television. But I thought to myself, 'that's not Ava's thing,' 'she's such and innocent girl,' 'there must be another reason.'
"I know what you are thinking Aiden." I was broken out of my thoughts. "I was in that type of relationship with him. Like that clip we say. I loved it too. Releasing everything to another person it's... never mind you'll probably think I'm strange." Her sudden confession did shock me. But I didn't want her to be embarrassed about sharing things with me. We were friends, and family, she should never feel that she can't share with me. I could tell that Ava was feeling a weight lifted off her shoulders when she had started talking to me about her relationship. She had kept it a secret and most likely needed to tell someone to help her move on.
"I won't think you are weird Ava. You can tell me anything. I'll listen and not judge." She looked at me guarded, as if she thought she was falling into a trap. I pushed her to let me be her confidant, and she decided I was worthy.
"Well, I loved being with Jacob. I still miss him. He took control of everything. All I had to do was put my faith in him. Yes, I had punishments, but I earned them. I miss that release of control. Now it feels like there is something missing. At the same time I'm really not sure if it is Jacob I'm missing, or that release of power. I've been wondering whether or not I should try meet someone online, or find someway to meet people in the lifestyle. I just want to find someone to scratch this itch that I have so I can sort out my thoughts." The thought of Ava hooking up with a stranger to do such things made me feel uneasy.
'Please don't do that Ava; that is definitely asking for some trouble."
"Well, how else do you expect me to meet someone from my lifestyle?"
"Maybe it's a phase Ava, give it time. Wait until you find another guy before you decide this is your lifestyle. Honestly, even hearing you admit this I can't see it. You are so independent. I'm not sure this is the real you. It could very well be first love syndrome." My comments did not sit well with her.
"How do you know what the real me is like?" She demanded. "You don't even know what I am like when I am with a master." I held my hands up admitting defeat. I was trying to apologize when a light bulb seemed to go off inside Ava's head.
"Why don't you be my master for the night?" Her idea not only blindsided me, but was absolutely ludicrous. There was no hesitation on my part to deny her. She wouldn't let up.
"Aiden, this is perfect. I can get what I need and you can get a glimpse of what I am talking about. My submission is not just about sex and physical intimacy. At least try it, what harm could it do?"
I thought long and hard about the dilemma that she had put before me. Against my better judgement, I decided to try this her way. Like Ava had told me, we wouldn't become physical. Ava was so excited when I agreed. She hugged me thanking me.
"Alright Ava, this is only for a little bit. Can you get my computer for me, it's in my office? There are things that I want to look up." She didn't respond, but scurried away I assumed to get my laptop.
It seemed she had lightening speed as she returned with the laptop. She stood in front of me to hand it to me. I couldn't deny that I saw the satisfaction she got just from such a simple request. Ava didn't move from in front of me as I turned on the computer. I was a little confused as to why she wouldn't go back to sitting on the couch with me. It took me a minute to realize she was waiting for a cue from me.
"You can sit here with me while I research." I told her. She sat on the couch and curled into me so we could both look at the screen. In our comfortable silence I started researching just what Ava claimed to be her lifestyle. There were thousands of resources to choose from. Granted, some of it was porn. I was amazed, and shocked, at how many facets there were to this subculture. I couldn't deny, it intrigued me.
Before I knew it an hour had passed. I now had a small understanding of the power I had over my sister, and I wanted to test it. I asked her to get me a beer. When I felt not movement from her, I turned my head to see what she was doing. She had fallen asleep curled up against me. I quietly closed the computer and started moving so that I could carry her to bed.