Let me start by saying that I never intended to have sex with my mother.
I was raised as a bit of a momma's boy. I was always close to my mother, but never looked at her sexually, at first.
I'm not sure when I finally noticed that my mother was an attractive person. We often went to the beach when I was a child, and I do remember at one point starting to notice that her body wasn't the same as most of the other moms at the beach. Most were flabby and untoned, but my mom worked out regularly and was fit, with nice, perky boobs. Most moms wore cover-ups and 1-piece suits, but my mom always wore a bikini. With her long red hair and pale skin and tight body, she was striking and most of the dads seemed to notice also.
At some point in my teens, most of my buddies made comments about my mom being hot, something that usually got them a good punch in the shoulder from me.
In my later teens, as more of my friends made comments, and as I noticed more and more men checking my mom out, I couldn't help but start to compare her to the other moms around and I guess it was around that time that I started to take notice of her hot body.
Eventually, my buddies got bolder, making stupid comments about how they'd love to fuck her if they had the chance. Again, I always gave them shit for opening their mouths but at some point, I began to find mom attractive also.
We were at the community pool one day. I was swimming with my buddies and saw some men staring and making comments. I was just close enough to hear one of them, "I'd fuck her in a heartbeat." The other agreed eagerly. I realized they were checking out my mom. I looked in her direction and she was laying on her back with her legs slightly parted. The men were positioned in a way that allowed them to look up between her legs, to her bikini bottoms, where a small tuft of fiery red hair was protruding from her suit.
It was at that moment that I first felt physically aroused by my mother. I felt my cock stir in my shorts and I was helpless to stop it as I became fully hard under the water. I was embarrassed, and grateful that no one could see my erection.
I had to avert my eyes from her mound and move away before I was caught staring at mom. I soon found myself in the changing room, trying to hide my embarrassment and I moved into a toilet stall to get changed. As soon as I lowered my shorts, my hard cock sprung free and without thought, I started to masturbate to the image of my mother's red pubic hair as I wondered what she looked like under the thin Lycra fabric. It took me seconds to ejaculate as I started to daydream about her. I'd seen my mom naked many times before, never giving it a second thought, but now that I was older and interested in girls, I found myself desperate to see her nude again, but for naughty reasons.
Many a night I found myself in the dark in my bed, a towel or sock nearby as I jerked my cock, imagining my mother's pussy. My dirty secret had to stay mine unfortunately.
My mom had a few boyfriends over the years, but her priority was always taking care of me. She went out with her girlfriends, always leaving me with a trusted sitter until I was old enough to look after myself. Eventually, she met and eventually married my stepdad. I was jealous of the attention mom always gave him but tried to remind myself that she wasn't mine that way, I was her son after all.
Finally, I turned 19. My mom threw a big party for me with most of my closest friends in attendance. Some of Mom's friends were there also, after all, some of their sons were my best friends. My stepdad seemed to always be away working, something that happened far too often for mom's liking.
With my buddies and I finally being able to drink legally, mom had purchased an assortment of booze, and poured drinks for all of us, and soon we all had a good buzz going, including the adults.
As it was summer, mom was wearing a short skirt and spaghetti strapped tank top without a bra, and I caught a few of my buddies taking notice. I didn't blame them; it was all I could do not to stare at her perfect breasts and perky nipples through the thin fabric. I even overheard mom's best friend say something to her about how her own son, Marcel, kept staring at mom's chest, but mom dismissed her comments with a giggle and "they're teenage boys. They look at every set of boobs they can see."
When the party finally wound down, mom let me know that part of the plan was for my friends to take me out to a club to dance, then she whisked us all away into a cab, giving me money to drink and for a return ride home.
Being a 19-year-old boy, I was eager to get laid that night, but I really had no game at that age and other than coping a few feels from sympathetic and drunk girls, not much happened other than me getting drunk.
The club finally closed, and not being ready to call it a night, we all decided to head back to my house, knowing there was more alcohol there for us. We had to take 2 cabs as there were 7 of us in total. We were all being loud and stupid, and on the way home, a couple of the guys made comments about my mom:
"Maybe Erin's still up. I'd love to dance with her." said one.
"I'd love to do a lot more than that!" one exclaimed, before I hit him hard in the arm.
At this point in my life, I was used to the teasing by the other guys and at night, alone, I understood it completely, but that was something I had no intention of letting them know about.
We got back to the house and went to pour drinks. I noticed the kitchen was even messier than when we'd left. It was obvious that the moms had continued drinking for a while after sending us out. Everyone was gone except for my mom, and my buddies. Mom was nowhere to be seen, so I assumed she'd gone to bed. After all, it was 2 am at this point.
We poured more drinks and turned on the music. Someone turned on the TV and scrolled through the channels, eventually finding a softcore porn movie on. Yes, we all watched it as we drank. I don't know about the others, but I was turned on and was thinking about sending them all home so that I could go jerk off thinking about my mom.
We went back and forth from the kitchen to the living room, pouring drinks and making snacks. At one point, I noticed that a couple of the guys weren't in the living room. When I went to pour my next drink, I noticed they weren't there in the kitchen either. I assumed they were in the bathroom, so I didn't give it much thought for a bit. Eventually, after at least 10 minutes of absence, I realized they were still missing so I went to look for them.
I headed down the hallway, checking the bathroom, then my room to see if they'd gone in there and passed out, but they weren't there. The last door was to my mother's room, and it was ajar. I paused at her door, then heard hushed voices.
"Fuck she's so hot!"