I'd been having these 'funny,' kind of dreams for a while now, the kind that are erotic in nature.
I had neither the courage, nor the words to adequately describe the 'sheer reality,' or the content of the dreams I was having at the time. 'Don't get me wrong,' my mother and I were close, but there are still some things 'one doesn't tell one's mother.'
Basically, it all started shortly after the time I was on my way to the toilet and caught my older sister in the shower. She was getting ready to stay over at her best friend, 'Annabel's house,' for the night.
She didn't complain, or scream, or anything like that! 'No,' she wouldn't do that, we'd been too used to seeing each other naked, for all our lives for that to happen. This time though, and for some reason, I felt different about seeing her like this.
'Maybe it was just as my latent 'incestuous gene,' kicking in, 'I don't know.' But some of my friends had been telling me how good she looked, how hot she was, and jealous they were that I had a sister as hot as her. I never saw her that way, sure she was good looking, and all that! 'But really!' Who looks at there sister in that kind of way.
"Sorry sis, it's an emergency," I told her rushing to the toilet and sitting down.
You know when your in the bathroom and every sound that's made seems to echo? Well I farted when I started to pee. I looked at her, and she looked at me and we both burst out laughing. That is until I saw her bits jiggling about, almost Instantly, I became hot and aroused, I stopped laughing and just stared at her. I had to get out of there as quick as I could, I got up, head down, and I almost ran back to my room, but that feeling..., 'well it stayed with me all day.'
I couldn't look at her, 'not without seeing her naked under her clothes.' I became distant, and moody with her for the next few day's, all because I couldn't understand why, something as seeing her like that made me feel the way I did. She kept on asking me what was up with me, "why was I ignoring her," she asked. 'If only she knew,' but then again I'd have to tell her that since that incident, I'd been having those dreams about her, that I mentioned earlier.
Even mum had to step in, and tell her to hush, and leave me alone. I ended up going to bed early again that night.
I can't actually remember if I had a dream that night, or even if I had a dream at all. I do, however, remember the first dream of her the following night.
I can't honestly say if it was an accident or not. Was I waiting for her to have he shower? Did she leave the door slightly open on purpose?
When I left my room to use the toilet again that night, why did I stop outside the door watching her shower through the partially opened door? But somehow, It all happened! I was standing on the landing outside the bathroom watching her.
Of course she caught me looking at her, she must have known I was there all the time, and was just putting on a show for me? 'well, that's what I think now anyway.'
"I know your there," she said turning to face the door, and planting her feet apart, with her fists on her hips.
"Do you like what you see," she asked, in a taunting way.
"Come on in and take a good look," she said thrusting her hips forward.
I went bright red and scuttled back to my room to the sound of her giggles, I was both aroused and ashamed at the same time.
That night, I had my first ever erotic dream that I remember, and it was about her. If I still remember it correctly, it was a fantastically, hot sunny, summer's day, and I was on a beach somewhere sunbathing.
You know how, in a dream you can be appropriately dressed for the situation that you're in at the time. Then all of a sudden your completely naked still sunbathing, yet, it all still seems appropriate, somehow?
I was completely alone on the beach, 'naked,' but alone. I'd only just turned over, I'd finished toasting my back and now I wanted to toast my front. The smell of the sea breeze, the feel of the sand under me, and the hot sun beating down on me soon had me feeling drowsy.
It was a great feeling to be naked and uncaring, laying on the sand,. With the hot sun and the sea breeze tantalising my naked body, I was in complete heaven.
Checking to see if anybody had recently joined me on the beach, and finding none, I lay back down. My arms went up over my head so the sun could tan my underarms, and I opened my legs, pressing the soles of my feet together. So I could get everything down there tanned too, and I just lay there basking in the sun.
It's surprising how erotic, and relaxing (at the same time,) it is to have a warm sea breeze wafting about your naked body like that. I felt like I was almost asleep, when I started to notice that it was getting darker by the second, clouds were rolling in to cover the sun.
It got Darker and darker, the sea came in fast getting choppier and choppier, spray brushed against my face, yet it was still warm.
Had I been asleep all day sunbathing, 'I wondered?' It was pitch black as though it was middle of the night. 'I felt good though,' I felt aroused, invigorated looking down my body at my nakedness. I tried to get up, and was knocked back by some 'unseen force.'
When I opened my eyes again, it was only to find that my 'naked,' sister was there looking out to sea straddling me with her fist on her hips, like she had in the bathroom.
"Did you like what you saw," her words coming back to me from some 'forgotten far off place,' I held my hand out to her so she could help me up.
"How about now," she asked squatting herself directly over my face.
"Do you like what you see now."
"What are you talking about," I said trying to push her away.
She moaned when I touched her, my fingers felt wet, and they were disappearing into a warm, wet, black hole.
"It's okay, you can taste it if you want to, go on see if you like the taste, I do."
Somehow her words were like a siren singing to lure sailors to their deaths. It was music to my ears, and I went, just as willingly as the old time sailors had.
It was pitch black, and I remember I couldn't move, apart from reacting to what ever she was doing to me. I also remember the feeling of the grainy sand in my hands as I desperately clawed at it in desperate need to breath.
There was a storm over head, it was a moaning, and screaming storm, the type you'd expect to be blown off your feet by, yet there was only a breeze. Tentacle's, I felt her tentacle's moving about over my chin, sea water pouring into my mouth, I was having feelings I'd never had before. I was floating, weightless in this sea of storms tossed about, my body, hot, 'yet,' it was shaking and shivering.
Then it was all over, the day light was back, the storms had gad gone, and so had my sister to where ever she went off to. It seems, that the only evidence that there had been a storm at all, was the wetness covering my face and body.
I was exhausted, so exhausted, I was too tired to get up to go for a pee so I just lay there and let it out where I was.
The following morning it was embarrassing, trying to explain to my mother why I had wet my bed during the night at my age. She just looked at me in that 'all knowing,' look that mothers seem to have.
"It's okay dear, it's all a part of you growing up and becoming an adult." I was nineteen for god's sake!
Thankfully my sister never found out about it, or she would never let me forget it, 'I'm sure.' As it was, she kept her distance from me for a while and didn't talk to me for a couple of days after that.
By the end of the second day, when I was going up to bed, she got up and gave me a big sisterly hug good night, the way she used to do.
"I'm going to miss you when your away at collage," she whispered in my ear.