I did have a proper graduation trip that summer, after finishing art school. But my real graduation was riding back East with Aunt Nia in the back seat of the family van. I learned a lot. I recount my story here as a contribution to the "in the backseat with mother" sub-sub-subgenre. (You'll have to read on to see how that's possible.) It's a slow build before it heats up, but that's just how things happened. Drop a message if you want me to post the sketches.
Thank you to Samantha Turner and BriM_0261 for excellent editing help.
In art school I concentrated on sculpture and drawing--pencil and charcoal sketches, sometimes fluid and fast, sometimes slow and realistic. My passion is sculpture, though. I'm pretty good at it. Good enough to earn a master's degree at a prestigious art conservatory in Washington State. The drawings and sculptures I do are all of people, busts or heads, faces, but my favorite is the whole human form. Sometimes in rough shapes, but often realistic in the style the ancients taught us. Our bodies connect us to the world, to others, and allow us expression. Emotion emerges from the exploration of our bodies. We are not separate from our bodies.
Perhaps I am a romantic.
My graduation project was a life-size sculpture of a nude couple in an embrace: She standing and he at her feet reaching up and wrapping around her legs. A play on a famous Renaissance sculpture. I called it
Couple Embracing
. My professors thought I should exhibit it, enter it into shows and competitions. But first, the problem was how to get it home to Maine.
An art freight business would have been prohibitively expensive. I couldn't even really afford to rent a U-Haul one way. In the end, we went with my father's suggestion: They would come to my graduation and we'd make a road trip out of it. He measured and measured our three-row minivan and was sure it would work. My dad is the ultimate nerd and loves figuring stuff like this out. And he also loves to drive, to the point where he won't let anybody else drive. After graduation, we'd pack up all my artwork and drive back cross country. In addition, my Aunt Nia (my mother's twin sister) would take a bus up from Portland, join us for the road trip, and spend some weeks with us, like she did most summers. Dad kept texting me about the route he was picking, and motels we could stay at, some stops we could make along the way, like Yellowstone National Park.
I was cramming to get my last pieces done for my senior exhibition, working around the clock in the studio. Finally, I turned in all my works, finished my portfolio and submitted it, completed a paper and a couple of finals, and was done.
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Day One
My parents arrived the day before the commencement and helped me wrap and pack everything.
Couple Embracing
was the biggest challenge: It was in a pyramid-shaped box with a large base, secured with straps inside, and the only way it fit in the van was on its side, in the second row, with the middle seat removed, the point of the pyramid facing the back of the van. The base was like a wooden wall across practically the width of the van, leaving just a few inches on each side. There was literally not an inch to spare above or below. Dad was extremely pleased and kept talking about how he was prepared to take the sliding door off, but it turned out he didn't have to. The rest of the second row was crammed with artwork in protective cases and boxes and folders.
When we set off, it was Dad driving and Mom up front, and Aunt Nia and me in the back, in the third row. The middle row was completely blocked, and it was almost like there was a wooden barrier between the cab and the back. Even in the third row, the space in front of the middle seat was occupied by the top of the box for
Couple Embracing
, and a third person would barely have fit. I settled in behind the driver seat in that third row, and Aunt Nia was on the passenger side. I looked across at her, and she smiled back and dug her Kindle out of her bag.
Aunt Nia keeps her hair short and a little boyish, but Mom's hair is long. They are identical twins. Nia looks almost identical to my mother, down to the way she moves and some of her gestures. Most people can't tell them apart when she stays with us. I wouldn't confuse them, they are clearly different people to me, even when they wear the same lipstick color to mess with people. When they were kids apparently they deliberately tried to look the same. I've seen their college pictures, they were both gorgeous. Still are, I guess, and I didn't mind being in the back with Aunt Nia. I'd always liked Aunt Nia.
But I was exhausted and went to sleep as soon as we set out. When I woke up we were stopped. I was super hot, sweating. Turns out Dad hadn't thought of one thing: The only AC for the back of the van was blocked by a huge box wedged between the rows. I started shedding layers and would have kept shedding them but for Aunt Nia.
We bought two little fans at the gas station. They didn't help. I put on some sports shorts and the loosest shirt I could find at the gas station. Aunt Nia came out of the bathroom wearing a loose, yellow summer dress, with a bikini top underneath. It looked light, sexy, and free.
I was sweating as the miles rolled by and went back to sleep. I hadn't realized how wiped out I was.
I woke up from Aunt Nia shifting in her seat. She was reaching for the little fan while adjusting her summer dress. She must have pulled it up to get more air while I was asleep. She was just taking her leg off the seat between us. As I stirred, I noticed that I had a raging hard-on. It was clearly visible under my shorts and twitching. I sat up quickly and adjusted my shorts, embarrassed, and glanced over at Aunt Nia. She grinned at me. I reached for the water bottle and stretched, trying to act normal. Maybe she hadn't noticed?
At the next rest stop, we got some bath towels and spread them over the third-row seats. We all got some watermelon, which helped. Dad was in his element. "We hit some construction around Missoula but looking clear now. Anybody mind if we keep driving a few more hours today?" We all mumbled, "No problem."
As the afternoon wore on, I pulled out one of my folders with a drawing pad and some sketches. I'm always sketching, and I did a few quick landscapes--we were driving through some stunning mountain views. Aunt Nia saw what I was doing.
"I love your sketches," she said, "I remember you drawing even when you were a kid."
I shrugged.
"Will you show me?" she said with a smile and put her Kindle away. She scooched a little closer, which was not easy with the stupid box poking through from the row of seats in front of us.
"Sure," I agreed, even though I really hated the mountains I was sketching. Landscapes are not my thing, but Aunt Nia thought they were great.
She picked up the pad to hold it up in the light, and she noticed the stack of sketches in the folder under it. "What are these?" She asked and reached for them.
"Just exercises, really, from my drawing classes and studies for sculptures." I pulled one out. "See? This is an early study for
Couple Embracing
." The sketch showed the back of a naked woman, her legs folded under her but to the side, as she was reaching up. The point was to show the lines and the shapes of the muscles in her back and neck.
Aunt Nia took the sketch and studied it. "This is amazing. It's like you can see her reach, the tension in her body. I didn't know you did drawings like these. Show me some more, Stan."
I was torn. Generally, I like showing my work. It's fun to see people's reactions and observe what catches their eye--everybody sees something different in a drawing--but this was the folder with my nude studies. I had pulled out one that was pretty tame, but some of the others weren't, and this was my aunt. I wasn't going to--
"It's okay, I'm an adult," she said and laughed, interrupting my thought process and clearly reading my mind. So I shrugged and just pushed the folder over to her.
The first ones were from art school classes, nude models, in different poses, male and female in not very provocative poses. But Aunt Nia kept looking at me like she couldn't quite believe I had drawn them. There were several more nude ones like that, models bending over, two models hugging, classical poses, studies of hands, feet, breasts, shoulders. One of them was of a model, a woman, lying on her back, her arms above her head. It emphasized the line of her breasts, and how her belly ran into her hips. The next one was of the same model, but this time her legs were parted, her vulva clearly visible. Her hand was resting on her groin.
"Oh, wow," Aunt Nia said, "that's hot."
I blushed. But it was also thrilling, the way she looked at my drawings. It made me feel like an adult. It was the acknowledgment of desire.
She kept going, turning over the thick sheets of 400 series drawing paper.
I was watching her looking at the drawings in the failing light, and I took up my pad again, flipped the page, and started sketching her: She had a look of concentration, a look of determination in her brow, and she would catch her hair and stick it behind her ear, sometimes resting her long fingers on her lip. She noticed what I was doing and play punched me, but she didn't say anything. I started adding some shading and more detail to her features. Also, the sketch pad was hiding my growing erection. Having Aunt Nia look at these nudes was turning me on.
"Hey, is that you?" Aunt Nia suddenly asked. She was holding up a sketch of my face, three-quarter profile, with my hair tousled.
Oh shit, I had forgotten about those sketches. "Wait..." I stammered, "Not those," but Aunt Nia was already leafing through this set of sketches. The next one was of a naked woman, sitting in a chair, her legs spread wide, her pussy gaping open. She was holding a pad, clearly drawing. Aunt Nia just looked at me with a half smile, questioning.
"That's Alina. She was an art student from Romania, and we, um, studied together," I explained. "Um... you may want to skip these, Aunt Nia."