I Found My Mom's Porn

I'm not quite sure this belongs in this category, but since it involves me thinking and fantasizing about my mom's sex life I figure this is as good a place as any.

Just about every guy has found their dad's porn stash at some point, but did you ever find your mom's? I never really looked for porn in my house, but when I was 18 I came across a stash of not just my dad's porn, but my mom's too. While I didn't think much of it at the time, it's blowing my mind all these years later.

I was chatting with someone online and the topic turned to finding your father's porn collection. When I looked back as I started writing, it took off in to an uncontrollable, kind of uncomfortable, stream of consciousness wondering about my parents' (specifically my mother's) sex life. As I started remembering I was shocked at what I recalled and where it went, especially when I started getting hard thinking about my mom getting fucked.

My father had some good magazines -- not Playboy or Penthouse, but quality magazines, books actually, with very good pics -- the kind you'd find in a porno shop not the cheap kind you'd find behind the counter in a convenience store. I felt like I struck gold. Those magazines were where I learned about anal sex. It's not like they were all about anal sex, but there was a chapter in one of the books with a bunch of pics featuring it. There were also some books with sex stories, which were like Penthouse Forum. Those were great too.

At 18 years old, coming across your dad's porn is not a big deal, most guys manage but a few months later I found porn in my mother's dresser too! One book was a book with sex fantasies from a woman's point of view -- maybe 8-10 different scenes. Nothing too wild, just romantic but explicit fantasies about women getting fucked, I would have remembered it if it was real kinky. However, there was another erotic novel I found on top of her dresser right in the open (then eventually she hid it in a drawer like the other one) - I believe it was called "The Orgy Lovers" - laying right out in the open on my mom's dresser!

At the time, I didn't think much of it, it was just really good porn. Until just now, prior to this it was "oh I found some porn in my parents' room, it happened to be on my mom's dresser". Maybe it was the taboo of thinking of your mom as a sexual person that it never occurred to me that this was very kinky. Now I'm like - my mom was reading porn about a couple who were swingers and having orgies? My mother? Damn it turns me on so much now that I'm thinking about it.

I got off on the porn, but it wasn't until just recently, for the first time, I started thinking of my mom actually possessing her own porn and fantasizing about swinging and having sex with another couple, masturbating to it. How did she get the book? I can't imagine my PTA president mom going into a porn shop, but who knows? Did she and my dad go together? I can't imagine that. I assume he bought it. Did he do it to try to put ideas in her head? Did she say "hey, get me a book while you're there?" If so, did she ask for a book about swinging? Even if she got it on her own, it was laying right on top of her dresser for quite a while, so my dad had to know about it. Did my parents do that stuff? I can't picture them doing that because they never went out very much, maybe just two or three times a year at most, like their anniversary, maybe New Year's, stuff like that.

Did she finger herself reading/thinking about the book? Did she use one of the dildoes I found in their porn stash? (More about that later) I saw her naked on occasion, so I do know that she didn't appear to groom very much and had a full bush (although now that I try to recall it, it was pretty much triangle shaped, nothing on the inner thighs and the edges seemed smooth -- not that I got a very good look and I wasn't TRYING to look -- so maybe she did a little bit of bush grooming.) I can't get that picture out of my head now. Mom, on their bed, naked, legs spread, full bush, rubbing her pussy.

I don't remember a lot about the book, except that it was relatively thick, at least two hundred pages. I vaguely remember the beginning about how they got started swinging -- they got invited to a party about a year after they were married and it turned out that it developed into an orgy. They were both kind of freaked but realized they were both intrigued and decided to try it, and that's how they started swinging.

The only other chapter I remember is they eventually decided to meet an older couple through whatever passed for personal ads in the late 70s/early 80s. It was a weird set up but they decided to meet in a hotel room, the older couple was already there, each in a twin bed with the lights out -- I forget why, shyness or something but it was just a dumb porn novel excuse for what happened next. They each got naked, got in to bed with their corresponding partner and started fooling around and fucking. Suddenly, someone said something and they froze. A voice was recognized and they freaked out, jumped out of bed, turned on the lights and it turned out they had just climbed into bed with HER parents.

After some freaking out, crying and guilt they calmed down and were about to leave when the hubby said jokingly, "what a shame, I always thought my mother in-law was pretty hot". They all laughed and her dad said "I never fantasized about my daughter but I can't deny noticing her body as she was growing up. You're just gorgeous honey" She blushed and said "I always had a crush on you daddy, and sometimes I DID fantasize about you." With that they all came to the conclusion that they were all adults, no one was being coerced or tricked, no one was getting pregnant so they decided to do some incestual swinging. Not realistic I know, but hey, it was porn fiction lol.

I didn't think much of it at the time, I just thought it was kinky and was in a hurry to jerk off, and at 18, almost 19 years old I was able to jerk off to completion three times over the next few hours thinking about that. But recalling it now? How did my mom feel about that chapter? Did she think it was gross? Did she skip it when she saw where it was going? Or was she like me -- no interest in fucking her own parents but turned on by the forbidden kinkiness of the situation? I know there was a little bit of lesbian stuff in the book too, not a lot but some, though for the life of me I don't remember the scenarios. Again, what did mom think about the girl-girl stuff? Did she ignore it, skim through it to get to the straight sex or get turned on by it? Did my mom lie naked on the bed, rubbing her pussy with one hand, pulling on a nipple with the other, thinking about two women going at it while their husbands watched? Did my mother, who went to church every Sunday morning, fantasize about eating pussy on Saturday night?

I'm having so many thoughts now -- did my mom like to suck dick? Did she swallow? Did my dad fuck her ass? If so, did she like it or just put up with it? What was their favorite position? I found three dildoes in their porn stashes. There were two white cylindrical vibrating ones that they used to market with a drawing of a woman rubbing it against her cheek as a "massager", which I found in one of my father's drawers. One was about 10" long and the other maybe 4 or 5" and about as thick as your thumb. Then there was one thick realistic looking flesh colored rubber one about 6 or 7 inches long with veins and realistic head but no balls and it didn't vibrate. I found that one in one of my mother's drawers. I don't really remember for sure but I'm thinking it was in one of her drawers underneath her underwear (nothing sexy just granny panties). They must have used them. How often? The small one couldn't have been much good in her pussy. Did they just use it on her clit? In her ass? In my father's ass? Again picturing my mother laying in bed fucking herself with a realistic dildo. Mind blown.

How many guys did my mom fuck in her lifetime? I know she was engaged before she met my dad (her boyfriend was going into the military, so they got engaged, I know my grandparents were pissed about it and they eventually broke up, but I assume she fucked him before he went away.) Any others before my father? They got married in 1962, started dating in 1960. We assume un-marrieds weren't having a lot of sex back then, but was that true? She was 24 when they got married so it's not like she was a teenager. Was she a "good girl"? Did she go half way and jerk guys off or blow them to keep them happy, or did she fuck them? What if she was a slut? Wow, what a turn on. I found out 20 years after we were married that my wife was a total slut before we met -- which actually turns me on but I wish I had known sooner so I might have taken advantage of it. Now I'm picturing mom swinging and being spit-roasted. Fuck, I'm going to hell lol.

I never found any sex pics -- not many back then before digital/camera phones but my father did have a polaroid in his drawer of her topless. Must've been on their honeymoon she looked so young. She was standing next to her bed, topless with shorts on changing her clothes. It wasn't a sneak pic though, because she was looking right at the camera smiling. She was much thinner than I ever saw her and she had nice, firm, pointy titties, couldn't have been more than B cups because there was no sag at all. I looked for that pic after my dad passed away but couldn't find it, or his porn. He must've gotten rid of it all.

It amazes me that absolutely none of this stuff ran through my mind at the time I actually found this stuff and then just the simple question "Did you ever find your father's porn stash?" 40+ years later brought all of this flooding in to my mind all at once. Now I'm also wondering what it would have been like to fuck her.