My 23 year old stepson has come to stay with us and I think I'm in danger of making a big mistake. It's been 65 days and I keep getting hornier and hornier. I catch glimpses of his hard young body and I can't help but wonder what it would feel like to touch him. Rather, and more importantly, I keep imagining what it would feel like to have him touch me. His strong capable hands touching me, massaging all my reservations away until I forget that he is 17 years my junior. Oh god what am I going to do? Every fibre of my being is crying out for release but I cannot cross that moral threshold. If I give in to my needs, I risk jeopardizing my 13 year marriage and I refuse to do that.
In the light of day my resolve is strong. I am a grown woman and he is just a kid after all. What could he possibly know about pleasing me? He speaks of things I know nothing about and laughs at things that I just don't get. He spends more time grooming than I do and is constantly on his phone which is my biggest pet peeve. Then why oh why does he pop into my head as soon as it hits the pillow? The thought of his tight abs under my fingers and the hitch in his breath if my hand slips just a little bit farther down. I lay awake listening to my husband snore beside me and I imagine what I would do if his son came up to the open doorway and motioned me out. Would I go or would I just feign sleep and hope he doesn't see my open eyes glowing in the dark room? Would he accept defeat and go back to the couch on the other side of the bedroom wall or would he move closer? The fear and anticipation just imagining this scenario makes me physically ache with need. Would I go to sleep feeling good about myself and the fact that I resisted or would I give in to my baser instincts and forever after feel guilty for hurting my husband.
