Mother had good reason to ask me to leave home. I was hooked and stealing from her to support my habit. I knew what my brother would have to say, but I had no place else to go unless I lived on the street. That I wasn't going to do. Being hooked was bad enough without being a whore too. It was time to straighten out my life.
So I went to my brother's, and then stood out on the cold for two hours waiting for him to come home. I wanted him there, regardless of what I had to tell him, before my Goody-Two-Shoes of a sister-in-law, Bonnie, found out about it.
I was about frozen when Danny finally came home from work. Of course Mom had called him. He started to give me hell before he was halfway in the door and went right on as we went inside. I was so cold by then all I wanted was a fix and warm place to sleep. I managed to control myself just long enough to beg over and over for him to give me a place to stay. Then I passed out.
When I woke up in the middle of the night, I was on the sofa shaking all over, really needing a fix. Danny came out of the bedroom, turned on a lamp, and sat on the edge of the sofa in his underwear, trying to get me to calm down. Eventually I managed to listen to him at least a little bit.
Danny said I could stay on three conditions: I had to let him get me into a rehab, I had to promise to stay in rehab, and I had to promise never to use again. I promised, of course -- I would promise anything at that point -- and I was so happy I sat up and hugged him.
Only after Danny pried me loose did I realize I was naked under the blanket that he had thrown over me. He told me I had thrown up and that Bonnie would have nothing to do with me while I was on drugs. He also said I had to have a bath.
I argued with him, as I was really beginning to get strung out. He yanked the blanket off me and insisted that I had to keep myself clean. I realized that he was seeing me naked, in fact for the second time that night. I shut up and let him lead me into the bathroom.
Danny ran the tub full of hot water helped me in. The wet heat felt good on my sore body, and and it calmed me a little more. Danny's strong hands washing me felt good too. I even giggled when he asked me if I could wash between my legs myself. "No," I said, just to see what he would do.
I didn't expect him to call my bluff. He put one hand under my knee, raised it up, pulled it over to the side of the tub, and washed my pussy so awkwardly you would have thought that he thought it might bite him or something. Brother or not, and as bad as I felt now, I quickly started to enjoy his hands on me there.
I'd never fallen so low as to sleep with anyone for money, but I certainly wasn't a virgin either. Danny's hands were shaking when he toweled me off. When he pushed the towel into my crotch, I put one foot up on the edge of the tub.
Sure enough, he dried my pussy and reached through my legs to dry my ass. He had such an odd look on his face, I wanted to laugh. Then he was done, and I stood there with my foot still on the side of the tub while he hung up the towel and let the bath water out. Only then I noticed the front of his underpants sticking out -- way out.
He left me without a word and came back in a couple minutes with what was obviously a raggedy old pair of his wife's pajamas. Just for the hell of it, I grabbed for the front of his underpants, and I connected. I was holding my brother's prick in my hand. Danny froze.
I swear, he stood there just looking at me. I got excited real fast when he let me put my hand in his underpants and wrap my fingers around his hard-on. I started pumping him right away. I hardly knew what I was doing this for, except I wanted to.
Danny's eyes were glazing over, and he was still just standing there looking at me. I wanted a better look at him, so I pushed his underpants down. His hard-on was so hard and dark and fat-headed that somehow my mind cleared quite a bit.
I still had my leg on the side of the tub when he reached over and cupped his hand firmly over my pussy. I pumped him harder, and he started to rub me! Little strings of clear goo started to leak out his fat, purple head, getting all over my hand. And then his finger found my slit and started up inside me. My God, I really did want my brother to just throw me down on the floor right there and fuck me.
But then he stopped. "No," he said aloud, jerking his finger out of my pussy and grabbing my wrist to hold it still. "No, we can't do this," he whispered. "I'd like to, but we just can't, Tessa." Pulling my hand off his hard-on, he ran out of the room.
My knees were shaking so hard I could hardly put on the pajama bottoms. I washed my hands again and went back to the living room, where Danny was sitting on the edge of the couch again, still in his underwear.
I sat beside him, torn between knowing he was my brother and knowing what a wonderful cock he had. There was still heat in my pussy, and I put my hand in his lap, but he slapped me away.
"No, I told you," Danny said, looking straight into my eyes. "I'll offer you a deal." He paused for a long time. "Stay in rehab till you're straight, then stay straight for two months. And then, when your head is clear, we -- we'll talk about it. Okay?"
I agreed -- I couldn't ask for more. But I did. I asked him to kiss me goodnight.
The kiss started out sweet and turned hot fast. Soon we were lip-locked, and my hand was back in his pants jerking him off again. I was just wishing he'd go for my pussy once more, when he groaned loudly, said "Oh damn, Tessa", and came all over my hand. What a load!
We just sat there in complete silence on the sofa, staring at each other. When I had finished him off thoroughly, he stood up and tried to move away from the sofa, but I still held on to him. Eventually, I let him lead me back to the bathroom, where he pulled my hand out of his underpants and kissed me again, softly this time.
I washed myself off, and then I put down the toilet lid and sat on it while he took off his underpants, washed them, wrung them out, and hung them up to dry. His prick was soft now, but still long enough to hang down his leg, and I tried to go for it -- but he slapped my hand away hard enough to hurt this time. As my hand reddened, I made up my mind. I was going to clean up my act.
Between Danny and a friend of his who was a paramedic, I got into a program in just eleven days instead of six weeks. Those first days were pure hell. Danny reluctantly gave me enough for five buys, but I needed at least four times that much -- and I couldn't get it. To make things worse, Bonnie got sourer on me, and bitchier too. If I hadn't gone into rehab when I did, I'm sure she would have thrown me out.
Well, Danny came to see me after two weeks. If you've never been around anyone trying to get sober, you have no idea how I felt or looked. You also can't imagine how happy I was to see him. He told me that our mom had washed her hands of me, which was no surprise. He did say that Bonnie kept asking if I was okay, which was a surprise and made me feel somewhat better.
Then, after we had just about run out of things to say, he blurted out in a half-whisper: "I hope you know what you've done to me. I can't wait for you to get better so you can play with my cock again. My love life hasn't been worth shit for a long time, but now I have you and something to look forward to. You better be good to your word, and don't forget the two months after you get out of here." He stopped for a moment. "Damn, time to go. I'm getting hard just thinking about seeing you naked and feeling your hand on me again. Watch me when I leave." He stood up, and sure enough his pants were bulging.
Danny only visited one more time, about a week later; then he came at the end of my 28 days to sign me out. He must have told me a hundred times on the way to his place how proud of me he was, and how pretty I was, and how much color I had in my face, and how I had gained about fifteen pounds, which I desperately needed, and so on. Nothing in my entire life had made me feel as good as he did during that ride home. I knew then that my brother was what I needed to stay clean and sober.
"Get a job." That's the first thing Danny said after he got me home. If I could find a job, he'd just ask for $25 a week to help pay for the groceries. He explained that with a job I'd be less likely to backslide. I hated the idea, but I knew he was right, so I agreed again.