Derrick sat at his computer, staring at the banking screen, unable to focus. He rubbed his eyes and squinted at the screen before exhaling and finishing his report. It had been nearly two months since him and Courtney, his sister, spilled their love for one another. Two long months since he had her beautiful naked body firmly pressed against his. Two agonizing months since he'd touched her.
Once he returned to school he did his best to immerse himself back in his world, trying to push aside the desires. He knew it was a futile battle but he needed to get projects done. His grades hadn't suffered, yet. He stood from his desk and walked out of his room and into the small dorm room kitchen. Jon, Okusa, and Victor, his roommates, laughed as they watched TV. Derrick glanced at the show, a popular comedy sitcom, before walking back into his room with a tall glass of bourbon. He needed the stiff drink to clear his mind.
As he sat down at his desk and took a long drain on his drink, he opened the desk drawer and saw the small, leather box sitting in plain sight. He sighed as he opened the box to see the gift he had instinctively bought for her, the gift that he could only dream of giving to her. He closed the box and set it beside his screen as a reminder to keep persevering. His msn popped open and he looked up the video request from Courtney. He smiled before accepting the request. Courtney's tired eyes shimmered with glee when she saw him sitting at his desk.
"Hey there beautiful." Derrick said as he plugged in his headphones. He didn't need Jon to hear what Courtney and he were talking about.
"Hello, how are you?" She asked and smiled for her brother. It pained her that he was so far away.
"I'm okay, you?" He replied and looked at the door and sighed in relief as the laughter from his roommates came to his ears.
"I'm okay." A moment of silence passed between them and they smiled warmly for each other before Courtney lowered her head. "This sucks worse than the last time we talked on this." Her frustration slid into her words with complete disdain for the situation they were in.
"It was your idea." Derrick snapped back unexpectedly and Courtney looked up in surprise.
"It was the only thing I could think of that didn't involve a massive phone bill and with Mom and Dad paying for my phone." She retorted. "I just hate this so much. We've been basically exiled from each other. It's not fair. I love you more than life itself and here we are suffering because of it."
"I know. This really does bite but we got caught being really bad." Derrick agreed and both took a deep breath to calm down. "If this sucks so badly why did you send the request?"
"I just wanted to see you. I know this kills us but I had a rough day and I needed to see the face of the man I love." Courtney said and Derrick smiled. "My Profs are getting worse by the day. We're heading into reading week and they're completely destroying everything. All the notes we've been taking are useless now. I don't know what I'm going to do to understand everything. The worst part is you know everything I need to learn."
"I wish I could help you, I really do. If I could I would be there in a second to take you away from all your pain." Derrick said and Courtney held back a sorrow filled sigh.
"I know you would baby." She nearly whispered but full of love. Another moment of silence passed between them as they stared at each other through their screens, each scared to once again say their feelings but their eyes gave loving sonnets instead.
"I miss you terribly." Courtney said and looked away, her eyes glistening with tears. "I have to go. My evening class starts soon." Derrick smiled as she ended their connection. He sat back in his chair and looked down at the box he left out. He opened it again and wondered if he could really go through with what he wanted. He had promised himself that he would never hurt his sister and protect her. He wondered if he would have to protect her from himself. He could barely take watching Courtney want to spill her heart to him once again but unable to. His mind wandered to her reasoning to accept going to California. She chose there to please her parents. She always loved them no matter what they did to her or him. He took off the headphones and closed his eyes, putting the negatives aside and smiling from seeing her once more. He picked up the box once more and sighed.
"So what's her name already?" Jon asked, startling Derrick from his dreamy state. He dropped the box, slammed the drawer shut and locked it before turning in his chair. He gave him a puzzled look and Jon shook his head and waved Okusa and Victor over.
"You've been a completely different man since you came back from Christmas." Jon asked again and they waited as Derrick sighed. He couldn't simply tell them that he was in love with his sister.
"No one, it was a bad time over the holidays. I spent it in a hotel room because my family kicked me out for the rest of the family. I got in a fight over it. I won't be going back." Derrick lied back and turned back to his studies. Okusa came up to him and rested his hand on Derrick's shoulder.
"It's okay Derrick." He said with his thick Japanese accent. Derrick nodded and looked back at his computer screen. Okusa never said much, but when he did, Derrick knew that it was heartfelt and meant to take into consideration. Jon however, wanted to know more. He knew him better than anyone else. Okusa left the room and Jon sat on his desk while Victor leaned against the door.
"You're lying." He said bluntly and Derrick glanced up at him before returning to his computer. "You know I'll find out so you might as well say it."
"I can't tell you." Derrick replied, unable to bring himself to say that he had banged his own sister.
"Derrick, you can trust me. Fuck, we've been together since elementary school. I already have a good feeling who you bedded." Jon replied confidently and Derrick paled as he once again looked up at him. "Here I'll make it easier for you. I'll describe her and if I'm ever wrong I'll stop and leave the matter be. Deal?" Jon said and Victor stopped him.
"Leave him alone Jon. He's having enough problems. Besides, he wouldn't tell you even if you were right." Victor interrupted, saving Derrick from complete embarrassment. Victor looked down at him and winked. "You know if you care about her so much why don't you go and see her?"
"She's at school in California." Derrick replied and Victor crossed his arms and smirked.
"There are things called planes you know. Those things that the small city you come from is getting soon." Victor said teasing. "Take one since we're going into reading week and be back before you know it. You said she was staying there so you'll have a week of privacy with her." Victor said sarcastically and Derrick looked down. "And if you even mention money I'll beat you senseless. I know you've been buying so much shit recently that you have the money to buy a plane ticket."
"We promised that we wouldn't do that. We wanted to save our money." Derrick replied and Jon shook his head.
"You are truly dense. Mini Derrick is begging for show time and here you are sulking. Okay Vicky we're paying for this man to get laid."
"I really wish you would stop calling me that. It was Halloween for Christ sakes and I had nothing to go as." Victor replied and Jon laughed.
"It's still the fact that you went as a drag queen and won the bloody contest." Jon replied and Victor smiled.
"Don't be hating since you wanted to tap this." Victor replied foxily and Jon smirked.
"With an ass like a sixteen year old who wouldn't." Jon shot back and both men shook their heads before the debate got out of hand.
"Pack your stuff. I'll look up the flight and hot Vicky will take you there since he's the only one with a car. If you do it quickly he might put on his wig." Jon announced, getting the last jab in before leaving. Derrick lowered his head and sighed. Every fibre in his being begged him to go. He had nothing to lose and he could make up the money by working overtime during the weekend if need be. He stood and shook his head as Victor remained at the door.
"This is your fault." Derrick said with a laugh as he dropped his duffle bag on his bed. Victor grinned ear to ear.
"Damn rights. No man in this room is going to be cut off. Now get your stuff packed before pedobear Jon gets back."
Derrick cursed under his breath as his flight circled the runway for the eighth time. He had been stalled at every connection due to bad weather, deep fog at night and plain air traffic. What was supposed to be an eight hour flight ended up being nearly fifteen and with the prospect of seeing Courtney, sleep had been a luxury he couldn't afford. Finally his plane landed and he quickly made his way through the airport, getting his duffle bag from the mass of people waiting impatiently for their suitcases. He moved with the crowds out the main doors and smiled as the sun beamed brightly. He got onto the nearest bus destined for the university and the first of many smiles crept up on him. He sat down and began fidgeting with his bag straps. He sighed and stopped, instead turning his attention elsewhere. He watched the cars drive by, wishing the bus would go faster. He sighed impatiently and glanced across at the middle aged man across from him. The man smiled and Derrick slowly calmed down his sporadic thoughts.
"You look like you're chasing someone." He said and Derrick smiled and couldn't have agreed more.
"I am. The woman of my dreams." Derrick replied and the man laughed before looking out the window.
"And how's that going for you? I had to chase mine for years before she would give in." Derrick grinned and nodded in understanding.
"I didn't know I should have been chasing until recently but I had one hell of a head start." The man smirked and as the bus stopped outside the university, Derrick took in a deep breath.
