Holly's parents woke up around ten, so by ten-thirty they all were gathered around the Christmas Tree, eating honey buns and sipping on juice or coffee. Holly passed out the gifts while Ricky trailed her with a large garbage bag picking up the torn wrapping paper. It might have seemed like a normal Christmas morning to most anyone watching, in fact, Holly's parents never noticed a thing, but Holly saw how quiet Ricky was the entire morning.
Throughout the day she tried to pull her brother aside and talk to him about it, but he remained staring at the TV watching football all day with their dad. By three o'clock Holly was in the kitchen helping her mother prepare Christmas Dinner while Ricky remained in the living room. During dinner he got a bit more talkative, but he seemed to be avoiding Holly, not ignoring her, it was more subtle. He'd talk, responding to her conversation, but it seemed almost too polite.
It wasn't until the family had gone to bed that Holly had an opportunity to talk privately with Ricky. Opening the door between their rooms, she noticed the shelves seemed closer to the door than they had been. Still able to squeeze past she slipped into Ricky's room and was sitting at his desk waiting for him as he came from taking his shower.
Slipping in his door he looked over and said, "Oh hi Holly."
"Do you want to tell me what is going on?"
"What do you mean?"
"Oh Ricky, don't play stupid. And did you move your shelves back?"
"My shelves?'
"Yes, your shelves, I could barely fit through. Did you move them back closer to the door?"
"No, of course not... I didn't move them," he replied, then he paused, rubbed his face and said, "Yes I moved them."
"But why Ricky? What is going on?"
"Holly, it's wrong."
"How can it be wrong?"
"You were a virgin and I did that to you."
"Did what?"
"I took your virginity."
"You took my virginity, if I recall correctly, it was me who climbed on top of you, me who put you inside me and me that lowered down onto you. And besides I loved it."
"Oh come on, in years to come you'll look back on how you lost your virginity and you'll think..."
"I'll think it was the most beautiful, fulfilling experience I could have ever had. I mean what was the alternative, to have some guy who's only interested in getting a quick fuck, shove his cock into me. This way I shared an incredibly loving moment with someone I knew loved me, with someone who wanted to please me, with someone that made love to me. How could I have even wished or dreamed for anything more?"
"I don't know Holly, it feels so good and right, but I still feel guilty about it, it digs at me, I can't help but feeling I am hurting you."
