Head to Head (All Bets Are Off, Part 2)
My sister, her best friend, and I lay in a warm pile on the basement carpet. I had dragged a blanket off the couch and pulled it around us, but that was as far as we got to moving. I loved the feel of so much wonderful skin on mine, but I needed to think some things through, and this was not helping that process. So I carefully extricated myself and stood. "I'm going to go take a shower," I said. Kaleigh responded by grabbing a bit more blanket and wrapping her arms around Natalie. It was both adorable and drop-dead fucking sexy. Before I changed my mind, I headed upstairs. I always thought best with water running over me.
My bedroom was downstairs, by the basement, but I didn't have a shower, so I used one of the two upstairs. My parents' shower was huge. Gloriously huge. Mom could have held her book club in there. Dark tile, a wall of clear glass, two shower heads, one on either end, and shower wands. There were shelves and benches, and approximately four million bottles for my mom and one for Dad. I started the shower, and the tankless system kicked in immediately. Blessed hot water, and it never ran cold. Heaven.
I soaped myself, my body on autopilot while my thoughts were everywhere. I stood there, staring at nothing, with water running over me as I tried to sort it out in my brain.
I just fucked my sister. It was her idea, yes --she set me up for it, and knocked me down-- but I am her brother. I should have stopped it. I had the choice. Sort of. I mean, after I realized it was her sucking my cock, not her best friend. I should have stopped it. But...
But.
And there it was. Justification? Revelation? I loved my sister, I wanted to take care of her. But somehow, that shifted. I didn't just want to take care of her, I wanted to be with her. Like that. I wanted to show her romance, and tenderness. Oh, and sex. And then there was Natalie, who might as well have been my sister, and what the hell was I doing? With both of them, it felt like more than just a perverse fantasy, it felt...connected. Deeply connected. The hunger for both of them was primal. The fact they had been lovers themselves, for years -- did that make it easier, or more complicated? Was it just lust and a momentary insanity, or was it something else entirely? And honestly, the thought it was something else scared me far, far more than the fear that I just went insane and fucked two of the most important people in my life. So, back to the original question, really -- was it love or insanity? Or both?
"Hey, cowboy, wanna go for a ride?"
I turned to see Natalie standing in the shower door. Her long hair was down, and she was smiling. With her heavy breasts, full hips, and lush...everything, she looked like Greek art.
Aphrodite Enters the Shower,
β£ sculpture, in alabaster.
"You okay?" Her voice was concerned.
I nodded. "I think so," I said. Then, "hell, I don't know." I shook my head. "I'm still sorting. Everything down there was incredible, but really, what the fuck?"
"It was incredible," she said in agreement. "All of it. There were no victims." she stopped. "Sorry," she said after a moment, "you are distracting me."
I'm distracting her? I thought.
"Hold on," she said. She turned on the other shower, and, after a moment for it to warm, slipped under the spray. She tuned in and let it spray her face and hair, rubbing the water into the thick curls.
I just stood there, watching her. It was easier than thinking, and far more enjoyable.
Pushing hair and water out of her face, she turned towards me. "I get it. It's confusing. You just did the Alabama Mambo."
I snorted, then choked as I breathed in a little water. "Is that what it was?" I asked at last, and we were both still laughing.
I was smiling in appreciation as she washed and rinsed her legs and back, then started on the expanse of her chest. "Stop it," she said, laughing. "Eyes up here," and pointed to her face. "Just for a minute, look at me and listen: Kaleigh has wanted this for a long time. She planned it. She had it circled on her damn calendar. You didn't force her into anything."
"I know, but I never thought of her like that before."
"I understand that too, but don't get your noodle too much in a knot about it. Your sister is one of the most directed people I have ever known. She knew what the risks were, but wanted it anyway. Be careful with her, but just keep talking about what you want and need out of this, and you will be fine."
I noticed she didn't bring up what she wanted in this, how she fit in. That was something else I was trying to shake out.
As Natalie began to rinse the soap off, my eyes wandered from her face again. I am a simple man, I admit it.
"I love your sister," she said, "in complex and interesting ways. Deeply sexual ones as well. And I love you, you goof. We've known each other for what?"
"Ten years," I said.
"Exactly. You are like the brother I never had. And I wanted to fuck my brother." She stopped and deliberately looked at me with the same appraising look that I had given her. "And I just want to say for the record," she said, "football looks outstanding on you."
I laughed. It felt good, and something eased in my chest.