Thanks to everyone for the feedback on Pt. 01. You all made submitting my first story such a fun experience!
For those who weren't fans of the heavy dose of non-consent in the first story, I hope you'll give Derek another chance -- Hannah sure does ;)
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"Derek?"
The room was dark, but I could make out the shadowy figure of my older brother by a door. It felt like my brain had been replaced by fog and dumb, and my eyes didn't want to open all the way, so it took a minute to get my bearings. I was in a bed; I knew that much, at least. I figured it was Derek's bed, because, duh, who else's could it have been? I wasn't wearing the clothes I'd had on earlier, which did give me pause. I was also incredibly intoxicated -- a totally foreign, and currently unpleasant, feeling for me.
I tried to recollect the events of the night. I remembered the yummy wine. I think I'd had two glasses, which was probably (definitely) where I should have stopped. It was the first time I'd ever tried alcohol, and it made me feel all loose and tingly. Then came the pot... and, oh my god, I can't believe I'd agreed to do that! Stupid peer pressure. I'd never even considered doing drugs before, but watching Derek do it, and the blissed-out look on his face after he took that first hit, I was more than curious. I was shocked, at first, by the way he wanted me to do it. It seemed kind of inappropriate for a brother and sister to be so close in such an intimate way. I'm ashamed to admit it, but hearing him describe the process actually made me want to try it even more.
With my mouth so close to his, breathing in his smoke-filled air, a shiver had gone through me. I was confused by the tingle I'd felt under my skin and deep inside, but as soon as I'd exhaled and felt the incredible pleasure and numbness the pot gave me, I no longer cared. I wanted more. Feeling infinitely bolder the second time, I'd brought my lips to just a centimeter from his. I'd wanted that shiver, that rush, I'd felt the first time.
After that, the night got a bit blurry. I remember going to the bar, and I remember doing shots, but that's where my brain goes blank. I have no clue how long we were there, how many shots we did, or how much of an idiot I made of myself before he hauled my wasted butt home and put me to bed.
I took a deep breath, attempting to calm my rising anxiety, and discovered that I smelled freshly showered. Oh my god -- had I vomited on myself? That would be embarrassing. But why else would he have had to bathe me? And that meant he'd seen me naked. I knew I should have been repulsed by that idea, but all I could think was, did he like what he saw? Apparently, my drunk brain went in interesting directions.
I also felt a little... different. Like, there was a weird, but not unpleasant, pressure between my legs. It throbbed a little down there, but it was a nice throb, if that's even a thing. I felt almost needy, like my pussy had discovered something it liked and was begging for more. It made me press my thighs together, though that turned out to be the complete opposite of helpful.
Freaked out at having lost a good chunk of my memory for the first time, ever, I really didn't want to be alone. I reached over to turn on the bedside lamp and quietly called out my brother's name again.
"Derek, is that you?" I knew it was, but my brain was still too cloudy to make any sense.
There was a long pause before Derek responded. "Uh huh?" He was still facing away from me, poised to walk out the door.
Without meaning to, I blurted out the most pressing question in my mind. "How come I'm in my nightie?" I winced at the noticeable slur in my words.
Derek muttered "shit" under his breath, barely audibly. He didn't respond to my question, though.
"Oh my god." I buried my face in my hands, ready to die of embarrassment. I hadn't thought that was actually possible until that moment. "I puked on myself, didn't I? Please tell me I didn't get any on you!"
"Um, yeah. I mean, no, you didn't throw up on me, but, yeah. I had to, um, wash it off you," he stammered, probably as mortified by the situation as I was.
"Well, fudge. My first real adult night, and I go way overboard. I'm so sorry, Derek." I'd never been so disappointed in myself.
"It's ok, Han. Really. In fact, we should just never speak of it again, ok?" It was a total relief that we were on the same page, so I nodded my head in agreement.
My whole body still felt off, and trying to piece together the strange night I'd had made my head spin. I was dreading being in a dark room all by myself, so I asked my brother, "Would you sleep with me tonight?"
Derek's eyes bugged out, and he looked wildly around the room, kinda like he wanted to bolt. "Wh-- What? Sleep with you?"
"Yeah. The alcohol and pot hit me really hard, and I've never blacked out before, so I'm kinda freaked. I'd sleep much better if you were with me... if that's ok with you." I gave him my best you-know-you-can't-deny-me-anything face, all doe-eyed and pouty. He'd always been a total sucker for it, and it didn't fail me this time, either.
Derek walked over to the bed, pulled back the covers, and settled onto the very edge, as far away from me as he could get. I scooted to the middle of the bed, wanting to be closer to him. He always made me feel so safe and protected, and I really needed my big brother in that moment. He lay stiffly on his back, and I curled up on my side, facing him.
"Thanks for tonight, Derek. I'm sorry if I embarrassed you at all. I feel like a complete child, not knowing my own limits and just plowing right through them. I don't think I'll ever drink or do pot ever again."
Ok, that last part was a lie. Up until I blacked out, I was feeling really freaking good, better than I'd ever felt in my life. I was always so uptight, unable to keep my anxieties from dictating my life. It was exhausting. Being under the influence made me feel free, adventurous, and something else I couldn't name. It was a pleasant combination.
Derek turned his head toward me, looking me in the eye for the first time since I woke up. "You didn't embarrass me at all, honey." The endearment sent an odd chill through me. "I loved seeing you have so much fun. It was like a light was turned on inside you. You were absolutely beautiful."