Dad moved out of the house just before Christmas. It seems that he had gotten one of his girlfriends pregnant and they were going to move in together. Mom seemed a little more blue, but not terribly so.
She stopped coming up to my apartment to watch movies after the Thanksgiving kiss. For the most part, she stayed away from me and had a hard time looking me in the eyes when we did talk. I wasn't sure if this meant that she enjoyed it and was feeling guilty or if she just felt ashamed of herself. Grace came by the weekend before Christmas and they locked themselves in mom's room for the day.
I spent the first half of Christmas with mom and her sister and mother then I went to Amy's parents for dinner. I came home about midnight, the lights were on in the house so I stopped in to say goodnight. Mom was sitting in front of the fireplace with a glass of wine and a blanket around her shoulders. I came around behind her chair, reached down and hugged her shoulders and kissed her head. I could see she was wearing a light, button up blouse with nothing underneath.
Sylvia held my arms tight to her, not letting me get away. "Did you have a nice Christmas with Amy?"
"It was nice. Ate too much." I kissed her head again.
"Thanks for joining my family today." She said and leaned her head against my arm.
"I'd spend all my time with you if I could." I hugged her harder.
"I appreciate that." Her right hand interlaced with my left hand. "I enjoy you so much."
I didn't know what to say. I leaned my head down, kissed her on the ear. "I love you."
"We're very close, aren't we." She said in a quiet voice.
"Yes. Very."
She cranked her head to see me better. "We have to be careful, not to damage our relationship."
I drew a breath certain that she would say she wanted me to move away from the house. "That's the last thing I want."
"Good." She sighed and released my arms. "So long as we understand one another."
I came around the chair and knelt on the floor in front of her. "I would do anything for you."
She took my hand in hers. "I know. And I would do anything for you."
I moved forward pressing my face into her breasts and hugged her hard. My chest was against her right leg, she moved it to allow me to get closer. Now I was between her legs on my knees before her. "Is everything okay?" I finally asked.
Sylvia ran her fingers through my hair. "I don't know." She sighed, "I'm just confused by everything. Things have been strange around here for awhile. I'm hoping they get better soon."
In her position, slouched down slightly in the chair, her crotch was against my chest. I could feel the warmth emanating from there. As I hugged her, my head on her lovely breasts, my cock grew hard. I raised up, so my crotch pressed against hers, I hugged her again and heard her sigh in my ear. I pulled back and looked at her. I wanted to kiss her. Her eyes moved from my eyes to my lips and back again. "Merry Christmas." I said, then leaned in and kissed her on the mouth. She didn't resist me, but she didn't open her mouth to mine either.
She smiled at me when we broke the kiss. "I hope you're not looking for another Christmas present."
"There's only one present I want." I replied, moved forward and kissed her again. This time, her mouth opened up to mine; the kiss was long and gentle. She put her hand on my chest as I started to grind my crotch into hers.
"Jason." She said breaking the kiss. "I appreciate your affection, I do, but it's not right."
"I can't help myself. You are so beautiful. And, we're good together." Words tumbled out of my mouth out of control. "I know you can't have more children." I looked her square in the eyes. "We don't have to worry about you getting pregnant."
Her face turned red with embarrassment. "That's not the point." She looked away from me. "It's just not proper."
I put my hand on her chin and turned her face to meet mine. "I want you and you want me -- I can tell." I pushed my cock harder into her crotch.
She put both of her hands on my chest holding me at bay. "I'm not going to fuck my own son. Okay? Your father has lived a total life of debauchery. He has fucked everything and everyone. He has no morals. If we were to do this -- If we were to allow it to happen, what would I be teaching you? You would think it's okay to go through life fucking everything you want. I want you to be better than him. Better than me."
I stared at her for a long time. Neither one of us said anything else. I finally stood up and nodded with tears in my eyes. "You haven't done anything wrong."
My mother stood from the chair and threw her arms around my shoulders. "I don't want to lose you, Jason. You're all I've got left. I couldn't stand to lose you."
I hugged her warmly. "You're not going to lose me."
She clung to me and started to cry. "I feel like I'm losing everything."
I pulled back then bent and picked her up in my arms. "You need rest." She was surprisingly light. I carried her up the stairs to her bedroom and laid her on the bed. She still clung to my neck when I laid her down.
"Stay with me, a little while."
I laid down next to her on the bed. Sylvia turned her face into my shoulder and continued to cry. I patted her the back and kept saying. "It's okay. I love you."
She fell asleep on my shoulder. I dozed off and when I woke, she was nearly naked next to me. At some point, Sylvia had gotten up and put on a night shirt that covered down to the tops of her thighs. I turned on the light next to the bed and looked at her lovely body. The night shirt was lifted up enough that I could see the gray hairs in her pubes, looking her over, I saw her breasts pushing against the material of the shirt. I looked at her face, ran my fingers lightly through her hair, I saw the laugh lines and her gray roots. For nearly being forty three and all the stress she had been through I thought she was so beautiful. If nothing else, I wanted to have this picture in my head.
Finally, I stripped out of my clothes down to my boxers and laid back down next to her. Feeling her skin so close to mine was heaven. My cock was hard, but I had made up my mind, I would not take her unless she was awake and fully alert and knew what was happening. It took me a long time, but finally, I fell asleep.
I awoke a half hour later to with her right leg over my leg, her bush pressing against my thigh. She pressed her body against my arm, cooing softly in my ear. I pushed the strands of hair from her face and kissed her cheek. She moaned sweetly as her arm went across my body and pulled me closer to her. My cock was pushing to get out of my shorts.
I turned by body towards her so my cock pressed against her thigh. Though I was tired, my mind was working to figure out how to wake her and turn the night into a real, live dream. Her leg moved again, hooking over my hip, now my cock pressed just above her pussy. I worried that if she pressed closer, I would just cum.
Her hand brushed at a stray hair in her mouth. I moved the hair aside and kissed her gently on the lips. "Oh." She said her voice wrought with sleep. My tongue lashed out gently against her lips and the corner of her mouth. I saw her face light up in a smile. Her hand went down to my hip as I pressed my groin closer to her.
I kissed her again, this time, she responded with a delayed kiss and a broader smile. Her hand slipped from my hip to my cock. Whether she was asleep or awake, I could not be certain, but her hand went from the outside of my shorts to the inside quickly. She grasped my cock, stroked it and moaned with pleasure.
"You like this?" She said dreamily.
"Yes." I whispered and kissed her neck, trying to turn her to her back.