I was a teenager in The Sixties, a time we were keen to learn about sex. It was an era when it was easy to learn; not as effortless as it is now with the internet, but censorship laws were relaxing, so the knowledge was available. It was the decade of Masters and Johnson, Playboy, the reprinted Kama Sutra and The Joy of Sex was only two years away. Our fathers, by comparison, were largely ignorant of their wife's sexual needs, hence foreplay was rare, and the missionary method was the norm. Annie's lack of experience and sexual satisfaction was commonplace ...
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For the first time in her life, Annie felt old. She hoped it was only a post operational reaction which made her feel that way. Even though she was approaching her eightieth, she'd always felt so young, so vibrant, but now, lying in bed, frail and sore, she wondered if the joie de vivre would ever return.
She looked in the hand mirror and studied her features. Not only do I feel old, but I look it, she thought. She tilted the mirror, undid the top two buttons of her nightdress and studied her bust. She remembered how, even a few months ago, the occasional man would appraise her, in particular her breasts. Maybe they sagged a little, but they didn't know how her bra came to the rescue, pushing them together, emphasising her cleavage. But now, her self esteem was at its lowest. She remembered how she'd caught Chris, her grandson, looking down her blouse from time to time when he was younger. She'd been offended, disgusted that a family member could behave so badly, but now her self esteem was so low, she'd welcome any attention, even his.
She did up the buttons, recalling the many times she'd caught him, the times she'd threatened to tell his parents if he didn't stop. That was so many years ago and she doubted he'd show any interest now. She knew he wouldn't; she was so unattractive, yet any attention would be welcome.
Despite her ambivalence about Chris, she couldn't help but smile knowing he would soon arrive. He'd moved to France six years ago and his business kept him busy, even so his mother told her he'd arranged a flight home just to see her. 'Sweet boy,' she whispered. 'Boy! He's 28 ... or is it 29.' She checked her watch just as she heard the key in the front door.
'Gran! It's Chris.'
As she heard his feet on the stairs, she quickly checked in the mirror how many buttons to undo. She decided on two, enough to tempt his gaze, but not enough to make him suspect her motives. Annie knew it was wrong, but she was so desperate for attention. Just before he appeared in her doorway, the mirror was back on the bedside cabinet.
'Oh Chris, darling, it's wonderful to see you.' Annie had forgotten how handsome and tall he was. He wore a suit that was a perfect fit on his lean body. She always loved men in suits, so professional, so suave.
He came to her bedside, removed his jacket and leaned over her. He kissed her on the cheek and smiled. 'Good to see you, Gran.' He looked around for a non existent chair then back to the bed. 'Can I sit here?'
'Yes, of course.' She patted the bed and he sat.
Maybe it was because she had a loose fitting nightie and it was trapped under his backside that caused the nightdress to pull down a little. Only a tad, but sufficient to expose a little more of her right breast than she intended. She didn't notice, but Chris did.
'How you feeling Gran?'
Apart from the nurse who visited every morning, she hadn't seen anyone for a couple of days, so Annie took pleasure in answering him, telling every detail of the operation and the brief spell in hospital before she was released. While she was chatting, he began a deliberate attempt to pull on the lower part of the material to expose more of her boob. She'd only been talking for two to three minutes before he glanced down and saw the top of her areola was already in view. And, when her nipple slipped from the confines of her nightdress, she was so engrossed in talking she didn't notice his grin when it was exposed.
t was at that stage that Chris decided to dispense with the secrecy and openly gazed at the sweet pinkness of her nipple. It took only a few seconds before she looked down to see what had suddenly taken his interest.
'You're disgusting,' she growled. Her hands moved to cover herself, without success as
Chris restrained her wrists, careful not to harm her. 'First time I've seen you naked Gran, but as beautiful as I've always anticipated.'
She hid her surprise at his choice of 'beautiful' even though it gave her a jolt of pleasure, however it was mixed with revulsion. 'I'd assumed you'd grown up Chris. A man of your age, it's disgusting.'
'Gran, I'll release you, but please keep your hands away. You know you can't stop me.' He pulled the material down until her breast popped out, fully exposed.
Annie watched as her took her breast in his hands. They sagged, but the expanse of flesh needed two hands to comfortably handle it. 'Mmm, it's heavy,' Chris said as his fingers explored her. She was mesmerized. Jack, her long deceased husband, had never shown any interest in her breasts. All he wanted was to push inside her so he could unload himself. By contrast, Chris studied her, lifting her boob, stroking his long fingers over the skin, so gentle, so tender. She wondered why he ignored her nipple, curious as to how it would feel. She used to touch herself and remembered how good it was, but no-one else had ever done it.
Chris began to unbutton her nightdress which brought more protest from her. Her hands tried to stop him, but he brushed them away and continued to undress her. She stopped fighting, let him do what he will, mainly because she had an unexpected thrill as he slowly hastened her full exposure. Maybe she wasn't as unattractive as she thought. Chris was handsome with a pretty wife, so he didn't need to take advantage of her. He could have anyone. When he came to the last button, he pulled open her nightie and uncovered her. He sighed as he gazed at her, so naked, so vulnerable. Inside, she also sighed as he examined her. She was so alive.
He cupped her breasts together and his thumbs caressed the nipples. She groaned and immediately regretted it as Chris looked up into her eyes. He smiled at her giveaway, so she attempted to scowl at him, however her body was in turmoil, excited in a way she never achieved when she played with herself. His thumbs stroked her in a continuous back and forth movement massaging her into a rapturous abandon. At that moment, she was lost. In her mind, he could do what he willed with her breasts.