I was hit by a blast of hot air as I stepped from the plane. The tarmac seemed to be almost audibly baking under the heat of the sun. It was the first time I had set foot in my home state for over a year, but it seemed even longer than that. I had been forced to relocate interstate almost three years ago in order to attend one of the country's most prestigious art schools and while I had enjoyed my time there, I had missed my quiet hometown. What's more, I had missed seeing my mother Elaine who, after my parent's divorce six years ago, still lived in the home I grew up in.
I was so caught up in thoughts of long ago as I made my way through the airport, that for a second I almost didn't recognise her, even though she jumped up and down and called my name. Realisation struck me and I gave a huge smile as I wheeled my luggage towards her as she fanned her face with one hand, struggling to fight back tears. "Mom!" I dropped my things and bent down to lift her onto her toes in a big hug. "Oh David, sweetie I missed you! I'm so glad you're home!" She expressed her joy by wetting my cheek with kisses and I laughed, "I'm glad to be home Mom."
We both took a step back and Mom held me at arms length as she looked me over and beamed. "Honey, you look so good! Did you get taller?"
"Ha, no I don't think so, maybe you've just shrunk!" Mom laughed and I watched her with a smile. She hadn't really shrunk, but there was something different about her. She had let her hair grow long for starters. Growing up it had always been cropped relatively short, just above her shoulders, now it fell loosely over them, resting just above her breasts. I furrowed my brow, "hey, you look different Mom, have you lost weight?"
Mom put her hands on her hips and stuck out her chest, turning from side to side as she smiled proudly. "Never thought you'd see your Mom looking so good, huh? I've lost about 25 pounds since you last saw me!" She did look good, in fact, for a 42 year old she looked pretty amazing. I couldn't help but notice that Mom had also given her wardrobe an overhaul; her older, more conservative look had been ditched for one that better complimented her new body. She stood before me in a simple white T-shirt, the sleeves of which finished high on her arms, the material fitted snugly to her upper body. It was a much lower cut that what I was used to seeing on her and I tried my best not to stare at the ample cleavage which was on display. The top was tight and the material thin enough so that I could see the outline of her bra beneath which cupped and lifted her breasts. I was struck by how large they appeared against her slimmer frame, each breast was more than a good handful, the only measurement I cared to use.
Mom continued to show herself off, turning her back to me so that I could admire her from behind. I glanced down at her ass briefly, she was wearing a pair of plain blue jeans which clung tightly to her buttocks. Her bottom was perfect, it looked like it could have belonged to one of the twenty-something girls from school, but was perhaps slightly fuller and rounder. Her legs were slim and equally as toned. Once again, I fought the urge to stare and made a mental note to get a better look later. "You look amazing Mom! I'm so proud of you!" Mom smiled and gave me another hug, then ran a hand through my hair.
"Come on honey, let's get you home."
The drive home was very quiet, Mom must have figured that I was just tired, but in truth I was too lost in my own thoughts to make conversation. Being back home and seeing Mom had brought rushing back a lot of memories from when I was younger, feelings I thought I had left behind me.
Whether or not it was considered a common and natural aspect of a boy's development I wasn't sure, but for much of my early teens, when I was going through the first phases of puberty, I had been sexually attracted to my mother. I was sure that these feelings had started to emerge the day we had gone to the beach as a family. I could still remember watching Mom as she had removed her shirt and untied her floral sarong, revealing a blue one-piece swimsuit. Although it had been a modest design, I could recall how it had appeared to be little more than a second skin, putting all of her womanly form on display. Although she had been a little heavier back then, her extra weight had only accentuated her curves. It had been quite warm and sunny, but there had been a chilly breeze coming in from the sea and for much of the day the twin points of her erect nipples had been clearly visible as they pushed out at the thin material from beneath. I had spent almost the entire afternoon trying to suppress a raging hard-on and could remember how awkward I had felt when Mom had commented that I was acting strangely. Whenever I had looked at her, I had seen her as sexy woman first and as my mother second, they were feelings that were as confusing as they were arousing, and once the seed had been planted in my mind, over the following days, week, months, years, I couldn't seem to prevent it from growing.
It had not been until my later teens that I had really shown any real interest in girls my own age, although even then I was too shy to approach any of them. I was a good looking guy, or so people told me; a little more than 6 foot with a slim muscular build. A number of girls had shown their interest in the past, but none of them seemed to be the one I was looking for. Maybe I was too fussy, regardless, I had eventually managed to accept that my mother would never be a source of sexual release for me, forcing myself to exclude her from my masturbatory fantasies. Being away from home for most of the last three years had certainly helped.
We pulled into the driveway and Mom helped me to carry my bags inside and up into my old room. Everything was just the way I remembered it, the house even smelled the same. By the time I had finished unpacking it was time for dinner, Mom had ordered pizza and to my surprise suggested that we put on a movie and eat it on the sofa. I laughed in disbelief, "what? Are you serious? I thought eating on the sofa was absolutely forbidden! When I was little you used to carry on like it was paramount to murder!