I guess if I just told you my story, you would ask: why? Why did I go to such lengths to seduce my own father? And to be honest, I don't have a great answer to that question. Was it because my mother was really never in the picture? Because my dad is really handsome? Because none of the men my age appealed to me? The workings of the heart are a mystery.
I suppose every girl becomes infatuated with her father at some point, and then grows out of it. I just...didn't grow out of it. The beginnings of my lust are hazy, and the early years a bit tedious (he didn't know, and I never did anything except touch myself), so I'll just skip to when things finally came to a head. I was mid-way through my second year of college, still a virgin, and probably the horniest 19-year old on the planet. To save money, I was going to a college nearby and staying at home. So, yes, the object of my affection was right down the hall every night. And every night, I would rub my clit raw fantasizing about him. The temptation was unbearable! I was determined I would make him mine before I turned 20, but he seemed completely unattracted to me.
Why didn't my daddy want me? I had received plenty of attention from other men. Here's a poem a boy wrote me my first year in college. The title is "Emily the Beautiful":
"Hair of ebony
Skin of ivory
Eyes of sparkling green
Waist so slim
Bust so big
Most beautiful I've ever seen
Tall and graceful
Oh-so-sweet
Voice beyond compare
Can I ask you
Dare I ask you
Could we be a pair?"
Not exactly Neruda. I let him down gently (I told him I had feelings for someone else, but I didn't mention that the "someone else" happened to be my father). Lots of guys found my body sexy or desirable, but why didn't my daddy see those things in me?
It's not like I never tried to seduce daddy. You'd think a schoolgirl outfit, complete with a skirt that barely reached mid-thigh, would have any man's eyes glued to your body. But my father hardly took his gaze away from my face. It's like he still saw me as his little girl and not a harlot desperate for his cock! I made sure to bend over a lot, until I was *certain* he'd seen my panties, but he never said a word. Not even a reproach to dress more modestly. I'd get a thrill out of being called naughty by him, but I didn't even get that.
I upped the ante and chose even sluttier outfits. Crop tops without a bra, the shape of my nipples clearly visible: barely a glance at my chest. Low-rise jeans to show off my thong: no response. I even took to walking around the house in a sheer panties and bra, but he didn't even mention it. You'd think he could say "I can see your pubic hair" or "Your nipples are very pink". But the way he acted and talked to me, you'd think I was wearing a nun's habit. Frustrating!
Winter was turning to spring, but my father seemed as frigid as the polar icecaps. I had to figure out what made him tick, sexually. What I did next was kind of devious, but I'm not ashamed of it. Actually, I'm not ashamed of anything I did. Some people might frown on incest, but I think everything we did was beautiful.
The devious part: I decided to snoop on daddy's porn habits. Planning it turned out to be easy. Every night before bed, daddy would spend about an hour or so on his computer. Then he'd throw his clothes in the laundry before getting into pajamas and going to bed. That seemed like the most likely time to surf for some porn. All I had to do was wait for him to go to bed, and then peek at his browsing history.
The plan went like clockwork. Just to make sure, I checked the laundry room. I was pleasantly surprised by what I found. A pair of briefs, still warm from his body heat. And wet with semen, too. Oh, daddy! I scooped some up and rubbed it on my sex. The rest I sucked from the fabric as I masturbated furiously, lying in a bed of dirty laundry. Depraved, I know, but you have no idea how much I longed for my daddy's cum to be put inside me fresh from the source.
After a few orgasms, I came to my senses and returned to the task at hand. I now knew for sure that he had been looking at some porn. I just had to find out what kind. I tiptoed into his office and opened up his laptop. It needed a password. Shit! Fortunately, I managed to guess it before running out of attempts. The password turned out to be "iLoveEmily". What a sweetheart.
Now was the moment of truth. My worst fear: he used incognito mode. My greatest hope: he watched plenty of incest porn. The reality: somewhere in between.
The browsing history started fairly innocuously. Some pictures and videos of wet t-shirt contests. OK, men like boobs, that doesn't tell me much I don't know. Then, mud wrestling. Also pretty common. Then I saw a video of a woman getting hit with pies and fucked by a pair of clowns. Wow, did daddy have a clown fetish? I wasn't sure I could fulfill that. But then I saw more videos. Most were just of women being pied, with no clowns visible. Sometimes the women sat on cakes or had chocolate sauce poured on them. Water, mud...food? What could it all mean?
There were more websites in his history, some with stories instead of videos, but I didn't have time to read them. It was getting late. I made a mental note of some of the websites and decided to investigate more on my own. I closed the laptop and went to my room.
***
The following day was a haze of sordid research. Finally, I came to a conclusion: my father had a wet and messy fetish. I had never heard of that before--I had to do a lot of googling keywords before I finally found a wikipedia article that brought everything together. Getting turned on by mess seemed bizarre, but I had to admit that I did find some of the videos and stories arousing. Maybe the fetish was hereditary? It didn't matter. If getting wet and messy was the key to my daddy's heart (and cock), then I would get wet and messy.
My first chance came with spring break. Most of my classmates were going on vacation to beaches or resorts. I was spending the week at home with daddy. When he asked if I wanted to do anything, I suggested swimming at a lake a few hours' drive away. Of course, I "forgot" my swimsuit, and the location was too remote to buy one at the store, so I went swimming in just my white t-shirt (no bra) and cut-offs. Well, somehow being wet made all the difference. All of a sudden my wholesome daddy was ogling my chest every chance he got. And judging by the front of his swimming trunks, he liked what he saw. (I certainly liked what I saw--daddy's cock looked absolutely huge!)
"What do you see, daddy?" I said to him. "What are you looking at?"
"Just making sure you aren't getting sunburned," he replied, trying not to blush.
"Good idea. Better put on more sunscreen. How about you do me, and then I do you?"
I saw the expression on his face. It must have been agony for him to rub my body down. I don't know how he resisted the temptation to rip my clothes off and fuck me right there on the dock. Then again, I don't how I resisted doing the same to him when it was my turn. I guess we both knew the other people there wouldn't be pleased. But we still managed to grope each other quite a bit as we applied the sunscreen. Was it necessary for me to rub sunscreen all the way up his thighs, even under his bathing suit? About as necessary as it was for him to go under my top and rub sunscreen on my nipples. Which he did, and all I had to do was to get totally wet in my clothes!
I was sure we would consummate our lust soon, but just to seal the deal, I said that my cutoffs were weighing me down too much and took them off. Now I was just wearing a t-shirt and panties, both white cotton, soaking wet and completely transparent. Anyone at the lake that day got quite a show. The way my t-shirt clung to my body, I was as good as topless. I could feel that my panties were skintight and accentuating every curve of my ass. And looking down, I could see my dark pubic hair through the thin fabric. I was giving everyone at the lake an eyeful, but it was all for my daddy.
After swimming for a bit, we went back to the car. I hopped into the backseat. My father joined me. This was it, I thought. He'll pop my cherry in this car. We kissed, on the lips. My first kiss. My pussy was even wetter than my clothes.
There was a knock on the window. The mood was broken. We looked up, and there was someone holding my cutoffs. "Your, uh, girlfriend left these at the dock," he said.
"Oh, thanks," murmured my father. He handed me the cutoffs, and I put them on. "Can you believe he thought you were my girlfriend?" he said sheepishly. Then he got in the front seat and drove us home. By the time we got there, my clothes were completely dry. Maybe it was that, or maybe my father had had enough time to realize that what he was doing with his daughter was inappropriate, but my father's lust seemed to have completely vanished. We went inside, changed separately, and acted like nothing had happened. I had been cockblocked. But I was determined to try again.
***
My next chance came when I saw that there was a local obstacle race the next month. One of those races where you have to go through a lot of mud. I suggested it might be fun to run it as a father-daughter team, and my daddy agreed.
The race went well, and we finished near the front of the pack. We both keep in good shape. Daddy only got a little bit muddy, but I made sure I fell into every mud trap until I was plastered from head to toe. After we crossed the finish line, I suggested we walk on a forest path to "cool down", although I was secretly hoping things would get hot and heavy.
As soon as we were out of sight of the crowd, I stopped walking. "My clothes are so filthy. I think I even have mud in my panties."
"Let's take a look," said daddy, and he pulled down my shorts. God, it felt good to be undressed by my father! With my shorts around my knees, my panties were visible, saturated with mud. "You're a dirty girl. You ought to be spanked for getting your clothes so muddy."
My father had a look in his eyes I had never seen before (well, maybe at the lake). It was like he was hypnotized with lust by my messy state. I wasn't his little angel anymore. I was a filthy slut who needed to be disciplined and fucked.