Another 4 AM and I have to get up to do my newspaper route. Nobody should have to get out of bed at this hour. I get dressed and head downstairs to see if the papers have gotten here on time. I turn on the light at the bottom of the stairs and hope I'm not going to wake my 22 year old son who is home on leave. He is sound asleep on his back on the sofa and I go to the door and bring in the papers to bag.
As I'm bagging the papers, I glance at my sleeping son from the side. He's wearing a tee shirt and a short pair of military shorts. He's snoring lightly and he has one leg bent, the other straight. He looks so peaceful sleeping, just like when he was a little boy, but he's an adult now. I turn my focus on my papers again so I can get done delivering and crawl back into bed. As I turn the light out to leave the house, I glance once more at my son from a feet first view. I quickly turn the light out and leave. As I'm getting into the car the image of my son from that last glance is clearly in my head. Why was he sleeping in such short shorts?
The whole time I'm delivering the papers my mind flashes back to my son in those shorts. Now mind you, I never thought of any of my sons in a sexual way, but I hadn't been with a man in over 7 months and the way those shorts gapped slightly at his one leg was getting to me. I was at my mid cycle and horny as hell as usual. I tried to shake the image out of my head, I was missing houses because I was so distracted. Finally finished, I drive home, I can't wait to get back to sleep.
I entered the house, and without turning on the light I put my newspaper bag away and head to the stairs. Now, I do leave a nightlight on under the table at the stairs. I can't help but glance toward my son one more time in the dim light. He didn't move the entire time I was gone and that gap between his shorts and his leg was taunting me. I don't know what was possesing me, but I had to get a closer look. I went to the sofa and stared at my sons' crotch and that gap. I couldn't see anything but I was curious as hell.