Hi! I am Rahul and I am a part of a family which was once very happy. My dad, Raju, had a decent job and my mom, Savitha, was a good looking housewife. My dad had married her when she was just about 18. It was a love marriage which was opposed by both their families. As a result they started living separately in the city of Mumbai, where my dad worked.
Within a year of marriage I was born. My dad earned enough to take good care of us and in spite of the usual financial crunches we could afford some luxuries in life. Life was turning out quite well for us until one incident shattered our lives forever. I lost my dad and the sole earning member in our family, in an accident when I was only 14.
My mom is pretty strong mentally which was exactly the reason why we managed to get over my dad's demise and move on in life. We managed to find a house on rent and we lived on my dad's savings for about a year or so. It wasn't long before we exhausted his savings and my mom had to turn to her family for financial help, which was turned down for marrying against their wishes. My mom then sought help from my dad's family which too was turned down for the same reason.
My mom was not educated enough to get a good job but she managed to keep sending me to school with some help from her friends and by doing some part time jobs. However she couldn't hold on to any of those jobs and everything was back to square one. But somehow we managed to keep pushing our lives and she somehow managed to send me to college.
At eighteen, I was like just another teenager trying to enjoy life as much as possible. I had a good bunch of friends with whom I would often hangout. We were very close friends and would often discuss our personal lives. Our main topic would always be about girls and it was these guys who introduced me to the world of porn. And like most guys I too got hooked onto the videos of porn stars and celebrities. Even though my mom couldn't afford a PC I would often go to one of friends house to watch. And on retuning my first visit would always be to the toilet for some relief. I would often imagine it was me who was fucking those girls in the videos, with huge tits, in various positions.
Initially I would masturbate every two or three days and then the frequency increased to masturbating every day. I was getting addicted to it and then came a stage when I would imagine fucking every possible woman I know off(except for my mom).
At this age I could understand mom's difficulties in bringing me up. She would leave early in the morning in search of a job. By gods grace she got in contact with a friend of hers called Lata who had a vacant home nearby. She helped mom and me move into that house for a nominal rent and thus mom could save a little money. Now we had a roof to shelter ourselves from the weather but no earnings. I could see mom trying her level best but nothing seemed to work. Mom would often cry all night long and say,"Oh Rahul! If it hadn't been for you, I would have committed suicide long ago." I would give her a big hug and that would help calm her. One such hug ignited the fire of incest in me. She was wearing a sari of a thin material which was sticking to her body, with it a blouse which too was made of a similar material and it accentuated her bra straps. It started of as an innocent hug and as I was comforting her, I ran my hands over her back and could feel her bra straps. I felt my cock stir in my shorts and as I hugged her I could feel her breasts crush against my chest. Out of fear I somehow managed to keep my erect dick from coming in contact with her thighs. I had slept with her since I was a kid, touched her but that hug felt different.
I have always liked mature woman and that night I took notice of my mom as a woman. I noticed for the first time that in spite of the difficulties we had undergone, she had somehow managed to keep herself fit. True she didn't have the gigantic boobs of porn stars but those jugs were large enough to excite me. True she didn't have the face of a film star but she was beautiful enough. True she didn't have the curves of a model but she was sexy enough. Maybe it was shear luck that I was born to her but I thanked god that night for giving me a mom like her.
And the next day I masturbated the very first time having wild thoughts about my mom. From that day I never felt the need to see porn to feed my imagination. She was all that I thought about. She was all that I cared for. I would always tell her,"Mom I don't want to study. I can't see you going through hell just for me. I will find some job so that we could live happily." She would hit back at me saying,"The only job that you have to do now is to study well. Don't worry about money. Leave that to me." I had never won an argument with her so it was best to shut up.