Part Two
(Miriam)
It was to be a cloudy, rainy day outside, so Miriam spent the day cleaning the house and pondering this unpleasant situation she had recently gotten herself into. After what she had done just the night before, even though she had awoken that morning feeling significant relief from her release, she was still baffled about her own scruples and morals. She was very, very confused.
What she did just wasn't acceptable, and she very well knew it. She was still quite taken aback by how innocently it had all started and how quickly it had all gotten way out of hand for her.
She spent the first part of the day realizing that she was well pleased and very grateful for Nate stepping in, getting her out of the house, and helping her overcome her depression. But at the same time, she also knew what it had turned into for him was wrong on many different levels. She didn't even have to think about it but for just a second or two to understand that the way Nate was currently using the situation was very, very wrong.
But mostly, she knew that what she had done herself just last night was also most definitely very, very bad indeed and that it was not at all the way that a proper Christian mother should be conducting herself. No, not at all!
Nonetheless, as hard as she tried, over and over again, to convict herself to absolute damnation, she could not overlook the fact that she had never before felt such sexual gratification as she had the very night back, as she drifted off to sleep after experiencing three mind shattering orgasms that left her frail and trembling with exhaustion.
She spent the latter part of the day convincing herself that it was all Nates fathers' fault for suppressing her sexually throughout their marriage. His father, in all those years of marriage together, had never even tried not once to give her an orgasm.
He felt that a woman's satisfaction in the bedroom was not necessarily a part of God's plan and that she was only sharing his bed so that she could give him a child.
One night, just shortly after their wedding, Nate's father rolled over and quickly went to sleep after having his way with her; he awoke later in the middle of the night and caught Miriam in the bathroom, masturbating wildly to a dirty magazine she had secretly purchased.
Nate's father burned the magazine right then and there in the bathtub and made her watch it while it burned as she sobbed and tried to hide her face from him in complete shame. Nate's father embarrassed, shamed, and humiliated her so badly that night that she never ever dared touch herself in that manner again, not until just the last night, that is.
It all happened way back, and Miriam had not even realized that over the years, every single minute since that night so long ago now, her sexual frustrations had only been building up inside her, just waiting to explode someday.
Shortly after Nate was born, his father announced to her that her job was done for the moment and that they would only be having sex again once he was ready for her to provide him with another child. He also told her she was welcome to move into the little spare bedroom whenever she was ready.