The next morning I was still stunned by what had transgressed between my mother and me. I logged back onto my Instant Messenger but she was not online and no messages were left. It wasn't until later in the day when I logged onto my Skype account that I saw my parents Skype account active. I requested a video link and there was my Dad, all smiles asking me what was going on. I felt guilty for what I had done but knew that given half the chance I would do so again. After some questions about my course he asked if I wanted to speak to Elizabeth.
"Sure." I heard my Dad calling out her name. She must have been near by because within seconds I could see her approaching the cam. I had to remind myself that she had no idea it was me the previous night but that didn't stop my nerves making my mouth dry.
"Hello," she said smiling into the webcam, instantly making me hard. "I hope you are keeping well?" Every time I looked at her I just had flashbacks to the night before. I wanted her to take her top off and look at those magnificent breasts again.
"I'm good," I managed to stammer back. Concern crossed her face as she stared towards the screen. Panic started to set in as I wondered if she recognised something from the previous night, something that would give the game away and blow my alias.
"You don't look well, are you sure you are okay?" I felt relief that I was not found out but the genuine concern caused me to reflect on what I did. I took advantage of the situation, I was using my Dad's wife for my own gratification, I was basically a pervert who, given the right opportunity would sleep with his mom at any opportunity.
"I'm okay," I managed but my voice trembled with the lie. I felt anything but ok, in fact I was feeling nauseas about the whole situation. "I just was out till late last night."
"You been going clubbing again?" she said with mock scorn. "You are supposed to be there for studying, not constant partying." As she laughed her face lit up, any guilt she felt she had hidden well. "What time did you get in?"
"Not too long ago to be honest," I lied. The further from the truth I kept it the least suspicious she was going to be. "I met a girl and stopped at her place." Another look of concern crossed her face.
"I hope you are being careful?" I forced out a laugh I didn't feel.
"Always."
"So are you seeing her again?" This time her smile returned.
"I doubt it; it was just one of those things." She shook her head sadly but said nothing. "Look I have loads to do but I will be in touch again soon."
"Okay, speak soon, we both miss you." With that I cut the link suddenly very aware of what a mess I could have made out of the whole situation. Remorse filled my very fibre but I knew I still wanted her.
Then about 3 days later, whilst bored of the assignment I was working on I decided to see if anyone was online on my IM. My heart skipped a beat as I saw her name appear. My finger hovered over the keyboard as I tried to decide whether to send her a message or not. As I considered my next move a message appeared from her.
•SORRY ABOUT THE OTHER NIGHT, I HOPE YOU DONT THINK I TOO BADLY OF ME
I knew straight away that the other night was completely out of character for her. I guess she too had felt guilty, even though she didn't know who I was, and she needed some kind of closure.
•NO NEED TO APOLOGISE I LOVED IT. JUST GLAD MY WIFE DIDNT FIND OUT.
•IM SORRY TO PUT YOU IN THAT SITUATION.
The irony of it all was it was everything I wanted. I wanted to tell her to turn on her cam and let me watch her undress. Yet I knew she was at home, probably with Dad away again, beating herself up over me.
•YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH ENJOYED THE OTHER NIGHT. I MEANT IT WHEN I TOLD YOU HOW SEXY YOU ARE AND YOU ARE PROBABLY ONE OF THE MOST BEAUTIFUL WOMEN I HAVE EVER MET. IN OTHER CIRCUMSTANCE I WOULD LOVE TO DATE YOU.
•REALLY?
•OF COURSE, ANY SANE MAN WOULD
•YOU ARE SWEET
•JUST THE TRUTH.
•I DONT EVEN KNOW YOUR NAME
•ITS PAUL
•HI PAUL, IM LIZ BY THE WAY.
•SO ARE YOU ALONE?
•YEP HUSBAND IS WORKING AGAIN
•HE IS MAD TO LEAVE YOU
•ITS JUST HARD WHEN HE IS AWAY SO OFTEN, I GET LONELY.
With that she started telling me things about her marriage and her life that I had no idea about. I knew she needed someone to talk to, she needed a friend.
I must have chatted to her for over an hour about numerous issues. Throughout I thought about asking her to turn on her cam because even though she was lonely and just needed a friend I was still turned on. Somehow I managed to restrain myself.
•SORRY I HAVE PROBABLY BORED YOU STUPID
•NO ITS FINE, I JUST HOPE WE CAN CHAT AGAIN. YOU ARE LOVELY
•YOU TOO AND I WOULD LOVE TO CHAT AGAIN IN THE FUTURE IF I DONT DRIVE YOU INSANE WITH MY PROBLEMS LOL.
•I LOOK FORWARD TO IT. CHAT SOON SEXY
.BYE X
Over the next few weeks we chatted frequently and through my alias I was getting to know my mother better than I ever ordinarily would have done. We had become close and whilst what I told her was predominately lies I knew what she was telling me was the truth. I cringed when she told me how constantly hurt she was by the son who wanted nothing to do with her but since he moved out they had finally begun moving forward after a decade of hostility. I was shocked by how lonely she was especially with my father working away more and more. When I looked at things now I realised how few friends she really had. She never went out on girls nights out, or around to neighbours for a coffee morning. She admitted she would like her own child but could never see it happening. The more she told me the more I wanted to comfort her and tell her I was there for her.
My next visit home should have been the Easter holidays but I could only get a few days off due to my part-time job and the amount of coursework I had. I had arrived home on a Thursday afternoon and I was due back on to University on the Sunday. I had already spoken to my Dad who told me he would be away till Friday. I let myself into the house realising Elizabeth must have been at work. With no one at home I went upstairs to log onto their computer and started browsing some of Liz's files. I checked the file marked 'x' but there was no new material although after viewing those pictures on numerous occasions they still got me hard. I then clicked a file marked videos and there was 1 file in there which I clicked on.
The video was obviously filmed using the webcam since it started with just how the room looked now, empty. I could here Dad telling her to come in. I could here her laughing and giggling saying she wasn't sure. Dad who was also laughing, now presumably holding the webcam judging by how jittery it had become, told her not to be so silly. Then a sight that made me instantly erect.