"I need to go."
"Don't."
"I have to." She was feeling lightheaded and weak.
"Stay."
"No."
"Please."
John reached out and touched her right shoulder.
Anna turned her head toward his hand.
"No, I should go," she said quietly.
John reached out with his other hand and held her left arm.
"No," she said again, but she didn't move.
Then John leaned toward her. She raised her head. John kissed her lips. Anna felt herself returning the kiss. They held the kiss, like a long and soft sigh. Anna placed her delicate hands below John's shoulder blades. They broke their tender, tentative embrace.
"No. We can't," Anna said.
Anna took a long bath that evening. She thought about that moment as if it were a dream. She was the same age as her sister's husband and only a couple of years older than her sister. The sisters were almost identical. Both were lean and small breasted. If anything, Anna was slightly skinnier and darker than her sister, maybe an inch or two taller. Her eyebrows were thicker, her hair darker. She tended to dress sexier; her pants were generally tighter. She wore loose dresses, cut to flow down her abdomen and over her buttocks and loins, in colors more daring than anything her sister would choose. They had the same color of eyes, the same hands. Neither of them had much body hair.
With the water running, she began to shave the fine hair on her legs. Impulsively, she began to shave away all of the hair on her pubic mound and around her pubic lips. It made her feel so smooth. She washed herself and rinsed. When she was done, she began to fill up the bath again with water, salts and oils. She lay in the bath, surrounded by bubbles and candles. She felt her newly smooth skin. She traced her lips with her finger. She touched her hooded bud, slipping her finger inside the folds below, and even down to her most private orifice, which she seldom touched, let alone let anyone else touch, but now felt tingle. She thought of John. She thought of what might have been. Languidly she continued to finger herself in the bathtub, feeling the viscous coating, which she used to torment her achingly raw nub. She came once, hard, and then continued to finger herself to a second, softer climax.
They were finishing their second bottle of wine. Martha got up from the table to clear some dishes and went inside her home, leaving her husband and her sister. Her sister had come over in the afternoon. She was desperate, she said, to get a break from her own husband and kids.
Martha's husband had grilled outside, and the three of them had enjoyed each other's company during their dinner. Now evening was coming on and the temperature began to cool.
Martha's sister lay back in her chair, a glass in her hand. She was relaxed. She felt satiated by the food she had eaten. Each bite had been delectable. She liked the way her body felt from the heady warmth of the red wine she was drinking, her arms lying weightlessly by her sides. She felt unburdened at the moment, and she knew it was because her sister and her brother-in-law had gone out of their way to make her feel special. She knew her sister would always treat her this well. They were close, afterall. But now she saw her brother-in-law in a new light. There was something more appealing about him. She thanked her brother-in-law for the meal and the wine and this moment of contentment.
"Thank you, John," was all she said.
Martha's sister did not approve of him, John thought. Early in their history, there had even been a shouting match between them that left Martha in tears. Ever since then, the two in-laws had remained civil but there was nothing particularly warm between them. Tonight, he felt something new, and he wondered if she felt it, too.
The way she said thank you stirred a longing in him he had never experienced. He saw her sitting there. As always, he appreciated her sense of style, the delicate shoes she had kicked off her feet, her choice of clothes, stylish and complementary to her lithe body. She had the same pretty face as his wife, with its strong jaw and nose and dark brown eyes. Her long hair flowed in waves down the back of her chair. Her dress lay flat against her chest and across her legs. Her arms hung over the sides of the armrests. He saw how flat her tummy was but with the tiniest of a little roll. Her legs stretched out in front of her as she slumped further into her chair. Her legs were slightly apart, and he could not help glancing at the tiny fold that fell between her legs.
"You're welcome, Anna," John said with compassion.
Anna thought her sister's husband was too self-assured. He was a bit too handsome, and he was probably a philanderer. He had a maverick air about him that she thought was dangerous when her sister began to date him. Anna had just gotten married at that time. Her husband had a successful career and they could afford everything she could ever want. She didn't have to work anymore. But as the years went by, she noticed funny quirks about her own husband. His sense of humor was course. He didn't appreciate her sense of style the way she knew her brother-in-law did. Her brother-in-law sometimes remarked about a new dress, while her husband didn't even seem to notice. Her husband had always been a gentle, attentive, although unextraordinary, lover, and she wondered sometimes if there could be more passion in her life. She missed her independence in the work world. She missed her single years, when she partied with the girls and met guys she occasionally went to bed with. She felt smothered by her daily life, filled from morning to night with her husband and her precious but admittedly bratty kids. Today was especially bad, and she had fought with her husband earlier about something he had said. God, she needed to get away tonight.
John fought off a sudden urge to go over to Anna, stand between her legs, bend down, and kiss her. He thought it strange that he would have such a desire and wondered where it came from. Was there some spark? His experience told him that such feelings were often the result of some undeniable chemistry present in the air, but his better judgment prevailed. He was married, and he was married to Anna's sister. It was probably just the wine.