FATHERLY LOVE
CHAPTER 1 (LUKE) - 44 IS SUCH A BIG NUMBER
You turn 44, and life hits you like a motherfucker.
Getting caught fucking your intern is bad.
Tremendously bad
. Blonde Laura tempted me for weeks, and a man can only hold on for so long. As I sat down in the HR meeting, I thought about how she stopped bringing panties by week four while accusing me of forcing myself into her. Next week I went commando, knowing how nice my bulge would look, and by Friday, we were fucking.
My office is a nice enough space, in the corner of the L-shaped side of the building, big window to the grim outside of the financial district. Grey paintings were hanging on the wall matching the gray of the carpet. A large wooden desk and a plant, dying an agonizing death in a corner. The only color was Blonde Laura's red lips around my cock. My boss entered when I was unloading my beast inside her, spread over my wooden table.
After two weeks of fucking. We should have gotten a room by then.
Now, I have Blonde Laura at my doorstep, accusing me of being pregnant.
Getting caught fucking your intern is not as bad as your wife discovering you impregnated someone other than her.
Without a moment's notice, her fury descends on me, and I see myself on the other side of the door: Blonde Laura with a promise of revenge, and my wife, Blonde Kelly, swearing she'll turn my life into hell.
You can never keep it in your pants,
she screams.
The travel to the nearest hotel is short. I barely have anything with me, but it doesn't matter, tomorrow Kelly will come down to her senses, and we'll talk about this. Just like we did when it was Rita, Deborah, and Philomena. I show my card to the receptionist, who mentions it's declined. We try a few more times, and then I check my bank account with my phone, and there's nothing there.
Nothing.
My shared accounts with Kelly are at zeros. I try to call but can't get through to her. My wallet has little more than five dollars, and I smile nervously to the receptionist, eating me out with large brown eyes, and leave. Faced with the possibility of spending my first night on the streets, I wonder what options I have.
Simon's number comes up on the screen, and my finger hovers over it as I close my eyes. We haven't talked in some good three years, despite our closeness as we grew up, being in the military together. In the atrium of the hotel, blinding lights blaring me, I try a few other people, work colleagues, and a guy I thought was closer to me than he is actually. None picked up the phone, and I'm left on read.
Swallowing my pride, I call Simon, and part of me wishes he doesn't pick up the phone. The way we parted was dramatic, to say the least - I fucked up hard. But on the third ring, he answers. My lips say his name, whispering, uncertain of how to say it, but he knows me well enough and encourages me to speak. He goes silent when I ask if I can stay one night in his flat.
"I don't have an empty room; you might need to sleep on the couch."
My answer is an immediate yes, even though my height would translate into an impossible night for me. Simon continued, "It's either that or the bunk bed. Only Jimmy lives here, Sam is abroad, but I don't know how Jimmy feels with you sleeping in the same room."
"Simon, I'll take the couch. I need this until I sort my life."
"And you'll sort your life in one night? That's fine with me."
And I ride my bike towards his flat, hoping that tomorrow my wife could listen to me. If not, a lawyer would get things right quickly. It's nine pm already and getting cold. The lift takes me to the twelfth floor, and a kind enough Simon opens the door for me.
He's different
.
Still the same 6ft2 man, but now broader and with a beard. He doesn't smile but promptly shakes my hand, avoiding the contact of a hug. He's wearing comfortable sweatpants with a t-shirt that covers his arms up to his elbows, and I miss him all of a sudden. Simon was the only man I have ever been with, a regret I hold forever because I failed to go after him. I wonder if he ever feels the same.
He welcomes me to his home, mentioning that Jimmy's still out with some friends, and invites me to sit down in the living room while he gets some drinks. There's a giant TV screen in front of the couch and only pictures of him and Jimmy around. A big round table takes up one of the sides of the living room, and the walls are covered with pearl white paint. Simon sits next to me, and we make a toast.
"Tough night?" he asks, and I nod in agreement. I briefly explain the events that brought me here as he drinks his glass in one gulp.
"Serious? You got her pregnant?"
"That's what she says," I add.
"Did you use a condom?" He puts the glass down as I answer his question negatively, thinking how good it was to unload everything inside her.
Blonde Laura.
"And to get this right, now Kelly got all the money from your account, and you have nothing?"
"Sort off, yes."
"No job?"
"No job. I fuck up."
"You sure did. You're not twenty anymore, Luke. You should know better than fuck your interns."
I go silent as he scolds me down, as I know he has a point. I remember being in his arms, and I can't stop thinking if he will ever allow me to be with him again.
"It's only this night." He lets me hold his hand, and my heart beats faster. I know he remembers us together.
"Luke, I know what you're thinking, and it can't happen again."
"Don't you want to repeat what we had?"
"I'm not a cheater Luke." But I am; that's what he didn't say. "I'm seeing someone at the moment."
"I didn't know. Is it serious?"
"I'm 44, Luke. But, of course, it's serious. I'm not getting any younger, but still, need as much pussy as I can get."
We stare at each other for less than a second until we start laughing. "That's only fair." My hand is still in his, and I know he's just like me, a dirty nasty old army guy. But unlike me, Simon always had the self-control to keep his cock in his pants and had a wonderful marriage with Debra until she decided to put a pair of horns up on his head and leave him with a co-worker. After that, it was only him, raising two kids on his own, Jimmy and Sam, the latter who is now abroad, all grown up. It still makes me proud to this day.
"I didn't get to ask Jimmy if he was cool with sharing the room. But I set up your bed there, and it should be okay."