In my bedroom, the unplugged laptop was playing a bunch of slow songs loud enough to be softly heard from the living room, where Eric and I were doing a slow dance. Leaning against him, I felt protected, cherished, loved, honored. It was a great contrast to the storm raging around the complex, the lightning occasionally striking close enough to our apartment that one or both of us would jump as the thunderous sounds shook the floor beneath us. Yet I knew that, in my big brother's care, no harm would come to me.
Then the unexpected happened, and from having grown up in an area where this was a very real threat for much of the year, we both knew exactly what it meant:
The city's rarely-used tornado sirens sounded, just barely audible over the intense thunder enveloping the city.
We wasted no time. Hand-in-hand, we hurried to Eric's bedroom closet and closed the door. Like mine, his closet was the walk-in type with enough room for both of us to huddle comfortably on the floor against the built-in shelving at the back of the closet. We huddled in the darkness, my heartbeat nearly as loud as the thunder shaking the building. My face was buried in his neck as he held me tightly, each of us simply waiting, hoping that the tornado would not reach us.
"Shit!" I heard him say, and I lifted my head to discover that we could no longer see any light through the tiny space at the base of the closet door.
This is it
, I thought,
but if I must die, at least I'll die in my big brother's arms
. Somehow, that brought me comfort despite my fear, although I was still concerned that, in death, rescuers would find me topless with my big brother.