'Clinical Report 035: Patient #15: Lysergic Acid Diethylamide (LSD) Isologue Trial [06.12.1971]
"Yes, ma'am... I mean doctor. This is my fourth week of taking the pills. Once in the morning and once at night."
"Uh, I feel great. In fact... never felt better. Livelier, more energetic... a lot more...ummmm, excitable."
"Well, it's like I've got this shining inside me. Warm and really pleasant. It starts here... [Subject #11 points to groin]... Especially after I take the pills. It feels real good."
"Uh huh... the whole day. Um... you know that's a real nice blouse you got on. Looks soft and smooth. Wow. Your hair looks real good too - - so soft and shiny."
[Subject stands and pushes pants to knees. Erection validated.]
"Oh, geez... sorry. But you just make me feel real good..... Sure, yeah, let me sit back down.... Maybe if you took off that lab coat.... And I could get a better look. That might be real helpful."
[Interviewer removes lab coat. Subject agitated. Perspiration evident. Pronounced swallow reflex. Manipulation of penis continues.]
"Uh huh...wow. Look at you. Wow.... Huh? Okay. Sure."
[Interviewer begins standard flashcard sequence. Flashcards 1 - 3: cat, dog, horse.]
"What? No... they're just animals.... Could you turn to your side, maybe?"
[Interviewer continues flashcard sequence. Flashcards 4 - 6: classical nudes.]
"Oh, wow. Wait. I like that one. [Subject indicates: "Reclining Nude" by Amedeo Modigliani] Look at that gal. Incredible titties. And those thighs. [Indistinct mumbling] She's looking right at me... like she's just waiting... for it."
[Respiration increase. BPM increase. Further manipulation of penis. Agitation.]
"Uh huh.. I like her. Bet that's kinda what you look like...under all them clothes."
[Interviewer continues flashcard sequence. Flashcards 7-9: word sequence.]
"Uhhh... what's that say... 'Touch'? Uh huh. Okay. And.. oh... 'Bottom'? I like.. that.. one.... I'd like to see that gal's bottom in the picture. [Subject respiration, blood pressure, and BPM indicate extreme state of arousal.] Huh? "Mommy"? What? That's disgusting... gross... but... uh...yeah... I guess she had some nice titties too. And... soft skin. Uh huh... the swimming pool in summertime... ohhhhh. [Subject closes eyes. Manual stimulation of penis increases. Vitals off the charts.] Oh goddddd.. yesssss... please.... [Subject achieves climax. Indistinct vocalizations. Body convulsions.]
"Oh man... wow... holy fuck...."
[03:24 post climax: subject returns to quiescence.]
"Got any more of them cards? I could go another round, for sure."
[Exposure-stimulation trial concluded (14:20:36)]
"Come on, baby... just the blouse? Look at me... I'm dying here. Just one tittie, one sweet little tittie. Who's gonna know?"
[Subject remains in agitated state. Restraints applied. Escorted from interview room.]
Manning-Smith, "Euphorax" Human Trial, Transcript of Subject (#11) response
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As Sammy dried himself and pulled on a pair of shorts and a t-shirt, the doorbell rang. Eyebrows arched in surprise, he padded down the hall - - glancing into his grandmother's bedroom to see her sleeping peacefully. Through the screen door, he saw two men dressed in chinos and short-sleeve shirts on the front stoop.
"Mr. Johnson," the shorter and broader of the two men said.
Sammy stepped closer to the screen door.
"That's me," he answered.
The man nodded. "I'm Henry Watkins and this is Joe Meyer. We're from the county water district."
Sammy squinted in confusion.
"You asked us to test your well water."
The light bulb flicked on and Sammy opened the door to join the men on the stoop.
"Right," he answered, extending his hand to shake theirs. "It's out back. Follow me."
A half hour or so later, Watkins and Meyer departed in their panel station wagon with the county seal on the front doors. They'd collected four samples of well water in tiny vials and told Sammy he'd have to wait about a week to hear back from the water district. In the meantime, they warned him to keep track of any physical symptoms of contamination - - cramping, irregular discharges, headaches, etc., and handed him a pamphlet.
Sammy watched the car make its way back along the driveway then on to the highway. Inside, he went to check on Lucinda. She was sitting up in her bed in the dimly lit bedroom. She turned her eyes away from him when he entered the room.
"Gran," he said. "You feeling alright?"
Lucinda nodded her head. An uncomfortable silence settled across the room.
"Here," Sammy continued. "Let me get you some more water."
He grabbed the empty tumbler from her nightstand and exited.
Lucinda sighed and arranged her dress around her calves. She could barely remember any details of the previous several hours. When she did try to remember, something balmy and pleasant bubbled across her body. Her crotch was sopping wet and she swung her legs over the side of the bed, intending to make her way to the bathtub down the hall.
Sammy returned with the glass of water and, still refusing to look at him, she accepted the cold glass.
"I... I...." Sammy's voice wavered. "I don't know...."
Lucinda returned the glass to the nightstand and finally looked into Sammy's eyes. Her breath caught in her throat. She loved this boy so much. She patted a space on the bed next to her and Sammy sat.
"I don't really remember much," she said in a small, soft voice.
Sammy shifted uncomfortably next to her. She reached over and took his big hand between hers.
"But," she continued as she rubbed and squeezed his hand. "I remember feeling...." She paused. "I remember feeling... wonderful." She squeezed his hand harder. "More wonderful than I've ever felt before."
Sammy sighed with relief.
"Me too," he answered.
Lucinda smiled. "And even now," she said, still whispering. "I feel like a million bucks, as your grandfather used to say."
She looked up at him, her eyes glowing with affection.
Sammy chuckled. "More like five million bucks."
They laughed quietly together.
"I don't know if it's right or wrong," Lucinda said, releasing Sammy's hand. "I mean," she continued. "I know it's wrong... but it doesn't feel like that matters." She paused. "Goodness. You'll just have to pardon me, Sammy. I don't know what I'm saying."
Sammy understood. His mind recognized the guilt and shame he should feel. But, he also understood that neither he nor his grandmother had been in control. It was like a storm or a tornado had blasted through the house and pulled them into some kind of vortex. Unlike bad weather, though, instead of fear and stress, Sammy felt calm and contented.
He leaned down and planted a gentle kiss on his grandmother's silver hair. Lucinda sighed as happiness flickered through her heart.