Daddy knows it but... What a pity, little Johnny, although grown up but is not old enough to understand what are the restraint and commands of marriage and why a man and a woman after being married for long 20 years would call it off or simply walk away with no hope for the one who is trying very hard to stay together or may be no desire, wish or trust to fall back onto by both partners.
Johnny only knows that it hit him very hard when his parents made him sit with them and explained that they were going their separate ways and due to the reasons which were not up for open discussion, mom won't be able to take care of him anymore and he will stay with daddy from now on. He was told that mom will be moving far away and won't be able to visit either, may be once a year and that too not on Christmas or any other family reunion like days.
A little upset but calm he could not even understand why he was not given any phone number or email address if not the mailing address for just saying hello if he wanted to. A little consoling was the announcement when mom said that she will not take any money from his dad, which he could spend on little Johnny for his education and make him a better man in life.
Anyhow, it is life and dad has made it very comfortable for him. Johnny has no clue why but dad has quit the job and says he makes more money now than he made when he was doing a job. All he knows that his dad is very handsome and muscular built hardly reaching 40 years old his dad is very smart. He has a computer which he works on for may be for 1 hour during early morning and far less during the late afternoon. Daddy calls it playing the market and Johnny has no understanding what he means but he knows daddy loves him, cares for him, have never refused to give him as much time as he needs and listens very caringly each word Johnny has ever said.
Johnny has been through a very up class all boys private school and a small very comfortable van picked and dropped him instead of a rowdy yellow bus filled with rude and nasty bully boys. He has grown up to be a nice well mannered teen boy. All he knows or wants to know is that his dad does everything right for him. Dad even knows how to cook and there is always plenty of food at home, latest designer clothes, sneakers and play things are all available to Johnny only for asking.
Johnny is not bothered but he has noticed in the past close to one year living with his dad that there were some men who come to see his dad and usually they were about to leave when Johnny came home from school. Dad always handing them some papers and also making some remarks about them being square and no more money was owed to them. Little Johnny has no reason to doubt anything about daddy. Daddy works out of home he understands but still when outside matters are needed to be settled these men may be helping out or something.
18 years old Johnny is little for dad and dad calls him with many affectionate names like kiddo, baby, sweetheart, junior but Johnny is not a kid any more. He is fairly tall for his age almost touching 6 feet. Some athletics and a very best gym at home have made him grow hard muscular boy, decently broad chest & shoulders, strong arms and powerful beefy legs.
Every time Johnny looks himself in the mirror, he cannot take his eyes off. Johnny has a very strong feeling towards himself he cannot explain or know what it was but seems Johnny love's himself. It is only as of late that his mother has left him and his dad; and he does not feel much about her but thinking back even, he was always attracted to his dad. Looking at his dad's physical appearance always has had some special effect on Johnny. He always felt a special glee deep down his body when he was half of his present age and it has grown larger on him now. Strong burly looking and hard beefy men, yes all men have started to excite him far more lately and he himself is looking very attractive to him. Johnny is not a shy boy but just this little thing is mesmerizing him.
He cannot take his eyes off any male figures. They look divine, holy and godly and worth worshiping on one hand but also he feels a physical pull towards most statuette looking males. Sex of course too. Yes he feels sexy when he looks at men. He knows the word "GAY" and maybe he is gay but he does not know all about being gay.
He always feels that he should be grabbed, groped by men and pulled under them and they do something to him. What is that "something" is not clear in his mind and is growing on him too? He knows all the good and bad 4 letter words like Love, Keen, Kiss, Feel and even Lust, Slut & Fuck. It is only not clear which one he is looking for from other men. In his teen age and when inundated with this desire and alone in his room playing with his manhood, well developed manhood gives some relief but the rebound effect is far severe. Who can he talk about this desire is not the issue. He knows his dad is the one man who will listen and advise him the best but it's only a bit of hesitation that is still there although father and son are very close to each other.
It is Sunday morning, nice cool April day. As planned the breakfast is done early and all the fishing gear is already put in the R.V. recently bought. The duo goes fishing 3rd Sunday of every month and today is no exception. What a fun and relaxing time it is and they even catch a lot of fish as well while they are sitting and talking in the small boat they rent at a nearby fishing spot of a very serene and tranquil lake like body of water. Daddy Joe has even bought a small hut close by to go and rest or have a nap after done with fishing and before driving home. Not big but still spacious 2 bedrooms with attached bathrooms each fitted with a nice size Jacuzzi to relax in to wash the fatigue and separate shower stall to clean up. A decent size living or family room and well equipped kitchen to quickly cook some freshly caught fish. Are you ready baby, he heard daddy say. Let us get going.
He was in very casual shorts and an old t- shirt and sneakers with no socks and dad as usual in his fishing jacket over his naked torso and a knee high Bermuda with rubber sandals. They parked at preferred spot, rented the boat and soon were on their way in the water to the fishing spot dad had known as a good fishing hole. The bait line was dropped and as usual dad started shuffling the Newspaper. Johnny's mind was wandering and he was thinking, planning and manufacturing a moment, the very right moment to pop the question and ask dad what was going on in his mind. The gleam of a bit shame, the glimmer and shimmer of innocence and spark of curiosity was drowning his thoughts as he kept gathering courage to start up the discussion and somehow ask the question anyhow wishing very hard that dad would look at him and notice the uneasiness he was in and spare him the guilt but he kept fiddling with the newspaper as Johnny got over burdened finally.
Hey dad, he said in a kind of stammering tone. Can I talk with you about something I need your help for? And why not sweetie, dad quickly folded his paper and looked at him as if he was worried or at least troubled to guess if Johnny had done some wrong or he was in a mess and was being nervous about it. What is it, how can I help you?
Dad's concern was almost written on his face and Johnny felt so assured that he is the one and only right person to talk with, about what he wanted to talk and seek helping answers and solution. It was still quite early in the morning. Sun had risen the light and warmness was straining through the leaves of the trees. Boy knows he was safe outside and inside but did he want to be safe anymore specially inside... not sure he thinks for a while, damn he has already started and made dad a part of what's coming to him soon, sure soon he wishes.
It has been over and again, he has been listening to his body. The whispers have called him many a times. He has overheard other boys talking some things they did and enjoyed tremendously. The stories of all the 'bad' things happening in different parts of the city, by lonely stretches of road, in the farthest edges of the park at late night hour!!. He has wondered enough how, just how and why some older or even younger guys seem to know so much how they feel and what they want but he did not. He had wondered only without clarity, about men and what it would be like to be with older men, touched by them and something more done to him as he gets kind of trapped beneath large muscled men. You do not dare to be alone with grown up men, and watch out if you drop your pants even for an instant, those men will get you and do you nasty (he was almost sure that's what he heard one boy telling another).
He could not speak with anybody else but his dad only and knew his dad was not one of those men or at least will not do him nasty, so why not speak up and see how and what it leads to. Gathering all his courage, he looks in the eyes of the man he is with, his own dad... for a moment, why he does not know, he sees a naked man... strong, all solid muscles, very broad chest more that could wrap his young body all over and plenty more. Those rugged thighs, pillar like all meaty legs and ... No he shakes his head, as he hears his dad, I am all ears Johnny. What is it; tell me, I will surely help you, no matter what.