Thank you Chitranna for editing this writing.
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I realize that imperfect things happen in your life and sometimes they make perfect sense and sometimes they don't. Some things you learn will stay with you forever and some of them whisk away like a light breeze. Life is odd. There are things we do that define us and become part of us. There are secrets we keep from our closest friends. That is just the way life goes.
When my mother walked in on me while I was masturbating I figured I could rush her out of my room and escape her from knowing, well, from admitting she knew what I was doing. That was not the case. She taunted and seduced me. She wore a little outfit and exposed herself to me. Sure she was wearing panties, but they were skimpy and left little to the imagination. I had never looked at her like that before, like a sexy woman.
I tried my best that night to make myself go limp, to control my emotions, but between the wonderful video I was watching and the way she moved I couldn't get it to fall. I'll be honest with you, my mother is hot. She always has been. I never doubted or failed to admit she was a good looking woman. I guess it was only a matter of time before I realized how hot she was.
Then there was the last thing she said to me that night. I told her we had to keep it a secret, nobody could ever know about what we did. Her reply, they already knew. Really? They already knew? So my father was laying in their bed knowing I was banging my mother?
The sad thing is, even with it still being wrong in my head, when I took my shower the next morning she joined me and I did not resist. I took her from behind with her pressed against the shower wall and did not hesitate pushing myself deep inside her when I came like she told me to. It was crazy, I just did what she wanted. To be honest, I loved it, loved how she made me feel. I loved touching her, kissing her, tasting her and filling her. I don't know if it makes me a bad person, but it sure as hell makes me feel wanted and needed.
So a couple days later I took a drive, I wanted to clear my head, to go over what had happened and find out for myself if it was wrong or not. So I drove, just got in my car and took a long drive.
I found myself pulling into the driveway my Uncle Jed and Aunt Flora's farm. I guess it was a logical place to go, I had always gotten along well with their daughters Stacy and Becca. More with Stacy as she was my age and we graduated together while Becca was a year ahead of us.
I had spent a ton of time on the farm while growing up, Stacy and I were more friends than cousins. People used to joke that we were a couple because we were always together. She knew everything about me, when I had my first kiss, when I had thoughts of running away, the first time I touched a girl, when I forged my mom's signature to skip school. Yeah, everything.
When I came to a stop. Stacy was sitting on the porch and I saw her smile. She was a beautiful girl, no question about it and her smile lit the world around her. As I exited the car she ran to me and jumped in my arms. I hugged her tight and spun her around a bit. How I had missed being with her, missed talking to her, missed sharing stories and dreams with her,
I set her down, my hands on her hips, hers around my neck and kissed her cheek, my smile wide, "How are you? I have missed you."
Her smile was wide, her blue eyes brightly sparkling in the sunlight, her blond ponytail swaying behind her as she swayed before me, "I missed you Forrest! Hell I have been waiting for you to show up. I am well. A lot more relaxed now that we are on break from college, but I miss the chaos at the same time. I really miss being in the same school as you."
I chuckled, "It was a lot more fun causing the trouble with you Stacy, a lot. The truck is gone, are Uncle Jed and Aunt Flora not here?"
We released one another and she rested her hands on her hips, "Nope, they went to go look at some horses and Becca went to see a friend of hers. The house is mine to watch over for a few hours. How is Bianca?"
Bianca is my girl, we have been together for a few months and I missed her, missed her touch, her feel, "She is doing well, sucks being this far apart though. And Danny, how is he?"
Her lips moved into a snarl and she shook her head, "That fucker can go to hell, he cheated on me! Really, he did. Can you believe it?"
I was taken aback a bit by that, Danny and Stacy were high school sweethearts, been together for years. I couldn't believe he strayed. He didn't go to college so it wasn't like he was seduced by the college life, "Really. I'm so sorry. I thought you two would be together forever."
She took my hand and led me to the trail we had walked so many times before, "Yeah well some men can't keep it in their pants you know. He fucked Amy when I was away. The sad part is I didn't know for a while. We were sending naughty videos to each other and everything, really having a lot of fun. Then I got a text from her. She told me she had seen all my shows. She told me she couldn't hide it anymore and had to tell me that she and Danny had been fucking for a while."
I chucked and gave her hand a small squeeze as we passed the horses and headed into the wooded area of the farm, "Okay, there are a few questions that come after that. First, what kind of videos were these? How bad did you get on camera for him and him for you? And, how did she tell you?"
We ended up near the small creek and she leaned against the wooden rail fence, "Okay, you have to understand that we were very active before I left, I mean you know, but you have to understand that. When my roommate fell asleep I would record myself, you know, like record myself. I wouldn't always completely masturbate for him, sometimes I would tease him, like almost show myself but wouldn't. And he would send me photos and videos of him stroking himself. I saw several of him, well you know, spraying. She just sent a text to me, she said that she had seen my videos and suggested I stopped sending them because all they did was get her laid."
I gulped and coughed, first of all I could not imagine Stacy playing with herself in from of a camera and second because Danny would share such a thing, "So you, you really played with yourself in front of a camera then sent it to him? And he shared it? And you believed her?"
Her face reddened, maybe she didn't realize she was admitting to me that she made herself orgasm on film, "Okay wait. You have to understand where we were in a relationship. Fuck Forrest we had been sleeping together for a couple years at that point! So yeah, I sent him naughty vids. I didn't just accept it, I know Amy is a slut and will spread her legs for anyone, and I wasn't jumping right into the he fucked her mode. I didn't believe her until she sent me a vid of him licking her then fucking her. It was not what I wanted to see, but left no question in my mind that he was doing it."
My mind whirled a bit, here I was trying to get my mind off of what my mother and I did and I was hearing that my sweet, sexy cousin was masturbating on videos. Holy shit! I couldn't believe it and I really wanted to see it. Something inside me was stirring and I could feel my cock beginning to rise as I thought of my cousin laying there recording herself. This was the opposite of what I was hoping for by coming here. Though I was not about to let it go, "Well, he was lucky to see you do that, I guess she was too. Did they at least look good fucking?"
She slapped my chest and let out a laugh, "Oh my fucking god. You are horrible. No, they didn't look good, I hate them both. As for them being lucky seeing me, you are goddamn right they were lucky to see something that good."
Oh the dirty visions she was putting in my head. I never thought about it, not even once. But I was now, I was thinking about her laying there, playing with her pussy, teasing, taunting and orgasming in front of her phone. My eyes began to scan her in a whole different view, never had I realized how sexy she was. She was leaning against the fence, her tight jeans covering her shapely legs, her boots upon her calves. Her tank top was visible through her red flannel shirt which was half unbuttoned. Her hair was in the tight pony tail she often wore, the blonde color a compliment to her deep blue eyes. And all I could think about was taking those clothes off of her and seeing her perform for me like she had for him. Seeing what panties she wore, how her large breasts heaved as she came. Is this what happens when you dive into family sex? Is this the way you think?
I took a deep breath and leaned against the fence beside her, hoping she would not notice the growth in my pants, "I have no doubt they enjoyed seeing you play Stacy, fuck, who wouldn't?"
Did I really just say that? She lifted an eyebrow and giggled, "I have to admit I did look good in the video. I didn't think I would watch myself, but I found myself clicking on them from time to time and smiled a lot. It was fun and exciting. I even stopped wearing the normal panties I wore because of the vids. Now I only wear thongs, they are just sexier to wear when recording and they feel naughty. I've discovered a whole new me, a bad girl inside me that needs to be released. Recording myself and feeling the thong does it for me."
Wow! That was hot, I don't care if we are related or not. To know what a woman is wearing beneath their pants, to know they have a thong on just because it makes them feel like a dirty girl. Really? That is hot and there was proof popping in my pants that it was. I felt a new desire, a new need inside me. Was it wrong to want to share the family love that my mother had showed me? Of course I didn't want to tell her, but I could show her right?
She lifted herself onto the fence, sitting on the top pole and balancing herself with her hands upon it. I moved a bit closer and set my hand on her thigh, "Well, you could always send those vids to me, maybe I would make one myself."
