Thank you Chitranna for editing this writing.
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I realize that imperfect things happen in your life and sometimes they make perfect sense and sometimes they don't. Some things you learn will stay with you forever and some of them whisk away like a light breeze. Life is odd. There are things we do that define us and become part of us. There are secrets we keep from our closest friends. That is just the way life goes.
When my mother walked in on me while I was masturbating I figured I could rush her out of my room and escape her from knowing, well, from admitting she knew what I was doing. That was not the case. She taunted and seduced me. She wore a little outfit and exposed herself to me. Sure she was wearing panties, but they were skimpy and left little to the imagination. I had never looked at her like that before, like a sexy woman.
I tried my best that night to make myself go limp, to control my emotions, but between the wonderful video I was watching and the way she moved I couldn't get it to fall. I'll be honest with you, my mother is hot. She always has been. I never doubted or failed to admit she was a good looking woman. I guess it was only a matter of time before I realized how hot she was.
Then there was the last thing she said to me that night. I told her we had to keep it a secret, nobody could ever know about what we did. Her reply, they already knew. Really? They already knew? So my father was laying in their bed knowing I was banging my mother?
The sad thing is, even with it still being wrong in my head, when I took my shower the next morning she joined me and I did not resist. I took her from behind with her pressed against the shower wall and did not hesitate pushing myself deep inside her when I came like she told me to. It was crazy, I just did what she wanted. To be honest, I loved it, loved how she made me feel. I loved touching her, kissing her, tasting her and filling her. I don't know if it makes me a bad person, but it sure as hell makes me feel wanted and needed.
So a couple days later I took a drive, I wanted to clear my head, to go over what had happened and find out for myself if it was wrong or not. So I drove, just got in my car and took a long drive.
I found myself pulling into the driveway my Uncle Jed and Aunt Flora's farm. I guess it was a logical place to go, I had always gotten along well with their daughters Stacy and Becca. More with Stacy as she was my age and we graduated together while Becca was a year ahead of us.
I had spent a ton of time on the farm while growing up, Stacy and I were more friends than cousins. People used to joke that we were a couple because we were always together. She knew everything about me, when I had my first kiss, when I had thoughts of running away, the first time I touched a girl, when I forged my mom's signature to skip school. Yeah, everything.
When I came to a stop. Stacy was sitting on the porch and I saw her smile. She was a beautiful girl, no question about it and her smile lit the world around her. As I exited the car she ran to me and jumped in my arms. I hugged her tight and spun her around a bit. How I had missed being with her, missed talking to her, missed sharing stories and dreams with her,
I set her down, my hands on her hips, hers around my neck and kissed her cheek, my smile wide, "How are you? I have missed you."
Her smile was wide, her blue eyes brightly sparkling in the sunlight, her blond ponytail swaying behind her as she swayed before me, "I missed you Forrest! Hell I have been waiting for you to show up. I am well. A lot more relaxed now that we are on break from college, but I miss the chaos at the same time. I really miss being in the same school as you."
I chuckled, "It was a lot more fun causing the trouble with you Stacy, a lot. The truck is gone, are Uncle Jed and Aunt Flora not here?"
We released one another and she rested her hands on her hips, "Nope, they went to go look at some horses and Becca went to see a friend of hers. The house is mine to watch over for a few hours. How is Bianca?"
Bianca is my girl, we have been together for a few months and I missed her, missed her touch, her feel, "She is doing well, sucks being this far apart though. And Danny, how is he?"
Her lips moved into a snarl and she shook her head, "That fucker can go to hell, he cheated on me! Really, he did. Can you believe it?"
I was taken aback a bit by that, Danny and Stacy were high school sweethearts, been together for years. I couldn't believe he strayed. He didn't go to college so it wasn't like he was seduced by the college life, "Really. I'm so sorry. I thought you two would be together forever."
She took my hand and led me to the trail we had walked so many times before, "Yeah well some men can't keep it in their pants you know. He fucked Amy when I was away. The sad part is I didn't know for a while. We were sending naughty videos to each other and everything, really having a lot of fun. Then I got a text from her. She told me she had seen all my shows. She told me she couldn't hide it anymore and had to tell me that she and Danny had been fucking for a while."
I chucked and gave her hand a small squeeze as we passed the horses and headed into the wooded area of the farm, "Okay, there are a few questions that come after that. First, what kind of videos were these? How bad did you get on camera for him and him for you? And, how did she tell you?"
