Jessica was tired of feeling so low, her body wasn't the best she was bigger than most girls at 19, ontop of that's she had had to deal with the regular taunts and insults of any girl not smaller than everyone else. As a result, she lay in bed most nights alone and isolated, she hated the world around her, and her own family were no better. Her mother always on at her to lose that extra few pounds. Her father barely even acknowledged she was there, though he was pretty much that way with both her and her brothers so that didn't help anyone.
It was a typical night for her, as was usual she was in her room silent and crying when there was a knock at the door.
"Go away!" She barked quickly trying to wipe the tears from her eyes.
"Jess, Mom wanted me to tell you they're going away for a few days, and you're in charge," her younger 18 year old brother stated
"Fine!" She growled in response. A reminder that as usual, her parents were taking liberties, just because she had no life didn't mean she needed to be reminded of that fact. She returned to crying from the frustration that burned at her very core, it wasn't long before she was asleep.
It was very early morning when she woke, as she turned to look at her alarm clock, the bright red forming into 2.12am. She groaned at the thought and then sat, slowly slipping out of bed before making her way to the bathroom, as she came back toward her room she saw her brother staring into her room.
"Matthew what are you doing?" She snapped, as he turned and smiled.
"Oh good, are you feeling better? You sounded so sad earlier," He replied.
"Fine, I'm fine," She snapped back and then made her way to her room as she turned to close the door she looked back to him, "What were you doing? Why are you even up?"
"I just wanted to make sure you're OK," He shrugged then as if nothing had happened wandered off back toward his room. She stared after him for a moment before making her way into her room, for a few moments then deciding to go and get a drink she made her way down the stairs to the kitchen.
As she opened the fridge bending down for the orange juice taking t to the counter, again bending for a glass before pouring her drink. She sighed before returning the orange juice to the fridge. As she turned she yelped in surprise at her brother, who was now watching her.
"Matthew what the fuck?!" She snapped angrily.
"Need a drink," He shrugged in reply, it always annoyed her how flippant he was in his ways but sure enough she returned to retrieve the orange juice then repeated the process of grabbing a glass. As she straightened she couldn't miss the fact he was staring, she put the glass down before him with a bit more force than was needed causing him to frown at her, "What's with you today, fucking hell,"
"Stop being so fucking weird then, Jesus I could swear you were staring at my ass," She snapped back.
"Your ass is staring at me," Matthew grinned in reply.
Jessica shook her head in reply and sighed as she sat opposite, he began to drink from the glass. She couldn't help but wonder what was in that head of his, he was being incredibly weird even for him. Though the thought of him staring at her made her shiver inside, even if it was her brother at least it was attention that wasn't the negative she had become used to.
"Why are you being so fucking weird? If I didn't know better I'd say you were trying to flirt with me!" She muttered.
"Is it working?" The straightness of his tone caught her completely by surprise as she stared at him, her eyes locked on his as she searched for whatever dumb plan he had concocted today. Again she shook her head and stared back at the orange liquid in her glass.
"Fuck off Matthew, I'm not in the mood for you to be picking on the fat ginger bitch!"
"Is that how you really see yourself? Jesus no wonder you're so fucking miserable all the time, and not to mention single,"
"Yea cos guys like fat and ginger, really see the football team hanging out with me on their arm, fuck off," She snapped back angrily. There was a bitterness to her words now.
"Not all guys are so bloody shallow you know, some of us look for a lot more," Matthew shrugged in his reply "But hey you wanna mope around here, then fine, but I'm going to sit right here and keep you company,"
She finished her drink and then stood making her way past him, doing so he caught her wrist standing and pulling her closer, she wanted to pull away but she didn't, feeling his body meet hers as she stood staring into his eyes.
"You don't see it because you don't want to, you shouldn't be so low on yourself, you're so much better than that,"
"God shut up and stop being weird, you're my brother, not my boyfriend!" She pushed away from him and stormed off to her room. Silently she could still feel the moment her heart skipped a beat at simply being so close to someone, the thought unnerved her and she quickly pushed it aside, before climbing back into bed.
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It was still dark when she stirred, it was still early morning at her rough guess, what had woken her was the feeling of someone touching her as she tried to look around without actually letting them know she was awake, to her surprise it was her brother. She wanted to scream at him, yet part of her was frozen, another part curious as to what he was actually doing. She could feel his hand on her calf as it slowly slid up her leg, then over the back of her knee and along her inner thigh, she felt her body tense, just as quickly she felt him withdraw his hand from her.
"Jess are you awake?" He whispered softly.
Her heart hammered at her chest as she remained silent, her body now frozen in panic. After a few moments his hand returned to her inner thigh and again she felt him work his way up her slowly. She could also feel him trembling beside her as his hand finally reached the top of her thigh, he changed his path so as to avoid touching her intimately.
Half of her was disappointed before the rational side quickly reminded her he was her brother. The irrational side of her didn't care, she could feel her body begin to heat as if wanting him to touch her, his hand rested on her hip for a moment before it began to work across her pelvis and over the bottom of her stomach, as he reached the top of her pubic region he stopped. Then slid his hand down grazing the wiry mass of pubic hair. Her head was screaming for him to stop, he was her brother, the woman in her begged him to move down, for him to touch her in ways she had never been touched by anyone but herself. It was in that moment she wondered what he was thinking, it's not like he hadn't had girlfriends in the past, and she was fairly sure he had had sex before now, so why was he sat on her bed contemplating touching her?
The moment seemed to stretch on for hours, in fact, it was less than a minute before his finger crept over her pubic hair, slipping down the length of her slit, and again she tensed. Then kicked herself as again he withdrew his hand. Her body was now heated, the desire to be touched overriding every logical thought, she wanted this, her body wanted her brother, the fact he was her brother only made it hotter.