I was driving like a crazy person. Swerving around cars, all gas and all break with no in between. I wasn't drunk, but I wished I was. He is such an asshole. That thought roared through my head as if my brain was screaming on its own.
I should have known, of course. The signs were there. My friends warned me. But a girl can hope right? Not all guys are dicks first then boys second. Wrong. I knew he was friends with Mag, I just didn't expect him to fuck her. Of course he tried to deny it. They always do. But when that didn't work...he was such an asshole.
I drove through the rain with tears streaming. All I could think of was driving to Sarah's. She was my older sister, and quite wise in the ways of getting over male-pigs. I told her about Todd and she told me to come right over. My older brother (and Sarah's twin) James would be there too.
Honestly I wasn't looking forward to it. Since they both left for college, I felt like I spent too many occasions getting screwed over by high school boys and driving up to tell them about it. But they were the only ones that understood. Now after this nonsense, I felt like they were the only ones that ever would understand. I suppose, though I didn't know it, I was right.
I arrived at their place around 10 that night. I guess I will say it was the "first" night as there were (and still are) many like it to come.
They knew I was coming, but I don't think they (or I knew) how fast I was driving.
I parked the car crookedly and hopped out. I was raging and I was ready to tell them I was done with men altogether. I marched up the walkway quickly with my hands in fists. The rain poured down, but I didn't care. I just wanted to hug Sarah and have her tell me it will be fine. I just wanted to...
I opened the door and there they were: James kneeled down in front of Sarah, her blond hair tossled, her top off and her legs open and on his shoulders. His head moving methodically as he licked her pussy. Sarah's eyes were closed, but they opened when she heard the door open.
I was stupefied.
"Sarah...James..."
"Shut the door, Mary," Sarah said with more breath than voice.
I closed the door and stood, pressed against it. My older twin brother and sister were...I don't know what they were doing. I didn't say anything.
James sat up, his face had some of her juice on itβit was shiny. I could see Sarah's clean, shaved pussy. I looked away.
"Shit, Mary...you drive like a wild woman," James said.
I looked up at him in shock. Sarah had pulled a blanket over herself. Thank god. Thank fully James had all his clothes on.
"Ok you guys, what the fuck is going on?" I almost yelled. "I mean, what the fuck?!"
James stood up. His cool blue eyes looked into mine as if he was hurt, as if I said something inappropriate.
"Mary," Sarah began.
I looked at her. She was the pinnacle of every woman I wanted to be.: Independent, beautiful, brilliant, and now...fucking my brother?
"Mary, we thought you would be later," Sarah said.
"So?! That makes everything better?" I asked in a shriek.
I turned to leave.
"Wait," James said in a stronger voice.
I stopped. He rarely raised his voice. James.
I turned back around. "What...?" I began, but I had nothing but tears.
He walked toward me then stopped about three feet away. "Why don't you tell us about this Todd character, then we will tell you all about this."
I stared at him. For an instant my mind was blank. But as I looked over them both I realized that I couldn't leave. They were my siblings, no matter what was going on, I mean they were twins. Maybe twins do that or something?
"Come on," Sarah said as she stood up, the blanket wrapped around her naked body like a towel. "I'll get some wine."
I sat on the couch and took my drenched coat off. My shirt was soaked and my red bra shown through. I felt a little awkward, "Sarah, can I borrow a shirt?"
James sat on the chair next to the couch and looked away from me. He was always so sweet.
Sarah walked in holding a bottle of red wine and three glasses.
"Absolutely not!" she said playfully.
"Look," I said pointing to my shirt.
"Ha!" Sarah laughed. She sat down next to me. "Ok, as you can tell we aren't shy. Just take it off, goodness Mary I have seen you in your underwear before."
"Come on!" I said gesturing toward James.
"James, can you give us some girl time?" Sarah requested.
"Yeah yeah," James replied. He hopped up and without looking at us went up the stairs. "I will be up here watching TV." He called down as he disappeared.
"Seriously? No shirt?" I laughed.
"Just take it off, I haven't done laundry in like two weeks," Sarah laughed.
I smiled. Sarah lived at her own pace. I unbuttoned my blouse and tossed it on the floor. The house air was suddenly warmer.
"Better?" Sarah asked.