No More Mr. Nice Guy
The pet care thing sounds much simpler than it is. Like many labels applied even properly, it disguises the manifest complexity of the situation as it exists in reality. I ain't talking about cats and dogs, numbskulls. It testifies once more to the aphorism I had encountered and was still learning the truth of: Own possessions and those possessions own you. So it seems it is with the advent of a pet possession such as Candy.
Sleeping Wednesday night was interesting. At first, Candi refused to get into bed with me but curled up on the floor again. Finally I pulled rank.
"Who owns whom here?" I asked the air over the woman lying on the floor beside the bed. Mavis was in the other room. This was private and I think she understood that.
Candi pointed at me and then at her chest right between her almost mouthful tits.
I nodded agreement. "So when I say I want you in this bed, shouldn't you do like I want?"
For along moment, like seven breaths, Candi stared at me and finally, with a big fucking show of reluctance, she rose up and slithered into the bed beside me. She lay down on the bed, legs wide, hands over her head, but I outfoxed her and went to sleep. I was worn out. Ownership is stressful. That's a concept that gets ignored, like I said, the owner gets owned. Not the first time I'd bumbled across this reality. I don't know what happened next. I dropped off the edge of consciousness into the abyss of sleep and didn't wake for a couple hours. When I did, Candi was cuddled up against me like one of us was hot and the other was dying of the cold.
I was hard as glass. I rolled Candi onto her back and nudged her legs open. The girl could sleep now. She murmured something suspiciously like "yes, master" and lazily stretched her arms over her head. I moved between her legs, only then thinking to check to see if she was pleasantly wet. She was. I touched my cock to her cunt and slide it inside. She took me with tight acceptance, lifting her ass to ease the way. When I bumped the bottom of her pit, she moaned softly, but she wasn't awake. Her hips rose under me, cinching us together. Her cunt clinched down on me and I drew back out of her. Her legs moved until she could plant her feet flat on the bed, knees clutching my sides.
I fucked her.
This wasn't making love and it wasn't just fucking really even though I just said so. It was something else. I recognized it. This had happened before but I'd been too busy to notice. Nor did the female I was...whatevering...she, before, with the MILFs and others, they didn't know what was happening either. I think it was as new and unfamiliar to them as it was to me and I was a strict dilettante, that is I started out that way. Sliding into Candi Cane at two in the morning after her weeping jag and the fracturing of whatever this was between us had a surreal quality to it, while at the same time being more real than ever before.
"Mine." I growled a bit as I possessed her.
Possessed. That's the word I was searching for...and yes, it was what I was thinking as I fucked her. ("fuck" is too good a word to replace entirely!) I wasn't all focused on her or what she wanted or needed or anything of the sort. I was taking what I wanted, what I needed. That sounded like the very definition of selfishness in my head, yes, I was talking to myself and the commentary was parallel to me mounting the woman. I was fucking her yes, but I was elsewhere. This was me using her. I snapped back into my body to check on how I was doing and found her wet, responsive, nearly purring with satisfaction. So I went back to thinking. Her bliss seemed to expand as my inattention, the use of her.
I divided. There was the me all replete with words and concepts and confusion. There was the me mounted between this woman's legs. Fucking her, I was, yoda Sonny was, but it was tender and careful and she was nearly gushing...she woke finally, biting her lower lips in the gray urban darkness of the hotel room, her eye shining up at me. She whimpered then, her hips thrusting faster at me, urgency rippled in her.
I understood. I understood! The realization flooded me and I felt all wise and shit.