So the day after..
John and Rhonda both looked at me like they knew something about me that I didn't. Breakfast was awkward but not like in a bad way. They smiled at me. They were laughing and kissing. Could it be that she didn't know? She must know. I mean she saw me outside the door. Oh My God! Maybe she thought that John just went in to my room and talked!! No John would be a nervous wreck if she didn't know the whole truth.. Right?
I didn't realize what was going on with them until Rhonda got up to go to the fridge and John's smile vanished the moment she turned her back to him.
He then turned his serious eyes to me and I knew what those eyes were saying.
..She didn't know..
How could she not know? Did she pass out the moment he left the room to go to mine? Maybe we weren't that loud..
I was actually relieved. Somehow it felt better that me and John's thing was just our thing. Our love is our own.
As the day went along, that very fact started to be painful. I'm not a jealous girl. Or at least I'm not acting out in jealousy. I started to feel betrayed. I couldn't help it. Suddenly they were the happiest couple in the world. Like John had gotten closure or something. This terrified me.
I took a long shower. My emotions were all over the place. I needed him to talk to me. The warm water however did a good job calming me.
We had a large bathroom upstairs with a big mirror that covered one of the walls entirely. I remembered laying on the pink fluffy carpet, watching my reflection when I masturbated to John's faint voice outside. Mom had this gnarly lotion bottle from Exodus shaped like a cock. No fucking chance the designer didn't have that in mind. Anyway, not doing that again. I don't know how she found out I had played with it but that day was traumatic.
I dried my hair and put on some make-up. Didn't want to be to obvious but I wanted to be hot for him. I wrapped myself in a towel and exited the bathroom.
Rhonda was waiting for me outside. She had a dodgy look on her face and her eyes were scanning me up and down. I didn't know what to say so I just gave her a quick smile and started moving towards my room. Once I had entered I noticed she had followed me inside. I was just about to drop my towel and yelped softly once I saw her. Rhonda closed the door behind her.