My younger sister, Ella, was a nuisance to me through high school. She craved my attention and followed me for no apparent reason. She bothered me with questions about school stuff, sports, politics, and even trivial things like laundry and why I chose to wear those specific sneakers. I wouldn't say I hated her, but I was much happier when she was elsewhere.
I recall the time she barged into my room when I was starting to watch porn on my computer. Luckily, I was still fully dressed. My initial reaction was to switch the site to a sports event. The next thing was to yell at her, "Ella, what is wrong with you? You are already 17. Haven't you learned how to knock by now?"
"Sorry, Jesse. I was asked to write a short essay about my family. I need to mention your height and weight."
"It's 6'2" and 190 pounds. Now leave my room and NEVER enter without permission again. Clear?"
"Why are you so upset? Your computer is protected with 5 passwords, and I doubt whether god can see what you are hiding there. My life is easier - I use birthdays to protect mine, so I'll never forget the passwords." Next, she was gone.
...
A year and a half has passed. I attended UWM and still lived at home in Madison with my family. Ella was a senior in high school, and with her good grades, she planned to go to UWM later, too.
She still needed me frequently, but I couldn't help but notice she turned into an attractive young woman. Her face was always cute, yet in the past I ignored it. Her hips widened somewhat, and her chest grew significantly. It was at least D cup or even bigger, which was clearly visible on her 5'5" and 130 pounds with a narrow waist.
I tried to distract my mind from the obvious changes in her body but it wasn't easy. With her looking for me often, frequently dressed at home in skimpy clothes, she began appearing in some of my wet dreams...
One day, I was all alone in the house and was in the middle of preparing for an important exam. All of a sudden my computer started acting up. It was working for several minutes and then crushing abruptly. It happened 3 times in a row. I got frustrated and decided to do it on Ella's computer, hoping to be finished before she returned home.
I didn't know her password but remembered she was using family member's birthday numbers. I tried hers. Nope. Mom's and Dad's - Failure. Desperately I used mine - Success at last! Before trying to do my stuff, I looked at her files. Everything was boring, from Urban Outfitters clothes, to her correspondence with her bestie, Gayle.
The last folder was marked XYZ. I became curious - My sister was now almost 19, and I hadn't seen her with a guy yet. Did she have a crush on a guy at school?
I opened the file and read the last few sentences, '... he still ignores me but I think he softens up. God, why did I have to fall in love with this jerk? Sometimes I hate him but most of the time I'd give anything to be his.'
I felt the urge to know more but my time was limited. I copied the file onto a flash drive, and finished my school assignment 10 minutes later. I shut off her computer and returned to my room. The same evening, I went to Best Buy and The Geek Team fixed the trouble.
The following evening, I downloaded Ella's file onto my computer and hid it under a double password. In order to be sure I wouldn't be interrupted, I began reading the file when Ella was away at one of her girlfriends.
She started writing when she was around 17, so it was active for almost 2 years now. Her first sentence started, 'Jesse, why do you treat me like that? I love you! Can't you see that?...'
To say I was stunned was underestimation of the year. All that time, I was consumed by MY thoughts and feelings. Who knew she was obsessed with me? Was this the reason she didn't have a boyfriend despite being very attractive? During the hours that followed I was torn between feeling guilty and thinking about ways of improving our relationship.
Eventually, I came up with an idea - Ella's 19th birthday was coming soon. On the same day she'd probably have a B'day party with her friends, but I'd offer to take her to a restaurant and a movie of her choice the weekend after.
...
The following day Ella knocked on my door. I recognized her steps, and said, "Ella, you can enter."
"Jesse, a shelf in my room fell. Can you help me fix it?"
At the time, I was watching funny videos on my computer. I put my laptop down and followed her. Neither one of us said anything. She was probably amazed I not only agreed to help but did it immediately. I didn't speak because I still wasn't sure how to handle the new revelation.
I saw what happened in her pinkish-colored room. She placed a heavy vase full of water with many long-stem flowers on it, and the screws that held it got loose and crushed. The vase broke, the rug was wet with a million pieces of glass on it, and the flowers spread around.
On prior occasions, when Ella screwed up like that, I'd yell at her or at least mock her. This time I smiled, "That's OK. It happens."
I carried the carpet outside and dumped the broken glass pieces in a garbage can. I left the carpet hanging on the railings on the balcony to dry and returned to her room. In the meantime, Ella used a broom to sweep the floor. I grabbed several larger screws, a screwdriver, and 10 minutes later her shelf was hanging in place again. I looked at her, "I recommend placing on it lighter objects."
She stared at me, puzzled, "Jesse, are you OK?"
"What do you mean?"
"I do not recall once you didn't behave like a jerk and was sarcastic as if I was the stupidest human being..."
I giggled, "You caught me when I was in a good mood."
"Can't you be like that always?"
"Ella, I have an idea. Your birthday is coming soon. I don't know whether you'll have a big party or you plan something else. However, if you are interested, on Saturday, I'll be free. We can go to a restaurant and a movie of YOUR choice."
Her eyes pierced through me, "Where is my brother and what did you do to him?"
I chuckled, "Look, if you rather not go, that's OK. I'll find something else to do..."
"Jesse, I DO want to go out! I just wonder what happened to you. Did you undergo brain surgery lately without my knowledge?"
"Ella, if I mistreat you, you hate me, and when I am trying to be nice you complain. What would you do if you were in my shoes?"
She hesitated, "I can't believe it... All of a sudden, my older brother turns human, and a nice one. I need to get used to this unless it's a one-time gesture."
"Sis, we'll see..."
I left her room with her eyes following me.
...
The days after fixing Ella's shelf felt weird. She smiled at me each time we met in the hall or for dinners, never barged into my room, and was much quieter than usual talking to Mom or on the phone.
She seemed to be extremely confused by the change in my behavior, afraid to find out I was nice to her only once. I, on the other hand, was determined to change my prior behavior. As a child, Ella was a pest like most other little brothers and sisters. Thinking about it in retrospect, later I continued my behavior without real reason. For quite some time I knew I was attracted to her physically, and tried to address it like a spoiled teenager - Fight it by being more jerk than I wanted to be. She didn't deserve it. Yes, I was a jerk!...
As of late, Ella turned into a beautiful lady. My raging hormones played a role, but finding her diary file was the deal-breaker. One day, when I was the only one in the house, I checked her drawers. Her floral-smelling, low-cut panties in different colors looked sexy. The bras drawer was even better - Soft bras were on the left side, with some labeled as D cup and others as DD. The right side had a variety of other types - Demibras, pushup bras, and sports bras. I smelled them and imagined sniffing Ella's breasts. The same night I had a wet dream about us. I realized my brain was on the wrong track but I could not control it.
On Friday Ella knocked softly on my door. "Come on in, Ella."