My name is Suresh and this is a true life incident I had when I was around 23 years of age. It happened with my elayamma (mother's younger sister). My mothers had three sisters and youngest one was almost 10 year younger to my mother.
I was very close with her from my very young age and I was called elayamma's boy by everyone in our family. She not very fair but was attractive with very long thick black hairs, round and charming face. She was tall and had sensual body curves with the mind boggling waist curves.
Ever since I was a child I was attached to her but not with any sexual thoughts. But when I entered in to my teens I used to feel sexually attracted to her. Initially I felt bad but honestly I could not control my thoughts.
Many times she became the image of my masturbation and afterwards I felt very guilty because I respected and loved as a mother too. When I was in my teens she was already married and had moved to another town and we used to meet very rarely but her memory always was in my mind and when she come for vacation my sexual feelings surged on seeing her.
But I knew very well it will never happen as ours was a very conservative family and she was very orthodox and god fearing. She has high moral values and she hardly talked to another men out side our family. But she had a problem, she never conceived because of some gynecological problem and even though we tried every medicine.
Doctors told she can never conceive and because of this she was very sad. Unfortunately when she was around 37 her husband passed away quiet unexpectedly and it was a great shock to her. She refused to remarry in spite of every one forcing her for that after a year.
Everyone failed to change her decision and she became very reserved.She then decided to stay with my uncle and family who lived very close to our place. By this time she had grown a little plump but not very fat and it had made her more sensual. Her waist and buttocks had broadened and she was really desirable but I felt guilty of thinking like this.
I was 23 years by then and again I got the chance of meeting her frequently and with me she was very close and she used to treat me as her son. She was innocent and she used to make a lot of body contacts with me while we are together. I used to help her with the work and many a times I used to brush her breast and buttocks but she felt nothing unusual.
I also took utmost care in not she knowing my feelings for her. She had not very large breast but I used to get aroused when I brush it but her buttocks and waist were really sensual. I used to stare at her belly and buttocks without she noticing it and on a couple of occasion I felt she did notice my stare and I felt embarrassed, but she behaved normally with me.
As I told she used to live with my uncle and family and grandmother. Granny was very old and was not mobile fully. Every weekend my uncle and family goes to the aunt's house and then I used to go and stay with my elayamma and granny. This made my desire strong but at the same time I never wanted to hurt her feelings as I loved and respected her.