Cara Brennan couldn't pinpoint the precise time when she began thinking taboo thoughts involving her son Tristan, though she was certain it started even before she and Gary, her husband of twenty-two years, agreed to separate. She did know that it started with a dream. She was in her nightgown, mint-green, if she recalled, and see-through panties, and she was in Tristan's room, on his bed, and he was gawking at her, his face a picture of wanton desire. Then she woke up, went to the bathroom and masturbated.
Her unconscious mind was no stranger to erotic dreams, but she couldn't deny that this dream was among the most wonderfully erotic she'd ever had. It was also one of the most disturbing. Parents aren't supposed to sexualize their offspring. She knew that Tristan was a good-looking kid, knew she was on safe ground thinking it in an objective way. Her friends had even made comments to the effect that Tristan would be high on their list of "prospects" if they were twenty years younger. He was blessed with looks that appealed to most women, regardless of age. He stood just below six feet and possessed the kind of strong, handsome features found on matinee idols—the rough, "masculine" type, not the "pretty boy" type. He styled his thick mane of dark brown hair the way young men did in the late nineteen sixties, long by twenty-first century standards, super-long by the standards of men who favored the shaved head aesthetic. A hard, toned body honed by years of competing in various sports had served Tristan well in life. Men respected him, sometimes envied him; and women, especially athletic women like Molly, couldn't wait to rub their bare bodies against his.
That included Cara, though she carried her attraction—rather, her unconscious mind did—to a deeper, darker level, to the domain of repressed feelings. Try as she might, she couldn't push her desire back into her unconscious, especially after another such dream popped up months later. The genie, so to speak, was out of the bottle.
By this time, Gary was out of the house, living with the woman he'd been seeing for over a year, the one who had caused all the trouble. She was more a symptom of what can happen when marriages grow stale. In any case, Gary was gone, leaving only Cara and Tristan in the split-level house on Seneca Lane. Tristan was in his second year of college, a suburban to downtown commuter. Cara still worked as a dental hygienist, bringing in decent money. The opportunity for Cara to act on her fantasies wasn't lost on her, opportunity reinforced by Tristan's admiring glances when he watched her pad around the house wearing skimpy attire, a mint-green nightgown included. She wasn't built like Molly, Tristan's young girlfriend, slim and buff. She was on the chunky side—not fat but hardly displaying the athletic aesthetic that even forty-something women like her could claim through dedicated exercise. Her figure was akin to the voluptuous pinup goddesses of the nineteen-forties and nineteen-fifties—with a few extra pounds given that those goddesses were in their twenties and perhaps early thirties like the great Betty Page. Women who looked like Cara could be found on porn sites featuring the best of the MLIFs, those deliciously sexy middle-agers that served as fantasy material for men a generation younger.
Cara didn't know about these sites until one day when she caught Tristan watching one of them on his desktop computer. He was in his room with the door open. Cara had just stepped into the hall after her shower wearing a short robe that she had tied around her waist. Standing in the doorway, leaning against the doorpost wearing a smug grin with arms folded, she said, "I think I look as good as them." She meant it half in jest, something said to gage her son's reaction.
Tristan turned around in his chair, then gave her the once over, from her bare feet to her straight, lightly frosted hair that hung loose and damp just above her shoulders. "Sorry mom," he said, "I should close my door when watching this stuff." It could have been worse; she could have caught him jerking off instead of simply looking, fully clothed in jeans and a T-shirt.
Cara unfolded her arms, stepped into the room and sat on the edge of his double bed. Her silk robe, decorated in a flower pattern set over a silver background, while tied firmly around her waist, still revealed much of her ample cleavage. Her lightly tanned legs were fully exposed—her plump, shapely calves and her full, luscious thighs. "Does Molly know you watch porn?"
Tristan swiveled his desk chair around to face her. "Yeah, she does," he said, feasting his brown eyes on this woman who looked sexy enough for any MLIF porn site he'd ever surfed. Of course, this was no image on the seventeen-inch flat computer screen that sat on his desk. This was an undeniably sexy woman sitting on his bed who just so happened to be his mom. Wearing an expression of lust mixed with shyness, he said, "Mom, you must know that it isn't easy talking to you when you're dressed like that."
"Well, that can mean only two things," she said. "You're either embarrassed or you're distracted to the point of thinking taboo thoughts." Crossing her legs, she leaned back on her elbow and swished her tongue across her sensuous lips. "Of course, you could always be both." She grinned watching him squirm in his chair and his olive complexion blush. "It's okay, son. We're here alone. Nobody will ever know."
He watched the seductive way she swung her right leg back and forth over her left knee. "Mom, I feel kind of ashamed, if you want to know the truth."
"Ashamed of what? That I turn you on? Don't be. It's not that unusual, you know."
Her leg kept swinging and he kept looking and his cock kept rising. He swallowed hard. "Really? None of my friends have ever told me they want to do their moms."
"I'm sure they haven't. An Oedipal Complex isn't an easy thing to admit to anyone, friends and strangers alike. And maybe none of your friends feel that way. But we both know that you do and I think it's high time you know that your feelings are reciprocated." She opened her robe about an inch to expose part of her left breast.
He brushed his hand across his forehead, then gave his crotch a brief squeeze. "Geez, mom, this is crazy."
"There was a time when I would have concurred. But when your father ran off with that woman, my entire moral code got turned on its head." She then revealed to him her dreams, those graphic, erotic dreams that she had heretofore kept secret. "So after those dreams, I didn't know what was right anymore. Right became acting on feelings, taboo or not, so long as it didn't hurt anyone else. Your father didn't care who he hurt when he began his affair. I was devastated if you remember."
