My father had rudely interrupted my morning.
I had just returned from having sex with a client. It was my first act of prostitution in what felt like ages, and I was totally satisfied with the experience. In fact, on the drive back that morning I was thinking it wouldn't be such a terrible idea to make a little extra money whoring on a more regular basis, as long as I didn't overdo it.
Let's face it, I was no spring chicken and whoring was not an option that would be available to me much longer. I might make decent money at it for another five years, but I in no way saw myself whoring into my 40s.
But with my father there in the parking lot, nursing a hard-on for me and admiring my tight outfit more than a daddy should, all those thoughts evaporated, and I thought to myself that it was a good thing I took a shower before I left my client's residence.
"Daddy, you don't want to do this," I insisted. "This isn't you. You're just all worked up because I taunted you, and I'm sorry for that. I really am."
He moved his hand from my hip to my bottom, squeezing my broad butt cheek. He leaned into me enough that I felt the knuckles of his other hand moving against my abdomen; the other side of that hand was squeezing his penis.
Ewww! I thought, This isn't even remotely exciting me. Fucking my father-in-law is one thing, but my own father?
"What do you say, Terri?" daddy asked. "Your papa puts in a good word with your children, smooths over those hard feelings, and you show your papa what a nasty girl you are."
"Daddy, stop it!" I was feeling guilty for inciting him to this. "This isn't you talking. You're a good man. Mama, she's the only woman you ever had sex with in your whole life!"
"That may be true, yes, ... " he started.
"Not maybe. Not maybe. It's a fact," I insisted.
"But we haven't been intimate in six years," he said.
"Uhhh, too much information! And don't you need to work that out with her?" I reached down and pulled his hand away from my butt and took a step back.
He frowned and his expression transformed to agitation.
"Why are you being hard to get? Aren't you the one who can't get enough of this?" he asked as he shook his hand on his penis. "How is it you can open your legs for every other man in this county but you get all righteous with your own father who has needs too!"
I was feeling sorry for him, but I still didn't want to fuck - not even remotely interested.
"Pa, all this talk about making my babies like me again, it's bullshit. You can't take back what you said to them. You can't turn them on and off like they are toys. They hate me! They hate me! That's, that's a thing that will take years to change, if it ever does change. So, don't come round here telling me you NEED to fuck me! I'm not the only whore in Liberty County."
"You, YOU! are the only whore that I want!" he shouted as he shook a finger at me. And tears welled up in the eyes of his contorted face.
It made sense that he would fantasize about me, after all the crap that I had pulled. I wanted to be understanding, but this whole situation was so fucking weird. I felt like our little parking lot drama was stuck in black and white. I was some dark, malignant she-devil and he was this poor, mortally wounded old white knight.
I remembered the beating he gave me when he found out that I was whoring. It was so vivid in my mind. The weeks that passed when it was so hard to get out of bed because of the broken ribs he gave me. I remember the expression on his face when he beat me.
He was so hurt, so completely devastated. And now he needed me, in a sick way, but he had come to me seeking relief.
That look in his eyes now, it was years in the making, and it was my doing. I broke down. I felt a resignation to at least make an effort at providing my daddy a mercy fuck.
I sighed and nodded my head to one side, "Come innnnn!" I groaned.
I turned and walked toward my lonely apartment. I stepped inside and the loneliness of it wrapped around me. For the thousandth and umpteenth time I was reminded of the happy noise that was not there because my parents had custody of my two older children.
Father followed me inside as I stared at the carpet around his shoes and chewed at the corner of my bottom lip.
"Where is your son," he asked. "Where do you leave your baby when you go whoring?"
"He's with a friend," I said defensively. "I take good care of him."
"And whose father does he come from?" he asked, already knowing the answer; it wasn't as if we had not had this conversation before.
"Let it go, daddy!" I complained.
"Are you still filthy from that man you sold your body to last night?"
"Jeez!" I retorted. "You know, you're not exactly putting me in the mood for this ... and no! I'm not still filthy. I took a shower daddy. I'm a cleaned up whore! Do you want me to take another shower? Would that make me more fuckable?"
"Yes, please," he said, unable apparently to keep from insulting me. "Take another shower. You look dirty to me."
I rolled my eyes and thought about saying something smart, but I bit my tongue and said, "I'll take another shower. I'll clean out all of his cum, not there is any left!"
I went alone into the bath and undressed there. I showered for 30 minutes, not being in any hurry to get out. I figured - wishful thinking - that he might lose his nerve or his patience and just leave.
But when I stepped out of the bathroom with a big yellow towel wrapped around me, enough to cover my breasts and bottom, he was sitting patiently at my little dining room table, reading an old newspaper that Morton had left behind.
I pulled up a chair and sat next to him close enough for my knees to press against this left thigh. He raised his head and looked into my eyes. They were mournful eyes. I didn't know what to say, so I didn't say anything.
I began to unwrap the top and let it fall so daddy could see my bare breasts. I watched him and his eyes moved up and down from my face to my chest to my legs and up again.
Then I decided to speak my honest mind.
"Daddy, it's not like this is the creepiest thing I have ever done. Lord knows, some of the men I have been with are the god-damndest pigs to ever get up on two legs; they belong in a swamp. If you really, really want to do this, I'll help you through it. But it's liable to mess your head up more than it will mine."
I reached out and held his hand. He squeezed mine and said, 'I miss my little girl. Where did she go? Why must you be this, this kind of woman?'
I didn't answer. It seemed like a rhetorical question, anyway. I lifted his hand to my bare breast and pressed his palm against it, spreading his fingers across the surface of my fleshy white melon with my finger tips.
"Have you no shame? It is so easy for you to behave this way?" he said, his voice inflecting a little anger.
"This is what you came here for, isn't it?" I said.