Part Two
The next morning I awoke in a cold sweat. The suffocating cloud of shame still hovered over me, my head foggy and reeling over the previous night's events. How could I have jerked off thinking about my own mother? I never once even had a hint of a sexual thought about her back in high school. How could have finding her that way have had such an effect on me now? What if my father had come home to see me spying on my mom pleasuring herself? He'd kill me!
I shakily got out of bed, showered, and changed into a sky blue Ambrecrombie polo and pressed pink bermuda shorts. I put some wax in my hair, pushing around the thickening agent until the hair on top stood up. I admired the shaved sides and lengthy spiked, messy hair on top. Satisfied, I went downstairs for some breakfast.
Mom was in the kitchen. She wore a golden silk slip dress, her hair back in a messy bun while she poured boiling water over her glass pour-over coffee maker.
"Good morning, sweetie," mom said as I came into the kitchen.
"Morning," I grumbled.
I went straight to the pantry and tried to avoid eye contact. I mindlessly looked over the different types of cereal, not really reading the labels or registering the different shapes in flavors. I could still see the outline of my mother in my peripheral field, and desperately tried to ignore the tight silk hugging her thighs and buttocks.
"You seem awfully quiet this morning. Everything okay?"
"Yeah, just tired. Last night I was really hot, had a rough time getting to sleep."
"Oh ok. How late did you stay up?"
I started to say ten- but I stopped. I realized I'd be admitting I was awake last night while she was doing...that in her room. I didn't want to, I couldn't bring myself to make the admission.
"About nine or a quarter after. I think I woke up once or twice before my alarm went off this morning, too."
I gulped. That was close. I fidgeted with some of the cereal boxes, trying to look like I was making some progress.
"Well I'm sorry you didn't sleep well, my love. I suppose you're too grumpy to give your old mom a hug?"
She came up behind me suddenly, putting a hand on my shoulder. I felt little jolts of electricity where she touched me.
I wanted to protest, but I couldn't speak as she pulled me back and brought me into a warm embrace. I tried not to make my body too rigid as she held me, as I didn't want to betray my lack of comfort. However, I could feel her so much through the dress, the warmth of her body coming over me. I flinched as a part of me stiffened and rose. When I felt myself pressing firmly against her, I pulled away.
"I just poured some coffee, so you could have a cup of that to try to wake up a bit. Do you want any eggs or sausage? I'm about to take the meat off the machine grill."