The car ride home was silent. As soon as Penny and I got home, she shut herself in her room and didn't come out except to make herself a sandwich at dinner. As for me, I showered and could barely look at my body, as it reminded me of what had just transpired.
What came over me? Penny was my daughter. At this point it wasn't the incest that surprised me - I'd come to terms with my attraction to her several days earlier - but the way my instincts took over. I reminded myself again and again that she had said yes, that afterward Penny talked about doing it again, but still. I could not let go of the idea that I had taken advantage of my daughter.
That night I couldn't eat. I sat on the couch and looked at my hands. Oh Penny. I hope you'll forgive me.
With her soft footsteps on the landing above me, I made a promise to myself. I would never touch my daughter again.
The next day was Saturday, and by the time I woke Penny was already gone. She usually got up for a jog in the mornings, but this was early even for her. I made some breakfast and tried to clean the house in order to get my mind off things. Maybe I should call Laura, I thought. Soften the edge. But she would probably play daughter again. The thought of hearing her voice whisper daddy already rushed blood to my cock. Even if I asked her not to, I remembered it; the risk was too great.
A girlfriend? There were some women I knew who I could ask on a date, but no one I was interested in. I should join one of those web sites. Maybe that would help.
When I was washing the coffee pot, Penny came back. I turned and saw her and my breath caught in my throat. She was in little shorts and a sports bra, shiny with sweat, her hair pulled back in a ponytail. I could almost still taste her. I remembered how little her pussy had been, the sweetness of her juices on my face. I turned away.
"Morning daddy." Penny brushed past me, very close. I tensed up.
"Hi Penny."
She ran a hand along my back. I didn't move.
"What's on your agenda today?"
"Just relaxing," Penny said. "I thought maybe we could watch a movie tonight?"
I thought about the last time we watched a movie together, when my hands had found their way to her breasts. I coughed. "I have to catch up on some research, kitten."
She scrunched her face. "Oh. What about after?"
Was it my imagination, or did her voice purr over the words? "I'll be working late."
Penny wasn't one to pout, or complain. She shrugged, but I saw her eyes stay to the floor. "OK, daddy. If you have to."
I risked a pat on her shoulder. "Love you, kitten."
As soon as I was in my study, I started formulating a plan. I knew I needed to talk to Penny about what happened; you can't just fuck your daughter then never talk about it again. But how did I broach the subject? I could hardly think about it without getting hard, or ashamed. The two emotions warred inside me until was ready to burst. I wanted her, but I loved her. What I had done was wrong. The idea of Penny saying that - daddy, I hate you, daddy, how could you - broke my heart. Maybe I was a coward, but I did not want to have that conversation.
I began to open my case files. I'd been researching a new experimental treatment, and it was enough to occupy my brain of even the Penny problem. I did love medicine. For a few hours, I poured over statistics and stitches and test results, until my eyes hurt and I needed to eat lunch.
Downstairs, I found Penny on the couch. She had her feet up and was wearing pajama shorts and a tank top, no bra. From my position on the stairs, I could see her nipples poking through the fabric.
Penny heard me and turned to smile. "Hi daddy. Time for a break?"
She turned onto her belly. Her little ass cheeks peeked out of her shorts. God, I hadn't properly appreciated her ass when I had the chance. I wanted to bite it.
"Got to get some lunch and get back to work."
Penny followed me into the kitchen while I made a sandwich.
"So, daddy, I've been thinking, we haven't gone on vacation in a few years. What about this Christmas? Maybe somewhere warm?"
I tore a slice of cheese and put it on the bread. "Maybe."
"I've always wanted to go to Mexico. There are places were the water is as warm as a bath."
"That sounds nice."
"So, should I start looking?"
"I don't know, sweetie." I turned to look at her. She looked so cute, with her messy ponytail, her shoulders smooth and delicate. She looked like my daughter. "I don't know if that's such a good idea."
Penny instantly turned red. Alright, so she remembered, too. I had been starting to wonder.
"Why, daddy? We could spend some time together, where people won't know who we are."
I turned back to my sandwich, which was much easier to look at. "Honey, I think we both know what happened yesterday was wrong. It was all my fault. I never should have come near you."
I snuck a look at Penny: she had her eyes cast on the floor, her toes pointed together, like she was receiving a lecture.
"Penny, please, believe me. You did nothing wrong. It was all my fault."
When Penny looked up, her eyes were filled with tears. "Dad, I know that's not true. We both did something bad."
"No sweetie. Just me."
"If I..." But she shook her head and hid her face in her hands.
"Kitten, tell me." I outstretched my hands to move hers away from her face.
"If I told you it was ok, would that change anything?"
I froze, my hands still in front of me. "Honey."
"Don't." Penny turned away.
"Honey, please. Listen. No, no matter what you said, it wouldn't change anything. It was wrong. If you..." I could hardly say the words. So much of me was jumping for joy at hearing this, but I had made a promise, and a good one. "If you enjoyed yourself, that's alright. That's natural. But that doesn't make what I did ok."
"Even if I say it was?"
Oh, Jesus.
Penny walked right up to me. She put her arms around my waist, and pressed so close I could feel her nipples against my stomach. I remembered how it felt to be inside her, my daughter's wet hole around my cock. My mouth was dry.
"Daddy, I know how much you love me. You just lost a bit of control. But it's always been just you and me here, and I can't describe how close to you I felt in those moments, when you were inside me. Please, daddy, I promise I'm not lying. I think it will be better, if we went slower, next time."
I thought about it - slowly fucking my daughter, our breath getting ragged and in sync, as I moved in and out of her body - but extracted myself.