At the top of the ramp was the resort beach bar, actually one of many. And there, sitting at the bar was my wife, topless as well, and looking a few years younger than even when we first met. The whole thing was surreal, and I noticed at once the way all the other patrons looked with confusion at this apparently too young to drink girl downing shots of Tequila. Apparently, the bar staff knew she was old enough, but no one else did.
The problem was, any tolerance to alcohol is physical, not mental. So the drinks my wife was used to for a casual social buzz in her old body now had her blasted. As Lissette and I approached her, she swiveled her wicker bar stool in our direction and slurred in an odd drunken teen voice, "well, if it isn't Mr. Cold Ass and my sweet daughter… So what brings you out of hibernation Mr. Cold Ass?"
"I… wanted to join you two for drinks," I said , mildly stunned. My God, she was hammered! I felt wildly embarrassed, and wondered how many of these people would think I was an old lecher, or a poor Father, or both. And yet, I had to admit that her body did look fantastic, in a forbidden sort of a way. Her breasts were magnificent, and almost just like they were when I first met her, and yet also they reminded me too much of my own daughter in those years… and I didn't feel right about seeing her this way, even if it was just a clone.
Also, I just couldn't get over the taboo. Even if this girl was mentally in her 30's, she was physically in her teens, and although inside that svelte, lean, teen body was the mind of my wife and lover for my entire adult life, the mother of our children, I just couldn't imagine actually touching her intimately without feeling tremendous guilt. Oddly, it overpowered any feelings of guilt I had over the still recent event with my own daughter on the ramp because, hell, at least she was legal. But then again, due to the special circumstances, so was my teen bodied wife.
I didn't want my always loving Marriage to end, and I fought the opposing impressions in my mind that on the one hand it wasn't, that my wife was alive and right here before me, and on the other that it was, and that my wife was gone forever and this child was a stranger.
Once again, I could never have made it without Lissette. "Mom," Lissette said with emphasis, both reminding me who this girl really was and getting the drunk teen/woman's attention, thereby taking it off picking an argument with me, "can you please order me a drink?"
Distracted by the mundane task, my wife's mind switched gears and she ordered. The bartender came over in a few minutes with a cocktail that came with an umbrella and a lot of fruit for Lissette, another shot for Lorraine, and surprisingly a Brandy Old Fashioned on the rocks, my favorite drink. Once again I was reminded that this was my wife, and that she knew me very well. With a sad look on her face she handed it to me, saying simply, "here you go, Bill."
I took the drink, and downed it fast in silence. My reverie was broken a second later when Lissette first sampled her drink.
"Mom," she laughed breezily, "this is a kids drink! Is there even any booze in here?"
"Oops," the older/younger woman/girl slurred, "I forgot. You're old enough now, aren't you… Well, can you blame me… after all, I am your doting Mother… Just order a shot of vodka, that'll jazz it up." Hearing such knowing words from such a youthful seeming girl seemed odd, but I shook it off.
So, Lissette ordered herself a shot of Vodka and poured it into the fruity cocktail, then excused herself to wander back down to the beach. I watched her gorgeous body recede as she neared the water, and I must admit my eyes lingered on her supple ass as it wiggled about, her smooth back and her long sexy legs. As I fondled her with my eyes, watching her swaying hips and her absent minded sipping at her cocktail, I suddenly felt I had to tear my eyes away, so I turned my attention back to my wife.
Lorraine was moping into her drink, and was really too drunk to notice me looking her over, which I found I couldn't help. Maybe if I could just see her differently than I had been, I could do the deed which I knew would save our marriage. And as I allowed my eyes to graze across her body, over the stiff pink nipples that defied perfection, to the gentle slope of her pubescent breasts, to the smooth flat belly, to the triangle V at the junction of her slender, velvet smooth looking young thighs which, crossed as they were conspired with the small swath of fabric which covered her most private part to hide her tender pussy lips from my sight, I had to admit to myself that she was indeed the sexiest goddamn thing I had ever, ever seen.
Suddenly, I wanted her. I could feel myself giving in to the temptation of the wonderfully taboo opportunity this all presented to me. I could fuck this girl no matter how young she looked, felt, or physically was, because mentally and legally she was a mid 30's woman, and more than that, she was my Wife. Hell, I had a license to fuck her! And she wanted me, and loved me. Once they understood the situation, no one would blame me or think me a pervert. Plus, all the stimulation I had been getting between my wife and my daughter, I would almost have been ready to fuck a transvestite Rastafarian by that point. With one glance to the surf to see that my daughter was happily frolicking in the waves, I made my mind up and scooped my drunk little teenie Wife into my arms, kissed her, and carried her off to our hotel room.
Only ten minutes later, I emerged from the room wild eyed and teary. I couldn't do it, I realized. Even though minutes before I had been totally turned on by the prospect, I just couldn't do it! Laying there on the plush hotel bed, stripped of her one small garment, laying there wantonly ready for it, she had looked (yes you guessed it) just too damn young. And as much as it was a turn on, my mind asserted itself and said loudly, THIS IS WRONG! A moment later, I found myself in my robe, on the path outside our hotel room door, leaning against the building for support, and sobbing like a lost child.
Just then is when my daughter came up to me, a look of concern in her eyes. "Dad," she called out, "there you are. I was getting worried. A man at the bar said you scooped Mom up and practically ran out of the bar. They almost had the cops after you, but the Bartender explained, which is a good thing since I don't speak Jamaican."
"They almost sent police after me? You see, that's the problem," I whined, "no matter where we go, everyone will always see her as a little girl, and me as some over the hill pervert! Including me!"
"Dad," my daughter said firmly, "this has got to stop! I know this thing has you confused, and if your behavior before we went to the bar is any indication a young girl like Mom or Me can really turn you on. So what's the problem?"
"I just told you the problem," I said plaintively, "I feel like a pervert if I even look at her like I am used to looking at my wife… as my sex partner. It's not as much what other people think that is bothering me, it's what I think, and can't seem to stop thinking."