Nov. 19
Michael is gone, he left last night and I don't know if he will ever be back. He left after Mary went down on him...made him come inside her mouth for god's sake! I'm so mad at her. She set it up to get into our bed and give her father...my husband oral sex! I'm so fucking mad. She looked shocked at the result, him leaving and all. Mike thought I might have set it up, and to be honest I can see how he thought that with me not telling him about the whole thing to begin with. I'm very sad as I write this.
And Marie will be here in a couple days, Friday probably, just two days! How do I tell her about her siblings, or her father! I can imagine how she will take it. I wonder if she won't get back in her car and head back to school...to sanity. Even if she stays she will not feel comfortable, nor do I think she should. I didn't talk to the kids as they left for school this morning; they knew I was upset with them. My world is so upside down right now, with each day it gets worse. It feels like I've lost my kids, my husband...everything!
At the moment I'm hoping Mike will call, maybe we can talk it over. Just to talk period would be nice, even if not about what had happened. But it will probably be a few days before he does I'd imagine. Oh my god, I feel like I'm falling...never going to stop.
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Susan's day was a blur and she could hardly remember what she did with it all. She felt like an automation, running through her paces, doing the same daily chores. She hardly knew the time, nor cared. When the kids got home, she greeted them without feeling. She did notice they recognized that she wasn't feeling well, but she shrugged off their questions and concerns, though she did accept their embraces and even started softly crying when they did. But her pain bothered them and they left her alone mostly, because they knew they were the cause for the most part.
Later it hardly surprised her when she went past Genie's room to hear them having sex, she had expected it sooner or later. What she didn't expect was she didn't feel any real excitement rise in herself from listening, and left the door shortly after, feeling again like crying, though why she wasn't sure...if from them resuming so quickly, or from her being able to get a thrill from it. She made it back to the kitchen and woodenly made supper, though she wasn't hungry herself. But she did perk up when Michael called; Genie answered it and gave her the phone, and Susan took it to her bedroom to talk as she sat on the bed.
He told her where he was staying and the phone number there, though he did ask that none of them try and visit him unless they asked him first. That hurt Susan and she told him that and she started crying over the phone. He tried to console her, but remained standoffish to her. She soon got herself under control, fearing he would hang up if she didn't. She then asked him if he was going to come back home when Marie came home Friday. That shocked him; he had forgotten it with everything that had happened that she was coming home. But he told her no, but he would think of what he would do later. She then reminded him that next Thursday was Thanksgiving, the reason why their daughter was home and would he be home by then and he replied he couldn't say if he would be. She started crying again at that. Again he tried to get her to stop, though when she didn't, he just told her he was sorry and hung up, which caused her to cry even harder. After that Susan didn't have the energy to even get up and just lay down on her bed, letting sleep take her.
Nov. 21
Well Marie is supposed to be here later today. She'll probably call when she gets closer to let us know when she will be here, probably late. For the first time in two days I'm feeling myself with Marie coming. I'm dreading telling her about this whole mess, but I'm still glad she will be here. I talked to Michael again yesterday, and again asked him about coming home for Marie, but he said no. In fact he asked me to tell her where he was so she could see him. I cried again at that, but at least he didn't hang up this time. I asked him if he wanted a divorce, and he said that at least for now he just needed away from the house, that he wasn't thinking a divorce...that made me feel better. I asked him if he still loved me, and he hesitated, but said yes, but he wasn't sure if he trusted me. I didn't argue the point, maybe he's right, but I told him I was sorry about everything and that I missed him badly. I'm not sure but maybe we might make it...unless something else happens...I'm crossing my fingers on that one.
It was after supper when Marie called, and Susan picked up quickly expecting it. The kids were off in Peter's room, as far as Susan knew. Marie told her she would be home close to midnight, and that she didn't need to sit up, that she still had her house key. Susan told her jokingly to shut up, that of course she was sitting up for her. Susan felt almost giddy talking to her and knowing she was almost there. But Marie had to go, and get back on the road to get there by midnight. Susan hung up the phone still smiling. But then it faded as she started back to talk to the others.
She stopped at her sons door and listened for a minute, hearing only soft, barely audible sounds and she caught herself thinking either they had finished or were just starting again after they had come back in here after supper. She didn't bother about knocking before opening the door, it didn't matter to them...they didn't bother covering up their nudity to her. She saw Peter resting on the pillows, with Mary beside him, both panting softly, obviously taking a break. But Genie was obviously not quite finished, she was near crotch level to both of the others and casually alternating licking on both her siblings. She stood there a few seconds taking in the visual sight before Peter and Mary noticed her.
"Hey mommy." Mary purred out as her sister was then nosing her pubic hair and gently fingering her pussy lips. Genie looked up at her at her sister's greeting.
"Hi mom!" Genie said, flashing her a smile, her mouth still wet from her sister's pussy. Susan couldn't help herself but grin and chuckle at their appearance. "You here to join us?" Genie asked playfully as she looked at her mother, and Susan just shook her head.
"No, I'm not Genie, but it's about what you're doing that I'm here. Listen Marie will be here in a few hours, probably before midnight. I don't know if you were gong to sit up for her, seeing how it's Friday night, but if you do please for tonight no sex...after she gets here. And if you would refrain until I tell her, which I plan on doing that later tomorrow, probably later in the afternoon or evening. Too give her some time to see you guys as you were, maybe not as you are." She told them, looking at them.
"Mommy, that's being melodramatic." Mary suggested to her.
"Maybe, but it'll be bad enough to have to tell her tonight that her father has moved out for awhile...which I will have to do tonight. She'll notice he didn't sit up for her as well, which he would if he hadn't left. So I want her to have a few hours to see you before she finds out about your new hobbies." She said, pointedly looking at them and did notice even Mary looked a bit ashamed; at least her face was flushed. Susan saw her nod her head.
"Ok mommy, we wont till after you tell her." Mary agreed sheepishly, and the others nodded in agreement. Susan smiled then.
"Ok good, and thank you." Susan told them and then hesitating, turned and started out of the room.
"Mommy are you sure you won't join us, we...we really would like you too. Especially before Marie gets here." Mary asked her shyly, knowing her mothers attitude. Susan turned and looked at her, at them and she started to speak, then shut her mouth. "I can't Mary, I really...really shouldn't. I'm not going to lie to you at times I have thought about it, and it does...excite me, thinking about it...seeing you three at it. But I can't do that to Michael, it feels like cheating...it is cheating! What Peter and you did that one time, well...I didn't really consent, though I know I could have stopped it. Maybe I'm just kidding myself thinking it's a grey area, but if I give in it will be cheating, no doubt about it. So...no, I can't" Susan told them and walked out of the room before they could say another word. She was almost to the kitchen when Mary caught up to her, having almost run from the room. Susan let her grab her arm and she stopped and looked at her still naked daughter.
"Mommy, I just wanted to tell you, I've done some really stupid things these past few weeks and I know you are mad at me...maybe even hate me, but I just wanted you to know I love you and I was sorry I hurt you, especially about daddy! I'm very sorry about that." Mary told her, tears running down her cheeks. She then hugged her mother hard, burying her head into her mother shoulder. "I'm so sorry." She mumbled into her mother's shirt. Susan embraced her daughter back, smiling as she held her.
"I was very mad at you, furious really, but I never hated you. I know that you are just a small bundle of raging hormones and stubbornness. And since part of you is from me I can't blame anyone but myself for what you are. Like I said, I was always tempted, I just figured as your mother and your father's wife it would be wrong for me to give in to my temptations. No matter how smart, beautiful or fucking sexy they were." Susan told her daughter, and Mary pulled away from her mother in surprise, knowing she was referring to her. She gave her mother a huge smile and quickly leaned up and kissed her. And Susan surprised her further by opening her mouth and accepting her passionate kiss; their tongues intertwined for half a minute before Mary had to breathe and broke the kiss.
"My god mommy that was the most wonderful and hottest thing anyone has ever told me." Mary looked at her, panting and flush with excitement. Susan looked back at her and smiled, running her hand along her daughter's cheek and over her mouth.
"And that was a very hot kiss, but that is all I can give you or the others. Do you understand?" Susan told her daughter, and Mary's smile faded a bit as she nodded.
