[All characters are 18 years of age or older.]
I first became suspicious when our doorbell camera showed me that our 18 year old daughter's boyfriend, Greg, visited our house Wednesday afternoons. Kimmy was at her after-school job in the Mall, so why was he there? I thought it was worrying and set up down the street one day in my car.
Sure enough, I caught the little SOB railing my wife. I guess you could turn this into a porn story, but in fact, what happened was exactly what you'd expect - I threw a few punches and threw Greg's ass out. I didn't stay and watch. I didn't "clean" her slutty vagina. I didn't sit while he taunted my smaller penis. I didn't get an erection. None of that happened; I exploded in rage, bloodied his face, and cracked one of his ribs. Shithead is lucky I don't own a gun.
Then I threatened my wife with divorce if she ever did something like that again.
I worried for a minute that she might now assault me. She had a wild animal look in her eyes. I guess she was pumped up with frustrated sexual arousal; and then anger and defensiveness raised her blood pressure even higher. Her hair was wildly messed up, and glistening in the light I could see his and her sexual secretions running down her naked thighs. Her fingers were curled like claws.
Much later I would close my eyes, call up this image from memory, and get a throbbing erection wondering if I shouldn't have thrown her down on the bed and reclaimed her. But I didn't think of that in the moment.
Instead I argued with her. I said I'd tell our daughter and I'd tell her strait-laced parents. We exchanged accusations and insults for close to an hour. On and on; it was loud and nasty. Then we gave each other the silent treatment and icy stares. Nothing much was said for two days. Then my wife suddenly blurted out that she agreed we should talk about a divorce.
I was completely surprised. I hadn't really meant it when I said it; I was just furious and enraged. I'd already forgotten I threatened it. I'll never know, but I think I could have put the whole dirty story behind me if she had just performed her penance. We'd been married 20 years. I could excuse one slip-up if she asked me to forgive her.
But no, instead of apologizing, she said we *should* think about divorce, because she was going to "live her own life" the way she wanted. She said it was all my fault, because we had lousy sex and she was tired of pretending to enjoy it. Greg had "taught her who she really was," whatever that means. "I never faked an orgasm for him," she yelled at me, and I was suddenly defensive and hurt.
I snarled back that Greg had also taught me who she really was, and that she was a whore.
She went on to say that if we got a divorce she'd take half of everything, bleed me for alimony and child support, and let the whole town know I wanted a divorce because I was such a dud in bed that she took a lover and got caught.
I meekly admitted that I didn't want any of that and that I loved her, and hoped we could be a normal couple again. The conversation didn't end until she had manipulated me into apologizing to her for my "outrageous behavior" - sneaking around, spying with the camera, violating her privacy, assaulting a teenager. On my knees, on the floor in front of her. A real heartfelt apology.
I folded. Looking back now, I know I just loved her more than she loved me. I needed her more than she needed me. I wanted her in my bed more, a lot more, than she wanted to be there. I asked her to forgive me, and at the moment I said it, I meant it with all my heart.
And that night she did sleep in our bed with me, although all I got was a cold shoulder. She let me stew in those juices for another day then announced that "if we are going to make this a family again" I needed to apologize to Kimmy's boyfriend. (My daughter knew nothing about what had happened - neither my wife nor Kimmy's boyfriend had told her anything, of course.)
I agonized for hours before I made a decision. I catch a college student in bed with my wife and I'm going to ask him to forgive me? It was outrageous. Why in the world would I say I'm sorry for getting angry at a guy fucking my wife? It was emasculating.
I paced the house, going to my study. If I gave in, what would I say to Greg? How can a man apologize to the stud that made him a cuckold? If I stand firm and refuse, how will I live with the consequences? And, most difficult question of them all at that moment: why was my cock so hard?
I adjusted my erection inside my pants. I was boned like a teenager just imagining myself at Greg's feet, groveling, a defeated cuckold loser. "My wife prefers your dick to mine; I apologize?" I moved my penis around in my pants some more, trying to lessen the discomfort. Maybe if I open my zipper? Just a little bit. Give little Donny some fresh air.
No way any of this apology thing makes sense. Why would my wife even ask this? I open my pants all the way and slowly, without giving it much thought, begin stroking my foreskin back and forth over the head of my penis.
I'm not going to do it. Even if we do end up separated or divorced, how can I kneel at Greg's feet? I'm close to losing it now. I'm seconds away from jizzing all over the place.
Kneel, and beg? A college freshman? So what if his dick was longer than mine? It doesn't matter that my wife fucked him, and sucked him, week after week. I won't do it. Not even though he gave her real orgasms. My resolve collapsed at the instant I sprayed the contents of my prostate gland all over myself. How could I live without my wife?
***
The next Wednesday afternoon Greg came to our house and I apologized to him for my violent actions. The injured rib, the bloody face. I apologized for hurting him on my knees, sitting on my heels. When my wife led her teenage lover over in front of me, I immediately had another erection. Fortunately the position I was in kept my secret.