Taking her deceased mother's place, Wendy willingly and consensually has incestuous sex with her father.
Continued from Chapter 02:
'What's wrong with me,' I thought again? 'This isn't some horny, perverted man that I'm dating. This is my father. This is my Dad. I can't believe that I want to blow him. I can't believe that I want to suck his prick. I can't believe that I want him to cum in my mouth and all over my face. How dare I have inappropriate, sexual thoughts for my father, especially when his wife, my mother, just died. God, indeed, without doubt, I'm such a wicked whore.'
Yet, riddled with incestuous lust for my widowed Dad, I imagined him doing all of the sexual things with someone else that I imagined him incestuously doing with me. Justifying my incestuous sexual actions under the guise of making him feel sexually satisfied enough to sleep, who was I kidding? Under the guise that I was innocently cuddling with him while hoping that he'd take sexual advantage of me, I obviously wanted to have forbidden sex with my father as I hoped that he'd want to have incestuous sex with me.
'A big step for me to take. Starting there and giving it some serious thought. Would I really allow him to sexually touch and feel me through my nightgown? A big step to take, would I really allow him to unbutton my nightgown,' I thought while thinking more about it? 'Feeling as embarrassed as I felt sexually excited, would I dare show him my naked breasts? Suddenly feeling like such a wicked whore, would I dare allow him to touch, feel, and fondle my naked breasts and turn, twist, and pull my erect nipples?'
Thinking more about what I'd allow him to sexually do and what I wouldn't allow him to sexually do, I thought of my mother. If she were here with me, what would she do? Especially with her knowing the wicked whore and the blowjob queen that I am, what would my mother want me and expect me to do in this situation and under these circumstances? Even though I wanted my father to sleep, I may be thinking more of my sexual needs than his sleeping needs.
What if this was her father? Knowing the whore that my mother would have been and could have been had she not married my father; would she have sex with him, her own father? No doubt, like daughter like mother, if she was me, just as I was about to surrender my naked body to my father to help him to sleep, she'd willingly and eagerly do the same.
'Continuing to ponder the thought of having forbidden sex with my Dad, would I allow him to masturbate me? Would I dare stroke his cock while he rubbed my clit and fingerfucked my pussy? Would I dare suck his cock while he felt and fondled my naked breasts while fingering my erect nipples? Would I dare blow my father, allow him to cum in my mouth, and allow him to give me a cum bath? I didn't know but I was sexually aroused just thinking that I would,' I thought.
"Sorry, Mom," I said staring up at the ceiling as if my mother was there and staring down at me. "But this is all your fault for giving him sex every night. Now, Daddy can't sleep without receiving a blowjob. I'm willing to do whatever I must do to get him to some sleep but," I said. "To be honest, even though I'm a wicked whore, I don't know if I can go through with it. I don't know if I can have sex with my father. I don't know if I can suck his cock."
Clearly jealous of the sexual relationship that he had with my mother, I wondered if I slept with him and he cuddled with me but without the sex, if that would be enough to help him to sleep. Suddenly sexually aroused again with the thought of having forbidden sex with my father, I wondered what I'd do if he wanted to have sex with me. Would I welcome having sex with him or, at the last minute when having second thoughts, and turn him away? Would he want to have sex with me in the way that I wanted to have sex with him?'
Giving him the wrong signals, I considered wearing my mother's nightgown, her makeup, her perfume, and fixing my hair like her hair. Yet, with me looking like my mother, what if he wanted and expected me to give him sex. I didn't know what I do. I wasn't sure if I'd give him sex or not. If I did have it in me to have incestuous sex with my father, there'd be no turning back. Once I opened Pandora's Box, traveled down that illicitly, forbidden road, and had sex with my father, I'd forever be ruined.
As if I was Nathaniel Hawthorne's woman in the Scarlet Letter but wearing a scarlet letter 'I' for incest instead of an 'A' for adultery, I'd be forever shamed. Yet, unable to stop myself from dwelling on it, I couldn't stop thinking about having an inappropriate, sexual relationship with my father. Besides with just us living here together alone, who would know what we sexually did behind closed doors? Just as he wouldn't tell anyone that he had sex with his daughter, I wouldn't tell anyone that I had sex with my father.
'Making myself even more sexually aroused, would I allow him to practically strip me naked,' I thought? 'Would I stop him or allow him to do whatever he wanted to do to my naked body under the guise that I was helping him to sleep? The big question that I was unable to answer until it happened, would I have incestuous sex with my father? Would I stroke him, suck him, and fuck him while he had incestuous sex with me?'
Suddenly, having not had sex in a while, I was so very horny. Suddenly, sexually aroused, I was making myself all wet by thinking about having sex with my father. I thought that, during the night, at the very least, while we cuddled, that he may touch me and feel me through my mother's nightgown in the way that he touched and felt my mother. At the very least, with me playing the innocent victim, while pretending that I was there just to cuddle him while watching a movie, would I allow him to feel my nightgown clad breasts while fingering my erect nipples?
'Surely, there's no harm in that,' I thought while justifying him feeling my nightgown clad breasts and fingering erect nipples to myself. 'It's just tits. It's just my tits. Now that my mother is no longer around to stop me, to make me feel guilty, and to make me feel like the whore that I am, I can do whatever I want with my own breasts. As long as he's amenable to having sex with me, I can do whatever I sexually want with my own father and with my own body.'
So very many men touched me, felt me, and stripped me naked. So many men had sex with my naked body. I thought of all the men who felt my tits, saw my tits, and sucked my tits.
'I've allowed lots of men to see my naked tits, feel my naked breasts, and suck my naked tits, why not allow my father that same sexual pleasure, too? Truth be told, with him responsible for making me and for raising me, they're just as much his tits as they are my tits. I never thought of it that way but now that I did, it became easier to allow my father to have his wicked, sexual way with my naked tits,' I thought.
Only, my Dad wasn't like that. A faithful husband who never cheated on my mother, he never had sex with anyone but with her. As far as I knew, unless he's been secretly masturbating over me while spying on me and watching me dress, undress, bathe, and shower, he was never sexually attracted to me.
Much like any man, he may think the thought of wanting to have sex with me but I knew that my father would never act on the thought. He'd never have sex with me, his own daughter, in the way that he had sex with my mother and in the way that I may want to have sex with him. Yet, if even only subconsciously, I wished he would sexually seduce me.